Wow - a whole month has gone by already! Who can believe tomorrow is February.
A bunch of us from work are going to see a play Thursday night, but probably catch drinks and some dinner beforehands.
Now this is a problem. I'm OK with going out on a Saturday night when I've already weighed in on Friday morning. Having a few at Happy Hour on Thursday night with no time to make up for it is not ok.
So I think I'm seriously going to eat my JC dinner quasi-secretly at work before we leave, so that I can just eat a salad or something for dinner. And i haven't figured out any excuses not have half-priced martinis yet. Just don't feel like it? Any ideas?
Have been pretty proud of myself lately too. Been really great at not just breaking down and buying a big cookie at the cafeteria. Having to stand in line and actually PAY for it has been a great roadblock. But when our admin brings in some valentines candy - that will be a whole 'nother challenge.
Ok, off to a full day at work. I snoozed this morning and missed the gym. Wished I had gone now. Will def. go tomorrow morning.
Actually got my butt out of bed this morning at 5 AM to get to the gym. Once I'm at the gym, I'm feeling great. But actually gettting out of bed that early, putting on my workout gear and getting in the cold-ass car at 5:10 AM is TORTURE. It needs to be spring, like. . . NOW.
Does anyone else laugh at some of the idiots at the gym? There's this guy who works out at 5 AM too, who looks like an absolute MORON on the elliptical, because he is going at 100 mph. His legs are spinning so fast you can hardly see them. Just a thought. . .how about upping the resistance buddy? Lord almighty - I hope no one is looking at me and making fun of me the way I judge others. Yikes!
Anyway, feelin' good about hitting the gym so early. Def. sets up the day to be a success. Now if I could just concentrate at work. . .
Ok, so I told you about how much fun I had on Saturday night. Well apparently, I had too much fun. As in, I think I made a drunk-ass fool out of myself. I just remember having fun. So now I'm worried that I looked like an IDIOT in front of my crush. Eek. Will def. need to do some damage control the next time I see him. And I have no idea when that will be. Eeek. I'm feeling really embarrassed right now. Agh.
I am, however, doing very well on the plan. Am super proud of not submitting to my TOM chocolate cravings and ate a banana instead. Yeah fruit!
Ugh - I'm soooooooo freaked out that I looked like an idiot. AGHHHHHHHHHH. Yikes.
Ok, so I think that I can successfully manage this whole "going out one day a week" and staying on the plan. I mean, it's worth it to me to have this fun, and live life and not feel punished for trying to lose weight. I don't care if the weight comes off slower - I want to live life and have fun. Dinners out I can give up, but I just can't give up going out with my friends. It's my entire social life right now!
Ok, so yesterday was awesome. Did really well on the plan all day leading up to poker (and exercised for an hour when I usually only do 30 minutes) and felt great. Drank A LOT, but didn't binge like I usually do. Did have to eat after drinking that much, but didn't do a Qdoba binge or anything. And today, even though I kinda feel like poop, I'm going to the gym to burn off some of those calories and I'm staying on the plan today 100%. Go me!
My crush was out last night, which is why I had so much fun. He is sooooooooooooooooo hilarious - I was laughing all night. It was really hard for me not to just KISS HIM - seriously! I'm kinda direct and a bit agressive, and that's one of things I'm working on - letting the guy chase me. I read "He's just not that into you" by the Sex and the City people and one of the huge takeaways from it was "let him chase you." I'll never know if he's interested if I don't give HIM the opportunity to flirt with me, do his chase, and hopefully ask me out. And this way, if he's not interested, I didn't make an ass out of myself. So I'm just trying to be flirty and fun and DAMN I LOOKED HOT LAST NIGHT. Seriously - spent twice as much time getting ready as I usually do, and it showed. Now if I could only get rid of the pooch I had to suck in all night!
I feel like he has to feel SOMETHING. There were def. moments that I feel like we made deliberate eye contact that wasn't casual. And he was super sweet to me - I fell walking to the bar (ice alcohol = me wiping out) and he let me hold onto his arm for the rest of the walk, even though the ice disappeared once we got out of the alley and onto a sidewalk.
HE IS SO FREAKING CUTE I CAN HARDLY TAKE IT. Ugh, I hope he's into me. So off to the gym, so that I can look awesome naked if he realizes how practically perfect I am. =)
Had a FANTASTIC dream about my crush last night. Woo - it was awesome. Laid in bed for awhile after I woke up, just relishing in it. Really hope he shows up to poker tonight.
Just had a really good day so far. Almost did't go the gym, but then talked myself into it. Felt soooooooo good to work out and get there. I need to stop talking myself out of going!!! The magazine collection is lacking, so I buy myself the new US Weekly and other celeb magazines as incentive. I don't get to read them unless I go the gym. Makes the time go by so much quicker.
And today, I actually put some effort in the veggies. Sauteed up some zucchini, mushrooms, onions and red pepper to go with the meatball sandwich. Tasted really good with some marinara, and it was nice to not have salad or microwaved green beans again. I'll put more effort on the weekends from now on, but I can't make any promises about during the week. =)
When I lose some weight, I def. want to reward myself with some cute workout clothes. I usually just exercise in my dumpy sweatpants and T shirt, and there's no way a guys is going to check me out in that, right?? Haha.
