OK, so after re-evaluating, I may have to turn into that girl who orders salads are restaurants. I did not make one single good choice this weekend when I ate out!! Don't want to get into it, but did not stay on my plan this weekend. Blew way past my 35 weekly points. And worrying about how to make up for it in the next two days before my WI on Wednesday morning.
Ugh. Am feeling really mad at myself. Both nights I could have made better decisions when eating out, and I didn't. And then fell into my trap of "well, I already blew it, so I can blow it some more" last night with grazing on stuff around the house. Ugh. SO MAD AT MYSELF.
Ok, let's regroup. I am going to pound water today. I am going to stick to my plan for the next two days TO THE LETTER. I am going to the gym both days, and will push myself to work harder than I usually do. Will do one hour of cardio tonight instead of 45 minutes. Will do as much damage control as I can.
I will have a good week. I will have a good week. I will have a good week.
PS - Things with N are still going really well. He's been spending the night at my place at least once a week, and it's been bothering him that he can't brush his teeth when he's at my house. I offered to buy him a toothbrush for him to keep there. Was a little worried that he might freak out when I offered, which he didn't at all. He actually brought up that he had thought about bringing a toothbrush himself, but thought it wasn't appropriate for him to be the one to bring it up, since it's HIM bringing something of HIS into MY house. Thought that was cute that we clearly were thinking the same thing, but both equally freaked out about bringing it up. Toothbrushes are a big step! We had two great dates over the weekend - things are awesome in that department!!! =)
So other than going to the gym (and doing 45 min on the elliptical - woo), I've just bummed around the house and now I'm watching Notre Dame football. I have a date with N tonight, so hopefully we'll go to dinner where I can make a good choice. I guarantee that I won't make the best choice, but I will never be one of those girls who orders a side salad. I still have most of my weekly points, and guys like girls who eat. I'll just try to eat something good.
Got on the scale this morning, and it still said 159. Boo! I bet I haven't been drinking enough water (especially since I eat non Jenny Craig frozen meals, that do have a lot of sodium) so I'll just have to remember to pound water, especially Monday/Tuesday. I drink more water at work than I do at home, probably because it's easy to pound water while sitting at my computer.
Been feeling really good about myself going to the gym. I take measurements for the first time in a month on Wednesday, so I'm curious to see if the gym has had an effect. I did buy new jeans a few weeks ago, and as far as I'm concerned, I'm still comparing to the January 2007 me at 181.5 and FAT. So it'll be nice to see how many inches I've lost since then. Because I know that I have. So we shall see. Am still hating the fact that I have a stomach pooch. Why oh why do I gain weight in my stomach????? I'd rather it go anywhere else, but I am quite soft in the middle. I know they say you can't spot reduce, but has anyone proved them wrong??
So I had a binge last night. It was bad. Not as bad as it could have been, I guess, since I don't have ice cream/cookies/cake/chocolate in the house. I kept eating stuff that was around the house, trying to satisfy that craving for sweets. I wish I hadn't eaten all that I did, but I still am glad that I don't keep trigger foods in the house, because I would have eaten every bit of it. I don't even buy granola bars or South Beach bars that I like too much, since usually I can't stop at one. But moving on. . .
Today is going well though. I took a vacation day to get some stuff done (doctor's appointment, haircut, grocery shopping, etc..) and got to sleep in too. I've kept to my points, and am hitting the gym after Oprah. Am going to do 45 minutes HARD. (Does anyone else get really bored on the elliptical? 45 minutes is hard for me, since I get really really bored after 20 min.) Might stay in tonight, since I don't really want to drink tons of beer and undo all this good work. We'll see though.
Oh, and my haircut is really cute. Can't wait for N to see it. =)
Ok, things are going really well. Left work early yesterday (slow day at work and my boss was in all day meetings, so snuck out) got a pedicure, WENT TO THE GYM, and then showered before N showed up at my house. Was soooo proud of myself that I went to the gym before our date, even though it was only 30 minutes on the elliptical. I could have sat on my couch, but instead, I exercised! Go me! Anyway, made the WW Balsamic Chicken, which was pretty good. And only three points!
And my boss asked me if I have stepped on a scale recently because my face looks a lot thinner. WAHOO!!!!!
OK, so the date with N went really well. We were kinda in this weird place where things were implicit, but not completely clear. Like are we exclusive? Are we serious? We hadn't really talked about it, but I had felt like the answers were yes. So last night I got my answers. Here's the convo:
Me: We're seeing each other three times this week again - I think some people would call that serious.
N: You wouldn't call that serious?
Me: I think there's only one thing that's keeping me from calling us serious: you don't want to introduce me to your friends. (said very playfully, although it had started to bother me that he hadn't offered up his friends yet)
N: (defensively) What do you mean? When I have I done that?
Me: You just haven't offered to introduce me to them yet.
