Sigh one more day to go after today! then my long weekend!!! This day already started out annoying. I get to work, dont even make it to my office, and I get stopped and given some work ha. But its ok, keeps me busy right?
I SOOO didnt want to go to the gym last night. I got out of work, and met John for his lunch break at Panera. I was craving broccoli cheddar soup, but when i got it, i was suddenly like bleh. I ended up only eating MAYBE half, and the baguette and tossing the rest. I got home and was a tv bum for a little while and finally guilted myself into going to the gym at 8pm. I went and had one of the best cardio works ever. I kept myself on the treadmil for 25 min. I wanted to get in some running but my shins are really crying out in pain. I need to find a better stretch for them I guess... Then I did like 23 min on the elliptical. I was sweating like a pig and loved it! I felt great when I got home. Had some more dinner, showered and crashed into bed. Boogs must have really loved me because he let us sleep the whole night. For the first time in like a year I got 8 hours of uninterupted sleep! its alazing how much better you feel when you wake up!
Today is work work work. I am here until 5ish, then I ehad over to the mall for my 3 hours in at Yankee. Depending on how tired I am when i get out, I might do a dvd at home. Or i might rest.
Menu:
Breakfast: instant oatmeal: 160; coffee: 25
Snack: applesauce: 80 i think?; strawberries (if theyre not fuzzy) 50
Man I woke up this morning and it was chilly! but i was kind of excited about it! I am ready for fall. My favorite time of year is early fall. When its cold enough to wear a turtleneck but not need a coat ya know?
I didnt get to the gym yesterday I was just way to exausted. But I am going tonight when I get home. That will be day 3 of exercise this week. Then Thursday when I get home from Yankee, I'll do a workout dvd at home, because the gym will be closed by then. That will be 4 days of working out. I am debating on whether or not to work out friday just because Ill weigh in on Saturday and I wont be able to work out until like 10 pm friday and I dont need any other factors affecting that # on the scale.. Who knows! I think ill measure my inches too, just in case some have gone away!
Well still working hard.. I havent felt great since saturday afternoon really, but i have been on tract with my calories, my working out, everything. I'm tired, but i would imagine id be even more tired if i wasnt working out!
Right now I am at work. I have to leave at 4 to go sign our apartment lease for yet another year. Hopefully this will be the last year of wasting money on rent, and we will find a house we can afford! I just finished lunch and i want a nap! I had 1/2 a sierra turkey sandwhich from panera. I got soup too, but was way to full from the sandwhich and baguette to even touch the soup!
We had our softball championship game last night, and we won. We got two giant trophies, one for winning the championship game and one for winning the league. Not to shabby. I also think it was the most I've had to run/sprint all season! Cant complain, thats exercise!
Ok here is my update menu/workout:
Food for today:
Cinnamon toast crunch w/skim 170
coffee 25
1/2 Sierra turkey from Panera 475
Whole grain Baguette 140
carrots w/blu cheese 85
snack: strawberries 50; popcorn 100
that leave 430 cal for dinner/snacks.
exercise so far this week:
sunday: Gym 20 min elliptical 20 min tredmil; machines
monday: 1.5 hr softball game
Tuesday: Gym 20 min elliptical 20 min tredmil; machines
SO its sunday... and its more then over which mean work tomorrow already! sigh. This weekend went by fast. Yesterday stunk because I worked 11-4 at my part time job at Yankee, but around 2, i had started to feel really shaky. I made it trough the shift and got home feeling like crap. Just soooo blah. John and I went and got dinner (steak) from the grocery store, i cooked it on the George, we ate, and that was my night. i spent the rest of the time laying on the couch feeling like poo... Not to mention I had weighed myself that morning and supposedly i gained like 2 lbs.
So this brings us to today, good ol sunday. I tried to wi this morning seeing what the scale would say, but every time i would get on it, it would say somethin drastically different. the first time i got one, 172.8! i was surprised so i got back on... 173.8 still not horrible.. so just to make sure, i get back on and it says 175.8! im like omg stop. so i figure lets wait a while and try again.... 170.0! woah! two sec later, 175. so this week i am not weighing myself offcially! i have stuck the scale in the closet and I am not getting on it until sat morning.
