In Search Of ... Health

A neurotic woman's fight for fitness.

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  • Name: CrawlWalkRun
  • City: Albany
  • Region: New York
  • Country: United States

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My Weight Loss

Height: 165.1cm
Start weight: 237.00lb
Current weight: 162.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 75.00lb
Remaining: 12.00lb

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Before After

52 Pounds Gone

It's weird.  If someone had told me a year ago, I would not only start, but keep losing weight without dieting or counting calories or even doing strenuous exercise, I would have told them to peddle that sh*t to someone else.  Yet, here I am.  All I really did was get a full-time job that requires me to work the full 8 hours, which means a lot of walking.  I don't have time to graze all day anymore and bam, from 237 to 185.  New body.  Onederland.
 
My legs look small.  My arms look small.  Cheek bones are defined and muscles are getting bigger.  My body feels great and I don't count, measure, or kill myself.
 
Don't get me wrong.  Work is hard.  Like I said, I'm walking all night long, seven miles or more and I do physical lifting, but damn, I'm not starving or obsessing over food anymore.  I'm at the point where I WANT to work out.  I'm ready to run again and lift weights because I want it, not because I feel I have to do it.
 
I thought I'd always be heavy.  Onederland seemed like a dream location I'd never achieve again.  Not at 38.  Not so far gone as I felt and now it's all different.  Now I know it truly is about output.  How much are you willing to do to take off the pounds?  Not starve, not count, but WORK.  It is true -- without hard work, you achieve nothing.
 
Now if I could just get the personal side of my life in order.  Ahh, that hard work thing again.

Away, Not Dead

Since I've been away, I've lost 15 more pounds and a husband ... so maybe that's 175 pounds?  It's really not funny.  My whole world turned upside down and somehow during it all, I realized just how badly I've been treating myself all these years.  Like how I was punishing myself with food and not moving this body or taking care of me because I didn't like me. 
 
I was a hermit with serious social anxieties.  Now I have a job and a new life.
 
I don't want to lose my 20-year marriage, but I'm no longer willing to lose me anymore.  I choose me.  Every time.

Headache City

Headache yesterday, headache today, BUT I still did my workout.  Drank all 10 waters yesterday and did well ... even with headache.  Today I have 6 waters down, 4 to go.  Trying to eat well and not like half-starved immigrant (whatever that means).

Bob Green's Back to Business Plan

Well, once upon a time I became a muscular skinny minny by listening to Bob Greene, so I started his BTB plan today.  It's actually very common sensish, so not too bad.  Exercise is DONE - over 30 minutes of cardio (WATP Walk & Tone).  6 waters DONE, 4 to go.  No SODA!  This is my challenge for the first two weeks.  I also am curtailing any nighttime eating, as always.  Phew, that was a mouthful.

Breaking it down when I update today: 

Food eaten:

B'fast @ 7:30 am - Bagel w/ light cream cheese, 8 oz. OJ

Lunch @ Noon - Tuna w/ celery & onion on 100% whole wheat bread, dozen baby carrots

Snack - Brewed pot of mixed tea (green, white, pekoe, & dried pomegranate) & had 2 cups thus far with dash of half 'n half and some honey

Water - 8 servings so far

Exercise - over 30 minutes WATP Walk & Tone

Clean Machine & Thanks

Thanks for your answers, everyone.  I just wondered if the site did the blog thing automatically because if it does, it is effed up.  I've seen a few serious bloggers never on the list, but I'm not here all day so maybe it changes?

Anywho, I've been a cleaning machine.  I still have a lot to do, but at least the winter deep clean is getting done.  Phew!

New Year's Clean Up

Hey, I'm going to start this with a question for everyone: Who the heck here owns this site?  Is it one of the regular bloggers or posters?  I'm curious to know.  Also, the top blog thing is way off.  When I go to find most active bloggers, I may only find one comment on their post.  How is this most active?  Is the most active blog decided by the owner or is it computerized?  I don't give a hoot who is most popular, but it just doesn't make any sense from time-to-time.  I see blogs without lots of comments not even on the active list.

