Holy crap - didn't realize it had been a month
Ok, wow. Didn't realize that I haven't posted in a month. Good lord.
Ok, tons and tons of crap have been going on in my life, thus preventing me from posting. I've been on and off and on and off the wagon, and have been too scared of the scale to get on, per usual. I had an extremely bad week last week in terms of eating and exercising, but I'm back on the wagon. Trying to not cope with food.
Ok, let's be positive and start with the good things first. Nick and I are doing freakin' awesome. We went home to Baltimore a few weekends ago, and things went really well. I kept him busy the entire time, and it was a quick weekend all together. My dad is a typical Dad, so kinda cryptic when I asked his thoughts on Nick, but I think he really likes him. YEAH! My friends really liked him too, and it was so nice to get to hang out with my best best friends in the world AND Nick. We also went to his parents' for Easter dinner, which also went well. I'm convinced his dad loves me, but am still very concious of his mom liking me. Nick claims she does, but I'm still very concious of it. Thirdly, Nick and I have started the conversation about living together in the future. NOT NOW. But in the future. Based on some circumstances though, I think we've landed on the fact that we need six or nine months to get past the 1 year mark and we'll reassess. But both of us agreed that the only thing holding us back at this point is the rational side of us who realize that we've only been dating for 7 months. So we'll reassess at the end of the year and see if it's a good time. Yeah for us!
Ok, on to the stressful things that have been shaving years off my life and tempting me to turn to food for comfort:
1. My job. Good god. I usually post at work, so all of you can see that clearly I'm busy as hell at work. I'm currently doing two jobs and it's damn near killing me. I'm having a hard time working out b/c of it, because I like taking classes that are at set times after work, and a lot of time I'll have a bomb explode at 4:30 and BOOM I'm working until 7 or 8. And I have tried to be a morning workout person, but it's against the grain people. So yeah, dealing with work. Trying not to run to the vending machine. It's a struggle.
2. OH MY GOD - my house and my roommate. So I'm trying to sell my house and it's been on the market for about 9 months. I FINALLY FINALLY got an offer last week, and they finally accepted my third counter offer today. HOWEVER, I am taking a loss on the house. A pretty big loss to be honest. I have been in utter and complete turmoil about this house for the past week since the lowball offer came in, and I finally decided that I just want to cut this albatross off my neck. Bottom line: I can't afford the house by myself (had bought it for me and my fiance - thus two incomes - but broke up with my fiance and have been forced to have random roommates in the house so that I can afford to live a normal life) but I absolutely hate my roommate. Oh wait, but he up and moved out without telling me. Literally, went to work on Monday (3/31) morning and came home after work and he didn't live there anymore. Keys and garage door opener on the counter, tons of trash in the garage and left a bunch of his shit up in his room that I now have to deal with. And I just hate the house. Period. I'm 25 years old and shouldn't be in a 2300 square foot house with a huge yard. I don't want to spend weekends mulching, and mowing and painting, and cleaning and all the other things that come up and I hate. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I drive 45 minutes to work? Each way? Yeah, GET ME OUT OF THIS HOUSE. So yeah, I'm hoping that everything goes well and we close on April 30th per plan. Unfortunately, I'm still dealing with bullshit like the fact that I realized my roommate RUINED the carpet in his bedroom once he had moved out and I don't know if it can be cleaned or I'll need to replace it. Or the fact that an inspector is going to come this week and I have NO IDEA what he's going to find and how much money it will cost to repair. But at the same time, the idea of getting out of this house makes me happy.
Good thing: I have a friend with a house who I'm going to move in with for six months. He's going to let me pay 500 a month to just pretty much store my stuff there and sleep there a few nights a week. (Clearly, I'm spending most of my time at Nick's now.) I think I can save A LOT of money if I'm only spending 500 a month for rent/utilities. I mean, I'm pretty sure my three bills will be: $500 rent to my friend, $50 cell phone bill, $60 car insurance and $40 for my couches that I'm financing at 0% interest. That's it. That's a lot for me to save a month. So yeah, that's good.
So please please please: pray that I can get this carpet cleaned and that I don't have to replace it. Pray that the inspection goes well this week. Pray that the closing happens on April 30th. And pray that I can finally cut the albatross. Oh yeah, and pray that I don't eat my weight in chocolate in the next 30 days.