Guess what I just realized? I am NOT perfect!! I can not be everything to all people, all of the time. But, I can be the BEST I can be and work within those limits. Two years ago I lost 30 pounds and it took me 6 months. So, I guess I was thinking that this time would be "quicker" and that I would just work HARDER and eat LESS. Well, HELLO!! I was doing great tihngs before and made LIFESTYLE changes. So, stands to reason that I just need to do the same thing again. Exercise and eating less of high fat/high cal foods is the key for me. That is not to say that I can't have special treats from time to time....I have to have those treats.....it is part of life and I won't be able to live the rest of my life without those things. BUT, I can continue to make time for exercise, buy fresh fruits and veggies, choose lower calorie items when we eat out, and stay away from overeating - JUST for the sake of medicating myself.
Today was my do-over. I did not go way overboard yesterday, but I was not able to get my 3 miles in, and I ate higher calorie/fat foods. I did stop myself and not just keep eating because the rest of the day had been a loss. I started over today, and I just hope I can remember the way this feels.
Ok, so I was so down about not making wise food choices this afternoon. Once again, I did not just FEAST, but I could have done better. We just got back from the pool, and now it is too late to eat anything else. Now, where is my water??
I did my 2 mile WATP this morning and did so good up until we got back from swimming. Actually, I did great until our neighbor down the street brought donuts. She owns a store, and brings us her "day-old" things from time to time. I don't know what came over me. It was like an automatic repsonse had taken over my body. Then, because it is the end of a paycycle,we have nothing in the house to eat. I fixed frozen pizza. I had the equivalent of 1/2 a pizza!! I am not stuffed, and truth be known, am not satisfied. I cleaned up the kitchen, and fixed a large glass of water. The family is going for our evening swim, but I don't feel up to getting into my suit and going I am just disappointed in myself.
I had my last day of school on Monday, but my kids have their's today. Summer is about to officially begin and chaos will we waiting in the wngs. I look forward to sleeping later, eating at home, working out, going swimming at the club, and being more active. I plan to keep the kids busy so that there is no time to fuss, fight, argue and mame siblings. Swimming lessons are going for the rest of this week and all of next. Daycamp will start for the older two on the 16th. I will have 3 days of workshops that same week. Then, we will have a few weeks before family reunions in July, vacation to Wolf Creek, and my AVID training in Dallas. After that, the summer will be on the down hill slope and I will be back for inservice on the 18th of August. Oh, I forgot to mention my 20th high school reunion that creeps in around August 2nd.
Just finished my WATP Strength DVD. It was a good workout, and I worked up a sweat. We will go swimming tonight, so I am not sure if I will fit in the 2 Fast Miles as well.
I have to remember....Rome was not built in a day, and I will not have tight abs in a day, either. LOL!
The biggest thing for me to remember is that I have to do this for the rest of my life. So, for me to say that I am NEVER going to eat this or that is simply impossible. The key for me is excercise and lower calorie food choices. In my previous post, I mention weight loss goals I have for myself, and I know that I can not reach those goals without taking small steps with a number of things.
Water - in order to help my body be the best it can be, I will drink my water each day. 64oz is my target, and more if possible
Exercise - 5-6 days per week of cardio; 3 days per week strength training. I know my body, and I know that I must do at least this much for my body to make changes.
Relaxation - enjoying the pool, enjoying my children, and trying to stay stress free
Diet - no sodas, fresh fruit, veggies, lean protein, lowfat cheese and milk, smaller portions, numerous smaller meals and cutting off food after a certain time each night
These are all the things I did before and I know they work. I know I will get there and that I can't give up. I want to be fit again!
This is truly a journey, and as I a toggle through the blogs online I come to understand that I am not alone in my quest. In fact, the feelings I have about my weight and my life long struggle are very similar to those around me. I have always been overweight. I am "prone" to be this way, or so I was always told. I have always been larger than I should be, but just thought it was how I was supposed to be, and "woe" to me. I know that excercise is the key for me. I know now that it has to be 5-6 times per week to make a difference for me. I can't just do 3 times per week and lose weight. I can actually eat healthy and enjoy it, but I just have to be in the right mindset. If I am not in that mindset, then nothing falls into place.
I am in that place now. I am in the zone. I am in the Happy Place where I am able to eat right and lose weight. I have a short term goal, several actually.
July 18 - Family Reunion - I would like to be down to 185. That is 13 pounds away
August 2 - 20th Reunion - I would like to be down to 178. That is 20 pounds away
August 25 - 1st day of school - I would like to be down to 170. That is 28 pounds