OK, going to go shower and primp. Shaved my legs for the first time in GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW LONG last night and took a bubble bath before heading to bed early. I really enjoy Friday nights in - I'm pretty sure I feel asleep by 10.
Ok, wish me luck and cross your fingers that my crush is there!
Not that I'm complaining, but I somehow lost 3 pounds this week even though I was only on plan 4 of the 7 days?
How did that happen?
I'm guessing that part of that 3 pound loss really belonged last week, when I only lost 0.5 pounds. I was pretty much on plan all last week with the exception on one day, and I only lost 0.5 pounds.
Bottom line: I don't care - the weight is coming off slowly but surely!
I was thinking about my bad day on Wednesday a bit, especially after a comment from my wise friend, noodles. There are two lessons I really need to grind into my head from now one: 1) Just because I splurge on something, like a candy bar, I should NOT get into the mindset that I have blown the whole day and who cares what else I eat. I'm sooooo good at picking myself up the next day, forgiving myself and starting fresh. Why can't I do this immediately after a splurge? Why do I have to wait for the next morning? This is I need to fix immediately, because there will always be slips - I can't be 100% on plan all the time. 2) The good feeling I get when I eat fatty, calorie dense, yummy foods does not make up for the HORRIBLE, guilty, bloated, defeated feeling I feel afterwards. When I'm tempted to go and just go hog-wild in a restaurant, I need to remember how disgusting I feel afterwards.
These are def. the two things I'm going to work on this month. Must work mental stuff as well as physical stuff!
Ok, so I had a major issue with the plan yesterday and strayed like WHOA! First and foremost, my TOM is coming so I need chocolate like crazy. Of course, I don't have any chocolate left for this week. Then, I had my first meeting with my new boss and I left STRESSING. He's going to work me to death and my hours are going to get crazy and I'm worried that our styles aren't going to work well together. So I headed straight for the vending machine. Eek! Got a huge chocolate bar and loved every second of it.
So of course, I didn't stop there. I would have been OK, but someone invited me to go to TGIFriday's and do their 3 courses for 12.99 thing. Why didn't I just say no? So I get there, and order the three most delicious items I can get. PS - Their green bean fries are kinda weird. They taste good, trust me, but I kept eating them thinking "Why would they take something healthy like green beans and then ruin them by frying them?"
And then the guilt isued. Not to mention the bloaty feeling. Who knew that I would need to get rolled out for eating HALF of what I used to eat? (I only ate half of everything I ordered - in the old days, I could have scarfed down the whole thing no problems.)
So I've been on plan perfectly today, and that's where I'm going to stay. And I'll be good tomorrow.
I'm super worried about the scale on Friday though. Between the Saturday/Sunday fiasco, and then yesterday's pit of despair and PMSing - I'm worried I might gain. EEK.
Is it better to know the number and just pick up and move on? Or is better to just not weigh in and not get discouraged by a potential gain?
Ok, could not fall asleep last night (had to stay up and watch football - Go Colts!) and then was wired from the win so had problems sleeping. So I snoozed cuz I suck, but ate well today (turned down lunch out so I could stay on the plan) and then left work early to hit the gym today.
Did not like the gym at 6ish. Exercise bulimics = fights over the machines. Not to mention that I'm ridiculously jealous of all those perfect 17 year olds with their perfect 17 year old bodies. Wait for the freshman 15, beeyatch.
I did, however, pull a Mrs. Robinson. I was checkin' out this H-O-T guy, until his 17 year old girlfriend came over. So I'm guessing he's in high school too. Good thing I can't get arrested for the statutory rape going on in my head. Haha.
PS - I saw my crush today. Probably why I dragged my butt to the gym today. But hey - any motivation is good right now!
Ok - so I didn't follow the plan. I had tons to drink and I ate dinner out and I ate fourthmeal at Jimmy Johns with my friends. BUT I HAD SO MUCH FUN. Seriously - I forgot how much fun going out is. And I got to hang out with my new crush. HE IS SO FUN AND CUTE AND FUNNY. Oh lordy - I have a new crush! I know I get to see him this Saturday at poker, so I'm looking forward to that. And new motivation to hit the gym! Oh man - HE IS SO CUTE. Great smile. And absolutely HILARIOUS.
So naturally, I consumed A TON of calories last night, and hungover today, didn't follow the plan. I still have a headache, and it's almost 6 PM. I did not get to the gym, because I feel like poop, and I didn't follow the plan.
But seriously, had so much fun last night. And it'll be so worth it if my new crush said last night "Wow - Meredith is really (insert compliment here)." So going to bed early tonight, waking up and gettin' my butt to the gym tomorrow morning and stickin' to the plan. Cuz he is SO CUTE.
OK, so I'm meeting people out at 10 PM - we're meeting at a bar and then supposed to go out dancing afterwards. (Dancing = exercise!)
So I'm going to be upfront with people and tell them that I want to drive, so I'm goin' easy tonight. I've doing great on the plan today (yummy califlower!) and have gone to the gym and sweat up a storm! I won't eat my snack today and will limit myself to TWO beers. Light beers. Thats it. I'm driving.
Also, I don't want to drink that much because I want to feel good to exercise again tomorrow. I hate feeling hungover and lazy! Not to mention that hungover = hungover food, like fast food and soda to settle my stomach. So I'm not getting drunk! Two beers!
Wil report in tomorrow and let you know how it went.