N: What about you? I haven't met your friends! (still playfully)
Me: I'm just playing off you - my friends are dying to meet you.
N: Well, it's weird because my friends in Indy are all married or live with their girlfriends. So they don't really go out in groups anymore. I would have invited you out last Friday, but it was kinda a boys' night.
Me: Well, do you at least talk about me?
N: (laughing, kinda embarrassed) Of course! What do you think I tell them when I turn down plans with them to go out with you?
Me: Ok. (relieved) So would you call us serious?
N: Yes.
Me: So I should stop going on all those other dates? (couldn't even keep a straight face through the whole thing - started smiling)
So it happened - I gained 0.5 pounds. I should have expected it - I know I had a horrific week in terms of eating/drinking, so this shouldn't be a surprise.
Things to be grateful for: it's only half a pound. I'm still under 160, which means A LOT to me. I've started out the week well. I'm making dinner for N tonight, and making a WW recipe.
So plan for this week: stick to the points! I will work out 5-6 times this week. I will see a loss. Visualization! Wish me luck!
So did awesome yesterday - only went over by 0.5 point for the day, but exercised like CRAZY last night with my trainer. Am sooo sore, but in a good way. It means my trainer is doing a good job. And didn't eat when I got home from the gym even though I was starving. Went to bed hungry, but felt good that I didn't cave.
Am also doing a really good job today. Trying to slam water. Staying within my points. Will go to the gym today and fight to do 30 minutes on the elliptical. Have turned down peanut M&M's (my favorite!!!) and other temptations.
But still so scared about tomorrow's WI!!!!
Just want to maintain or lose a little. I just don't want to gain. I'll do better this week and weekend, I promise. N is coming over for dinner tomorrow and I'm making a WW recipe (even though I won't tell him that!) and I'll make better choices this weekend if I go out to dinner.
Technically, it was an awesome weekend. But really bad weekend in terms of eating.
Went out to dinner with N on Friday night. Had a really good time, even though the fish that I ordered was in a creamy sauce with risotto. Yummy.
On Saturday, I participated in the Beer Olympics. Yes, it sounds exactly how it sounds. So drank way too much beer, and then gorged myself on the best pizza and breadsticks that exist in Indianapolis. Crap.
Then on Sunday, ended up binging at home on stuff that was hanging around the house for no good reason (other than I was hungover). Then saw N again, we went to a pub for dinner and I had a cheeseburger. Oops again.
So back in the saddle again. I have an appointment with my trainer tonight and I'm working out like a fiend.
PS - Things with N are going really well. Wish me luck!
Ok, so picked myself up after Wednesday's binge, and had a great day yesterday. Ate well, didn't give into temptation, took my Bodypump class that kicks my butt, and didn't eat when I got home from class. (I was STARVING. Like, stomach growling starving. But I had run out of points and I knew I was about to go to bed. So I did go to bed. And I fell asleep anyway.) Go me.
So today/tomorrow/Sunday will be hard. Today, our group at work is going out for a celebratory lunch at this awesome German restaurant, and I will probably receive tons of crap if I get a salad instead the big plate of meat. Then I have a date with N tonight, and we're going to his favorite restaurant, which is a Greek place. Then on Saturday, I'm participating in the Beer Olympics with all my friends, which should be an awesome time. I've volunteered to drive and to be "an alternate" so that should limit my beer consumption from insanely dangerous to just a few. Thank god. But there will be pizza and food and it's going to be hard. THEN I'm seeing N again on Sunday (I think) and we'll probably grab food again.
DATING IS GOING TO MAKE ME FAT AGAIN. Ugh.
Well, I'm not going to turn down dates - duh. And I refuse to be one of those girls who is no fun to take to dinner because I order a side salad. But I will make decent to good choices without going overboard. And I will hit the gym. Hard.
So I had a date with N last night, and we ordered in pizza and watched a movie. I ate two pieces and also had two breadsticks, but felt OK afterwards. (In terms of, there wasn't much I could do, and I didn't overeat, so whatever.)
HOWEVER, my sweet tooth totally acted up on the ride home and I had to resist every single fast food place on the way home to not get a Chocolate Milkshake or something. Thought I was in the clear when I got to my house.
So much for that. Not only did I eat half a box of Cornflakes for no reason (really really wanted to eat, thought in my crazy binge mode that dry cereal would appease it) then I dived into a box of Turtles (chocolate, caramel, peanuts) that was in my house. Ate the whole box except for two. Ended up flushing the last two down the toilet. Felt soooooooooo disgusting afterwards. UGH - WHY DO I DO THIS????
So am determined to have a good day today, and am going to kick my own ass at the gym as punishment. Boo.
So excited - a total loss of 23 pounds so far!!! I would love love love to be at 156.5 next week so that I will have lost 25 pounds in total. That's my goal! Go me!
The one bad thing is that now I only get 22 WW points a day, not 23. But whatever - I'm losing!
