I think if I get to my mini goal weight of 85kgs, I'm going to treat myself to a massage for my back. It really IS bothering me, has been again tonight. It's strange where it came from - it never seemed to bother me when I was HEAVIER but now? Annoying.
This is completely random, but our school's general assistant is an older guy, who is very gruff and a real blokey bloke. I was sitting in the staffroom this morning sorting out some bookclub orders that had come in, and he came over to me and said something along the lines of 'I have to ask you something, and I'm not sure if I'm allowed to ask or not'.
I automatically went into "whaaaa?" mode, since I'm not usually awake that early in the morning, and he continued with a question. "Have you lost weight?" I replied with a pleased smile and an "I'm getting there" response, to which he replied "No, I mean a lot of weight?", to which I replied (again) "I'm getting there!" He said he had noticed a big difference but wasn't sure if I would have been offended had he mentioned it. Very sweet, he made my morning! And then when another staff member said something later on as well, my confidence just went BOOM! :) It was great.
I came home, and really stared at myself in the mirror. I know we can be hard on ourselves but honestly? I don't see much of a difference. My stomach still has an obscenely large 'gut roll', my arse and thighs are huge and I have the most hideous floppy arms. I'm not healthy, nowhere near yet. But if other people are noticing? I started looking harder. I guess my face MIGHT have changed a little? And maybe my stomach was just a wee bit bigger a few months ago?
It's hard to say, I'm my own worst enemy. But I'm also sticking this thing out -- and treating myself along the way so I don't feel like I'm missing out. Couch 25k Training was today, I ran again and finished it and then it was done. It's just a matter of forcing myself to do it and trying not to think of it as a chore.
Therefore, I totally deserve tonight's milk/thickshake made with low fat milk and (lots!) of low fat icecream! :)
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05/23/2007 09:43
compliments
It's amazing how starved we all are for compliments. Just one little nice word from someone and it makes our day. I'm really looking forward to being thin because I know that I'll appreciate it and not take it for granted. There are so many skinny people who don't have any idea what it's like to struggle with weight and have no clue how it feels to be heavy, so I don't think that they appreciate their bodies as much as they should.
Woa, where did that come from? It didn't really have anything to do with your blog. I just meant to say, "good on ya for getting all the compliments.", but it turned into a whine. Sorry about that and enjoy the compliments. Just because you can't recognize it yet, doesn't mean the changes haven't been huge. If others are noticing, that's a big deal. Be proud!
It feels good to get compliments from other people! I think that may be one of the biggest motivators. Good luck with the C25K program. A lot of people on EP seem to love it!
What a feeling that must of been? I'm so happy for you. Isn't that the greatest feeling? Like you said we are our own worst critic...so if this guy said you lost weight its a "good thing". Most men never notice anything!!! So take that compliment and run with it! Good for you, I'm so proud of you. Remember to stay focused on your goal! As TanyaD said just one positive word can make a difference in someones life!
You are past your half way mark and thats something that you should be proud of. You should go treat yourself! and get to your mini-goal and then treat yourself again: D
Way to go on the C25K program and keep up the good work! Your doing great: D
It's so easy not to notice the changes when you see yourself every day. Each time you look in the mirror it'll only be a gradual change - but all those gradual changes add up.
Can i ask, is the c25k the only excercise you do? aside from chasing after the kidlettes all day?
