| Height: | |
| Start weight: | 163.00lb |
| Current weight: | 156.00lb |
| Goal weight: | 140.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 7.00lb |
| Remaining: | 16.00lb |
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You would think nine lbs and ONE person would say you look like you've lost a little weight. uhh...not for me. i mean, my clothes fit better, i think i look a little smaller. Why is it when I dont lose people say I look like Im losing? Makes no sense.
Yesterday I went to Food Lion. It was one of the hardest shopping trips in a long time. I felt deprived. I wanted cheese, ice cream, cookies, donuts. I wanted it all. I resisted. I dont think I have ever wanted junk food as much as I did last night. Anyway...it was worth it. It IS worth it. I got on the scales this morning and weighed 154. Three pounds down from last week. I am more than happy. It is motivation to keep going. This is my life and I will choose how I want to be. The "right" choices and I can be a healthy size. The "wrong" choices and I will be overweight and never truly happy with myself. Dont get me wrong, I think I could be happy. But I would feel somewhat like a failure. LIke I couldnt lose the weight. I will conquer this and move on to inspire others I hope. Again, support from family and friends means so much. Especially when I know that it doesnt matter my size. They love me just the same. As I do them for sure! Much love to all!
Well today was fun. The kids and I went to a fish fry at Karen's moms. It was her birthday. I knew everything there would be fried so I would have to eat VERY little. There was fish, chicken, hushpuppies, fries, and slaw. I had a tiny bit of everything. And of course there was birthday cake. I fed Lindsay a piece which she left like three small bites. I finished it off. It was ok. Not the best, just ok. Totally not even worth those three bites. I realize that the food I eat isnt what makes me happy. It is the people around me. But to see everyone digging in....enjoying. I feel lost. Like I dont belong in the middle of this place. Its strange. Ehh...at least I realized that it wasn't that good. To me it was greasy and left a bad taste. I would rather have had a salad really. So..now I have a headache. I guess its time to rest a little. I havent exercised today, but I guess it's ok to take a day off now and then.
This morning I went to the Y like I usually do. I just love it...the way I feel while I am working out and when I leave. It is sort of like a drug...Getting on the scales and weighing the same this morning sort of got me down..but hey its been two days. The same is fine for right now. That just goes to show how much scales can effect my mood/way of thinking. I am trying to learn how to change that. My clothes seem to be fitting better. I am happy about that...they are much more comfortable now. I am proud of myself for resisting bad snacks especially at the pool. That is where I find it is the hardest. I am looking to a healthy future. I want to get to the point that I am ok with my body. Instead of thinking of it everyday.
Motivation gets you started,
Habit keeps you going...
Isnt this so true? I must be motivated to eat healthy, exercise, and do all the right things. But, if I dont make it a habit it's just going to fizzle out. Since I have been able to make exercise a habit for the last six years, I know that I can make eating healthy a habit too. I must make the right choices. It helps so much having people in my life that understand this...that support me. Thanks, you know who you are.
Hello, Im Melissa. I am married to Robert and we have four children. I have battled with my weight for about eight years now. I am addicted to working out. Sadly I am also addicted to unhealthy eating. I am changing that though. I am tired of settling for being a size 12. I want to be a size 8. So, I have some pounds to lose....