I went to the gym today to. trust me i forught everything in me telling me to rest and not go. I did 20 min on the tredmil (5 of which i ran) and then 20 min on the elliptical. Then I did some machines and called it a day. I really wanted to make a turkey dinner I was all excited but then i realized i would have to go buy one and it wont thaw in time, so i got it anyways and will cook it tomorrow to eat after my softball finals!
now im dragging my ass around the apt cleaning away cuz again it looked like a bomb went off. its frustrating because every week i clean, and every week within a few days shti is everywhere again. I need more energy in a day so i clean more often i guess? im so sick of feeling run down.
My goals for this week:
eat right; lots of water and EXERCISE. I am commiting myself to 5 days of exercise.
Sunday: 20 min tredmil; 20 min elliptical; machines
Monday: Softball finals (approx an hr and half); crunches
Tuesday: 20 min treadmill; 20 min elliptical; machines
Snack: 100 cal popcorn (100); Cheese Crackers (tbd)
Dinner: TBD
Exercise today: i WILL go to the gym. I will do 20 min on the elliptical (burns approx 300 cal) and 15 min on the tredmil (100 cal?) Also will do some arm machines and crunches when I get home.
I weighed myself saturday morning, was down .4lbs again. I guess its better then gaining right? Just hope something starts to pick up so I could reach my personal 10 week goal of 165. Sigh. I wish I could get my ass to workout. I am just always so tired after work. I dont get to bed until like 12 am, then the stupid cat has been horrible lately at night and I get woken up atleast 4 times every 2 hours or so. I wake up with my alarm feeling like I never got to sleep at all. This in turn, makes me want to sleep more, which then makes me barely ontime for work. Ugh. I swear it is a jealously thing on Boogs behalf. If its just me, or just John home, he is generally a little angel. But the second both of us are there, its crazy cat time!! Last night at 4:45am, i finally was so upset about not getting sleep I went on the couch. doesnt Boogs follow me out calmly, and goes to sleep on his shirt box for the night. Doesnt bother a soul! Ugh! Hes such an attention whore!!
While I am trying to stay motivated with eating right, it gets tough. When i started out on this journey, I had so much support and such a great place to go to for it. at 22, sometimes i wonder if I more mature beyond my years to be so annoyed with drama and selfishness. Thankfully, I have friends who are still there for me, whether they're my boyfriend who i see everyday, or if they're over 1,000 miles in some other state.
I guess my main focus right now needs to be working out. Need to find a routine that works, and kick its ass.
Oh and I got on the scale this morning and saw 174.0. Maybe it will stay there or lower for Saturday. I dont usually see a loss durring the week, so this could be a good sign!
Well i decided to remesure my inches before i started my gym dedication. In certain areas (my chest and my hips) i lost an inch of two since June. My waist stayed the same, as did my arm. My thigh gained .5 an inch. Here are the measurements:
8/18/06:
Chest: 36.5"
Arm: 12.5"
Waist: 38"
Hips: 41"
Thigh: 27"
hopefully in a few weeks, these will all be lower :)
So yesterday (thurs) I took a half day from work, just to take a break. Stupidly, I didnt bother to bring any snacks with my to carry me over for the 4 hours I was working, and was so slow to get out of bed that I didnt get a chance to grab some breakfast. Needless to say, I got home to the apartment at like 1, and was ravenous! So we ordered chinese. I ate like it was my last supper! Sweet and sour chicken! Fried rice! scarfed it down. I didnt eat it all (about 75%) of it. I felt so huge after, and suddenly so depressed. Why? I had the calories for it right? I had had no breakfast, no snacks, no anything until the chinese. I told myself I would do my best to look up the calories for it, and go from there.