 I'm so confused. 

OK, this week is a week for winter cleaning.  I am going to write my goals on this post for the entire week (I'll be back tomorrow to visit and read).

Monday:

- Deep clean bathroom

- Weights for chest, bis, and tris

- 10 waters

- Shopping @ Wal-Mart/return to grocery store

- No eating after dinner

Tuesday:

- Deep clean master bedroom

- Weights for chest and shoulders

- 10 waters

- No eating after dinner

Wednesday:

- Deep clean dining room & TV room

- Weights for legs

- 10 waters

- All the prep for my New Year's Eve blast

- Get drunk & eat until I puke (haha)

Thursday:

- Recover

- 10 waters

- No eating after dinner

Friday:

- Deep clean kitchen

- 10 waters

- No eating after dinner

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!

Phew, It's Over!

Well, the holidays "feel" over, but they're not officially over until the kids get back to school.  I don't intend to wait that long to get my arse in motion again.  I'll be back this weekend to write done a solid proposal to the upcoming week including health-based goals and home-based ones as well. 

I need to do my new year supercleaning!

More Than I Could Chew

Wow, recommitting during the holidays is 3 parts stupidity, 1 part retardation.  There's no way I can definitely do anything well.  I'm not even hydrated.  Maybe I'll turn into ash and blow away?  Wishful thinking, I guess.

If I don't make it back here before Christmas, happy holidays, One and All!

The Wagon Wheel

New York has been the victim of three snowstorm attacks, one after the other.  Oh, and throw in an ice storm for good measure.  Right now we're in the process of getting another 8".  I remember when getting a solid 8" meant something entirely different, but I digress...

I celebrated my 20th year wedding anniversary on Friday.  I'm only 38 so as a very young bride, fresh out of high school, a LOT of people said we'd never make it past a year.  Now 20 years later, I'm not even sure how we did it.  Two children, moving across country and everywhere in between a couple times, pets, ups, downs, weight gain, weight loss, weight gain again, career changes ... and here we are ... almost completely nuts.  Nah, we've taken the good with the bad and are still young enough to marvel at it all.

I've fallen off the wagon so bad I feel like a sad episode of "Little House on the Prairie."  Like when Pa loses a wheel and it takes the whole show to replace it and during that time, what can go wrong does go wrong, of course.  Even a fire.  I think that's when Mary was struck blind, but AGAIN, I digress ...

The holidays, December in general, it's like losing a wagon wheel for me ... one at a time.  I need to just get my fat ass out and walk instead of sitting there in the driver's seat clutching the reins saying, "Move, damn it, move!"  The toughest part about losing weight is realizing and accepting the great deal of work and responsibility needed to change it.  Every moment of every day. 

Tomorrow's Goals:

30-minutes WATP + weight training for chest, bis, and tris:

10 waters:

No eating at night:

Apologies to the Ladies and Update

Hey, gals.  Thanks for writing when I was feeling a bit ostracized (in my head).  The truth is I don't have time (and admittedly the patience) to be online all day blogging.  I see some of you commenting all day and I'm like, "Wow, where do they get the time?"  LOL

I give myself about a half hour of online time daily and that's that.  I have to visit and read within that time.  I LOVE visiting and reading, but it can't be a full-time job.  I just was so weirded out having no one visit for a couple days and whatever, it was silly.

My paranoia is over and I'm getting back to what I came here for in the first place -- health and fitness, NOT some whacked popularity that means nothing.  So, if you care to visit, I'll visit you back and if not, that's totally cool too. 

I'll still ask the questions.  Today's is:  Do you think losing weight is entirely physical or entirely mental?

Today's Stats:

Water: 6 out of 10 so far

Workout: 33 minutes (WATP Walk & Tone 2-miler) & Weights for Chest, Bis and Tris - Total 44 minutes

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