Birthday weekend is over and I've eaten my share of cake. Now it's time to get serious again. I'm back OP today, so here I go again.
The pregnancy tests I took were all negatives! So now I'm just waiting for AF to show up... (or not to show up since I have PCOS and never know if I'll have a cycle or not). This is all so frustrating.
It's heartbreaking and frustrating. That whole "infertility hurts" quote is and understatement. It's like you get your hopes up each time just to suffer through another emotional cycle. What's worse is that when I go to the doctor they don't even really want to talk to me about having a child because I'm overweight. That's all they will focus on. Forget that I'm otherwise healthy... let's just focus on the fact that her belly is big. (And I know that I'm ranting now because I know there are more risks for women who are overweight becoming pregnant.)
I just feel so stumped... because now all I can do is Wait.. and wait.. and try to lose more weight and hope that I'll lose enough to where a doctor will actually help me! Gosh I really got off topic here. I guess that's what's on my mind though. It just all leaves me so drained. I even considered adoption, but who has 30,000 just lying around. Anyway.. please say prayers for me. I hope you all are doing good!
Posted By: iwantababy
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04/30/2007 16:31
Party's over......
You indulged and then you're back on track! That's awesome! Way to go on the losses. Keep it up!
I know how hard it is to not get pregnant month after month. I think you need a new doctor. Having a OB/GYN that was really fat friendly made all the difference for me. I don't know if any of these are in your area. They are fat friendly doctors.
Sorry about not getting pregnant. Don't give up....I get really bummed out sometimes too, I have to drop 50 pounds myself so I can have a baby. I can relate to how you feel. Chin up....and things will get better...
I too have severe PCOS. I am anovulatory and have amenorrhea (no ovulation or AF) I had to go through fertility treatments. If you are interested in my plight to become a mom then you can read my fertility blog... http://myinfertileworld.blogspot.com/
I was 205lbs when I started going to a fertility dr. He was adament about my wieght. Well, let's just say that after 5 fertility cycles (1 cancelled due to no response, 2 BFN and 2 losses of twins) I was 245 lbs. In July of 2005 (1 month after the m/c of my 2nd set of twins) I decided to start WW. I stayed on it (and BCP) until Sept of 05. In that time I went down to 214 lbs and started another fertility cycle. Well I gained 15 lbs just from meds, but I did get pg and I finally did give birth to a healthy baby girl in June of 06.
If I was able to get pg and finally stay pg then I truely believe that anyone can. Best of luck to you. Feel free to contact me if you want to talk via e-mail.
I just saw your blog and I'm there with you. My GP says I have PCOS, my Gyn doesn't like that term. but I maybe ovulate once every three months. Its been that way for the past year when we decided to start trying to get pregnant and I went off the pill. Just got my latest BFN this week so now its the waiting game until AF shows again. Even thought the gyn doesn't wanted to label it, he at least is not critical about my weight. He does encourage continued weight loss and exercise to make pregnancy easier. but he says that each woman is different and just because you are 100 pounds doesn't mean you can get pregnant. He says that some of his heaviest patients can just look at their husband and get pregnant. its really just a crap shoot.
That still doesn't keep my heart breaking each time the test is negative.
