Shedding the Mask

Whoa

Thursday, December 7, 2006 22:05:13

Long Time... haven't lost as much as I wanted but I am losing and feeling pretty good.

My adopted sister came to stay with me for the summer and left this week, so I didnt have alot of time to post.

I had an emotional eating binge for one day this week - stressed out about stuff and sad about my family leaving... but I recognized and got on top of it right away - so that's good.

I just haven't been exercizing consistently and I know when I was that was making the difference... trying to figure out to fit that in with my changing schedule now...

so all in all - I guess I am not doing to bad... i keep reminding myself that it's babysteps all the way...

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Tired

Wednesday, December 6, 2006 00:06:10

Just sitting here feeling extremely tired this morning. Got off my bedtime schedule just slightly and it has really made a difference... I didnt realize how good it was for me, going to bed at the same time every night. man - i hate being this tired during the day... I haven't felt like this in awhile - I dont think.

It's supposed to be 92 degrees here today... guess that means most of my exercise today will be in the pool or after 7 tonight... at least it hasn't been too humid, but that changes tomorrow. yuck - you can't ever tell if you're sweating from the exercise or from just being outside... I still can't get used to that here. I was born in Cali and lived most of my life there and in Oregon... no humidity. I miss that!!!! :)

Okay here's my issue for today - HELP ME - i need recipes... please anyone who reads this send me recipes... I feel like since we started eating healthier that we eat the same thing over and over again... we are in a rut. And if I don't add something new, then it will be harder to stick to this. We like fish and chicken mainly for our meats... every once in awhile we will eat red meat, but not often. We eat most kinds of veggies. Wheat pastas... we just need some ideas - My family will be sooooooo grateful! Thank You!

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whoa - it's already June

Wednesday, December 6, 2006 00:04:11

Well - I guess I got up and got moving after my last post... it's been a few days since I have been on here. I got everything done that needed to be done on Thursday. And then ended up taking a 30 minute nap... my body needed it. I felt fine after that.

Friday - I went to my husbands basketball camp and did some stuff there... took some pics for the local paper. Ran some errands and then went out to dinner with some friends. (Mexican food in another town) - and we helped give away their free puppies... I wanted one, but dh said nope... :( but it's okay - I have two mini-schnauzers right now... :)

Saturday - more errands, house cleaning, then swimming for 3 hours with my dh and ds... I love that time of day!!!! after that a quick meeting and then Pizza with family.

Sunday - church, shopping for shoes for my son - (who is only 9 and in 3rd grade - we had to buy him a men's size 7 shoe - i thought i was going to cry... i kept trying to get him in the largest kids size... no such luck. But his father is 6'6" - 280 and then there's me - I am 6'0. So he has no choice to be tall, but still he's only 9 and in a men's shoe), after my break-down in the shoe store we went swimming for 2 hours (and when we swim, we really swim... play games, race, etc...we go hard), more church and then dinner with friends again.

Okay, so in all of that I see that I had no consistent exercise. I mean we go hard when we swim and wear ourselves out, but I try not to count that as my main exercise, just in case we can't make it out there... luckily we were able to twice this weekend. Sunday - after it stormed horribly. But still... I need to have some more consistency. And the eating out thing - it's so hard to eat good in a small town - when there is nothing but burger places around and 1 pizza place. And I have read that getting salads at places like that isn't always the best way to go. I stuck to my doctors guidelines for fast food, but it still felt so unhealthy. We eat great when we are home... very healthy. But we live 10 minutes outside of the what other people call town... lol - and another 15 minutes from a real town - which is where I have to do all of my errands... so i guess from now on... it's packing a cooler with food and drinks, so we don't have to grab a bite. I will let you know how that works out for us...

On the positive side - my portion control is good! I don't overeat anymore - woo-woo!!!!!!!! And I haven't been emotionally eating in I don't know how long... more points for me.

Here's to shedding more of the Mask!!!

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UGH!

Monday, December 4, 2006 21:01:11

Okay here is something that happens to me almost daily... I have been online since my last post - good grief - like I have nothing else to do today. Felt energized after my walk and breakfast. But then I had to work online... emailed some people back... did a little more work... checked out this site some more... then my husband calls and I have to write a newspaper article for him... so now it's been too long sitting on my chunky bum. And I get a teeny bit drowsy and it's suppose to rain here in a little bit and wouldn't it be so much more fun to snuggle on the couch under a quilt and watch a movie with my son? LOL - of course it would, but that will do me in. I have to get moving and do laundry and clean the house, etc... etc... the list goes on. And it's not that it's too much or that it's overwhelming... it's just that I sat here for too long and now I my quilt is calling my name from the living room... UGH! okay... here I go... I am going to get off the computer - it has crossed the line from helping me to being evil... lol. And I am going to take care of what needs to be taken care of. Comments(3)

One step at a time

Monday, December 4, 2006 21:01:09

Feeling pretty good this morning. My husband and I walked just a little bit ago, because we can't this afternoon. And I actually didnt fight it. lol - score 1 point for me. :)

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Phentermine ~ to take it or not to take it? :)

Monday, December 4, 2006 21:00:19

Yep - I dove head first in to my phentermine pills...Got them last week - forgot to add that to my last post. My doctor prescribed phentermine, a chromium pill and a water pill (I tend to retain a lot fo fluid). So 1 full week and I lost almost 5 pounds. So far so good - no weird side affects. I try to take them before 8 a.m. every morning, hoping they won't affect my sleep - and so far I haven't noticed anything out of the ordinary. I am grateful for a little extra energy that gets me thru the day. Now my body keeps up with my mind... nothing worse than your brain going 90 to nothing and you're too exhausted physically to keep up...

My husband & I completely revamped the way we eat months ago(which I enjoy) - And we also exercise more now than we used to. I enlisted his help especially with the exercising - because he lovingly motivates me, even when I whine about doing it...lol - if you read my last post - you see the "want to" isn't completely ingrained in my being just yet... but I am working on it. :) I know this has to be a way of life, not just a whim.

So, I am using these pilss as an aid, not the answer - I didnt ask my doctor for them until I had already made some major changes... So technically - my journey didnt just start here, but this is the next step. I am looking forward to meeting some others who are in the same situation...

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Time to Blog - finally

Monday, December 4, 2006 21:00:18

Okay - more time to blog today... Just sitting here looking over this site. I have never used a blogging site like this before and for something so personal. I have a MySpace - like everyone else - (for socializing and keeping up with old friends), but I know this is going to make me dig a little deeper than that- in a completely different way... I am looking forward to the journey I have started on here and to meeting new people with the same experiences...

I haven't been able to swim consistently for the last week and a 1/2 due to weather and that is my favorite outdoor activity! my 9 year old wears me out! So, it's great. I am trying to walk also... And I love playing tennis... but who else experiences the mental brick wall before tying up the shoelaces and just doing it? I mean give me a break... it's a war zone in mind until I open the door and head outside. It drives me nuts. I am fine once I am walking or playing tennis - but it's before hand that gets me...

Looking forward to making some friends who also still have a little more to love and plan on having less...

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