Working it out

I feel so much better.  I got up this morning at 5:00 a.m. and took a three mile walk. (I felt groggy, but it was time to get myself back on track.)  It was cool enough out to make it enjoyable.  I put all of my worries aside and focused on my feet hitting the pavement.  I allowed myself to be alone with my thoughts and the worries to subside………for it was my time……..my time to be free from life’s daily grind.  The kids and hubby were home and asleep……a perfect time for me to escape for a healthy walk.  A perfect way to start my day!

This past seven days or so I have not felt myself.  I allowed worries to interfere with taking care of myself.  I allowed worries to cloud my judgment.  When I am in this state of mind……….the normal things I enjoy doing tend to fall to the wayside for a bit.  It is a process……..I always manage to get myself back on track…but it is a process and it takes time. 

I am not mad at myself.  I realize that life has these curve balls that I have to accept and learn how to cope with.  I believe I am coping quite well by allowing myself to feel the emotions and work through them in my own way.

Last night I was noticing the nice tone I had in my legs.  I did not want that tone to go away due to lack of exercise.  I am trying to save on gas, so I have not been swimming for about a week now.  I miss it so much………but I have priorities and swimming will have to wait for now.  I got out my handy dandy calendar and scheduled my walking workouts for the rest of this month.  If I am able to get to the gym for a swim, that will be a delight!  The main thing is to exercise, for when I do not exercise……..I feel glum.

So, the main issue is to remind myself to exercise no matter how many worries consume my mind.  Every other day, I have to allow myself a one hour break from my worries…….for they will always be there when I get back from my workout………and due to the workout…….I will be in a better frame of mind to keep things in perspective.

The thing to keep in mind is that there are some things in my life I have control over and there are other things I do not have control over.  I have to focus on the good things and exercising is one of the good things I have to offer myself.  When I allow my worries to make me depressed………I stop journaling……..quit exercising………and sit around and allow my thoughts to be consumed with worries………thinking I can find a solution to them.  I suppose in some respects I do.  Like I said……..it is a process.  I go through these motions and in the end………I am back on track and I have managed to find solutions to the issues I do have control over and I have managed to except the issues I do not have control over.

For today, I am back on track.  My workout has put me in a wonderful state of mind.  I am ready to take on whatever comes my way……..for my perspective feels positive.