Guilty?
From the moment I woke up yesterday morning I was feeling guilty.
It could have been because of the KFC concert meal the night before (though I am still proud of my fillet burger choice, looking at my points guide has told me I did well!) It was a really busy day too; Mum and I left early to take my grandma shopping, which takes hours. She doesn't get out much, so does everything in one big hit.
On the way down, we stopped in at the corner shop to pick up the paper and a few bits and pieces, and I saw a lady come out of the take away shop holding a paper bag containing fish and chips. And it hit me. I wanted fish and chips so, so badly. I was practically salivating watching her walk towards the car. That was it. I thought about fish and chips all day. Ate a ham and cheese toasted sandwich and juice at my grandma's, then headed out shopping.
(Yes, I was still thinking about the fish and chips!!!!)
Shopping was very tiresome, but I stocked up on some groceriess while I was there; more Vitawhats, fresh fruit, individual oat packages for breakfast, rice cakes and cottage cheese. Lots of little things to keep me occupied. I also grabbed some nice wholemeal bread for sandwiches, to make a nice change to the usual white bread. I found these new Dairy Farmers yoghurts that are less calories than my usual Ski D'Lite yoghurts and look SO GOOD. I'm going to try one after I finish this blog post. So far all good. Until I walked past the aisle with 50% of all Easter eggs. I bought a Humpty Dumpty egg and a bag of mini Lindt eggs. (Lindt = heaven.)
We got home so late, I had to change and run out the door as my partner and I went to watch a football game. Goodness, the amount of crap that they sell there? It's enough to tempt anyone on a diet! Meat pies, Sausage Rolls, Hot dogs, hot chips, icecreams, beer, fairy floss, OH MY GOSH. The smell of hot chips was incredible. We didn't spend any money there, we came home and ate Subway on the way - Chicken Teriyaki with Sweet Onion sauce, YUM.
I ate 2 mini Lindt eggs before throwing the packet away that night. I gave my Humpty Dumpty egg away, reading that it had over 2000kjs in it. I missed out on walking because I was so exhausted. But that's okay. Why do I still feel guilty?
Oh, and today I finally got my period - which is something of note because it's very unpredictable. Hopefully I will only have gained a little weight on Monday's weigh-in, because I still feel very wise and in control of things. Bloated, miserable, cranky but in control. If I can give away chocolate and avoid the fish and chips, it's got to be a good day!