Well. Then the apartment maintence guys came to fix our dripping tub faucet, and we had to hide Boogs in the bedroom and any evidence he exsisted, because he is an 'illegal' (meaning, we have him but the complex doesnt know it because we didnt see the need to pay $200 down and $20 a month for a guy who weighs 10 lbs, and you wouldnt know exsisted). John stayed in the bedroom with Boogs, while I distracted the guy, and when they left, we were beat and took a nap. I totally forgot about looking up the chinese calories.
Then we went to the mall. We walked around, but both our stomaches hurt (go figure) so we headed home, but on the way, John saw a italian pizza place and wanted to try their pizza. So he ordered a medium. I told myself, 'no way, you already messed up today you need to eat something healthy, who knows if you even have calories left!' but what do I do? go and eat 3 small pieces! I completely because miserable. More miserable then I had been earlier at myself about the chinese.
I spent the rest of the night in a horrible, mean funk. Poor John got the brunt of it, and couldnt figure out what was wrong with me. I failed to fill him in on how much I HATED myself, and how I didnt get that I could hate my reflection in the mirror so much, and hate the weight I am, but do what I did. I went to bed feeling like the biggest failure.
Then I woke up this morning, and decided to see what the scale had said. My official WI I will count is tomorrow morning, but I wanted to do some damage control of possible. Luckily, the scale only said 175.8. I am hoping, with a POP day, and TONS of water, the scale tomorrow, will not show higher then 175.
As much as I have told myself I have been trying lately, I havent. Yes, I have counted what goes in my mouth, but my theory of 'well its still under 2,000 calories so what if its a little over 1500' is wrong. I have a job where I spend 99% of my day at a desk, I wore a pedometer once. You know what it said for total steps for the DAY?? like 300. Yeah, daily recommended is like 10,000! Which brings me to a whole new depressing thing. Becuase all my jobs before this, i was on my feet 8-12 hrs a day. I walked everywhere. I gained all the weight I put on, since starting this job 2.5 years ago. And it has among other things, also killed my metabolism. So here my friends, is my plan. If you have made it through all this, I thank you!
Plan:
- Workout 4-5 days a week at the gym. Doing a minimum 30 min cardio and 20 min weights/circuit training.
- Aim for 1200-1500 calories, not more.
- drink a minimum of 100oz of water each day
- take my multi every day.
I am weighing in tomorrow morning and then I am going to stay off the scale for a few weeks because I have a feeling with this increase in workouts, that at first the scale might rise. We shall see.
Well its a busy day here at work because one of my morning girls called in this morning because someone stole her only car! Luckily its not horribly busy and were doing ok.
I got on the scale this morning. I didnt want to because even though I have been within my calories, we had gone to the gym and usually the morning after a workout I weigh like 2 lbs more! But i got on and it said 175! Not to shabby considering all week I have seen 176ish. I think getting in the water before, durring and after working out helped! I drank over 120oz yesterday!! I feel good today, a little sore from the gym, but a good sore! It might help that I think I got a full nights sleep last night! Boogs was busy doing other things so he didnt bother us, what a much needed rest! Stupid Cat! :)
Today I am working til probably 5:30ish. Then I will head home, figure out whats for dinner, and I think do one of my toning dvds. Argh crap I cant because we use Playstation as our dvd player and John took the remotes to his grandmas to play a game there so I have no way to push play! Hmmm maybe ill buy one just so i can do the workout.. or i can just do some exercises on my own..
Thats about it! John is working til 8, and nothing good is on tv tonight that I know of. Maybe we will take Boogs for a walk, it has been ages since hes been out for a stroll.
Todays Menu:
Breakfast: 2 Special K Waffles (120); Lite Syrup (100); Coffee (30); 24 oz Water;
Snack: Grapes (70); Strawberries (50);
Lunch: 2 slices Kids Wonder (120); Tuna (70); Mayo (100);
Snack: JET Green Tea and fruit smoothie (470) :( ; FF Pudding (100)
Dinner: 3 Special K Waffles (180); Syrup (100); Toast (120)
