Losing My Fat *ss ?!

Ok so a few weeks ago I posted about buying a medium top.  I was excited and wowed.  But yesterday I bought a pair of workout shorts in a Medium!  I really cant get over it b/c I have always had such a fat *ss lol. 

I have been doing squats and more leg, lower body strength training and it is SO paying off.  In the past I was afraid to do squats thinking it would bulk me.  SO not the case.  Yay!

So I am off now to another good start, leaving for the Y now!

Jumping for Joy!

I am getting oh so close to my goal weight.  Nine pounds away.  I couldnt believe my eyes when I got on the scale this morning.  149!  I am finally in the 140's again!  I havent seen those since well 5 years probably.  It is just more motivation to keep going!

What's all that hoot and hollering about???

Ah, Sunday morning walks/jogs.  One of my favorites.  I love the early morning air, hearing the birds sing.  The town is mostly quiet.  I was walking thinking, praying.  And then out of nowhere, "wooooohooooooo"!  So, yes this scared the bleepedy bleep out of me.  Turns out it was a flirt.  Ok..so I should feel good about it.  But I think why cant I get that when I am 15 lbs or so heavier?  OH well, no I am going to be glad.  It has been such a long time.  Wouldnt it be nice if everyone that actually though, "hmm, has she lost weight", would SAY it?  I think a lot of people think it but for some reason keep it quiet.  Oh well.  I know it and that is what counts.  I am happy to be me!

Why?

Today was hard.  I wanted to eat all day long.  Not that I did...but we had mexican for lunch.  I really didn't eat that much.  My intensions were to not eat anything the rest of the day.  I had frozen yogurt late afternoon and cereal tonight.  I am sitting here wanting to eat again.  I feel so guilty.  Scared.  I am afraid of the scale.  Tomorrow is weigh day.  I guess I am not afraid of what one day will do to me.  What I am afraid of is falling back into old habits.  I am not happy when I am heavier.  I am much more happy like this.  Why?  Why does food have to be so good.  It feels good to eat and be full.  Not that I want greasy fries or anything.  <sigh> 

We are leaving for the beach in two weeks.  I would love to lose five more lbs before then.  I know it is very possible.  Maybe I just needed a "bad day".  A day off...I don't know. 

On the upside I did get an awesome walk in this morning before church.  I didn't jog any though.  I have had a cold for a few days and didn't want to make it worse. 

The real feeling will come in the moring when I get on those scales.  If only I knew how to drop 2 or 3 lbs of water...at least in my mind I would feel better...

Tease me no more!

I have worked for it seems like forever to get to the 140's.  I weighed 150 this morning.  Soooo close.  I think my scales are teasing me lol.  Wow I just realized 13 lbs down...10 to go.  Yay lol!  I so cant wait to see those 140's!

A Slow Process?

I got on the scales this morning...my regular Monday weigh in.  I was the same as last week.  I was expecting to lose a pound or so.  I do feel smaller, though.  I have 11 more pounds to lose.  Is the last just harder to take off?  I expected a little faster since I am on phentermine.  However, I am NOT discouraged one bit.  Little by little I will reach 140.  I would really like to do that before fall though. 

On an even better note, my self esteem is rising so much as the weight is going down.  I feel like a better person taking care of my body.  Ah....satisfaction.

Medium!

I bought a new workout shirt this week at Jcp.  It is a size M!  yay, I havent bought a medium in forever.  I can really tell a difference in my body.  I remembered that being smaller felt good, but I didn't remember if felt THIS good!  I am totally motivated to keep going and I WILL reach my goal!  I lost another lb this week and it is possible I am holding a little water weight...I am totally happy with the pound loss.  I love the feeling of my Sunday morning walks before church.  I feel energetic, breath the fresh summer air...I so love it!  It does a body good! 

12 To Go

Twelve pounds to go?  It is hard to believe I will be happy with my body even then.  It doesnt seem like a lot but I guess 12 lbs can really make a big difference.  Wow I really cant believe i am close to the 140's now.  It has been YEARS! 

Slowly but surely

I lost 1 lb this week!  yay!  I was really afraid of being up or losing nothing again, so Ill take it.  I am so hyped about this new lifestyle for me.  I feel better.  I look better.  Ah, I am healthier.  That is what counts, right?  Its not what other people see really, but how I see myself.  Oh wow, I JUST got that!  geez.  It's a long journey, though.  Day by day I will make it.  I cant say it enough, how good it is to have support from friends and family.  So whatever the scale says...150 or 200....be happy.  Get healthy.  Do what is right for you.  Not because of others, but do it for yourself.  (preaching to myself too lol).  ok..i am off to another workout.  I truly cant wait!

One of those weeks

So...I guess it is one of those weeks for me.  The scales didnt budge.  At least I didnt go up, right?  <sigh>  I really expected a 3 to 4 lb weightloss this week.  But, one good thing..when I look in the mirror I look smaller to me.  That counts right?  It's not quite as motivating as if I had lost a few pounds this week.  I will continue though.  I must.  So my goal of 140 may not be reached as soon as I was hoping.  At least I will reach my goal.  Before I never really thought I could do it.  It means a lot to me to feel ok about having my picture taken, trying on clothes and picking up a size or two smaller.  That is what I look forward to.