Ahhh I've managed to fall off the face of the planet for a week. I just haven't had the energy to update this blog because I cannot do it at work, and by the time I get home, I only have enough time to talk to my boyfriend on the phone and shower before bed.
Since I've last wrote, I've been seeing a trainer approximately twice a week. I've also been to the gym several times too, and have consistently gone to belly dancing class.
I also rejoined Jenny Craig and have been on it for three day now. Unfortunately, I always screw it up at dinner because that's when my family wants to see me. For example, I have a meal today for dinner but my dad wants me at his house for a bbq. At the bbq I plan on having grilled chicken and grilled broccoli, pretty healthy, but it's not my designated grilled chicken pasta parmasean. Ah well.
When I weighed in at Jenny, it said I as 182, woot!. However, I don't know if I actually lost weight, or if its the case of the lying scales today, because when I weighed myself at the gym, I hadn't budged an ounce. I'm still writing it down as a loss and from now on, I'm only going to post my JC weight, since it's much nicer.
I went to the gym today and they had 2 scales, 1 scale told me I was 185 and the other told me 179. I am to this day having a hard time believing I was as high as 185 (seeing how my clothes still fit) and have decided to no longer trust the scale at the gym. Grrr....
In other news, I am sticking to my diet and working out like crazy. Each night I average about 600 calories burned. That's an hour and a half of cardio and I also go in the sauna for 20 minutes just to loose those 3 lbs of water weight. :-)
In a week or so I will be back on Jenny Craig, just gotta finish off the food I have stored in my room first.
So I went into my food log and tried my best to estimate what I ate today and the results weren't pretty........
Protein
Fat
Carb
Kcal
50.995
89.321
251.778
1975.31
That was from the candy and the dinner. Up to that point I had only consumed 7 grams of fat that day and no more than 500 calories. The 90 grams of fat is absolutely frightening...
I was doing really well today, eatingwise. However, I ended up snaking on chocolates at my dads and for dinner I ended up eating a grilled chicken delux with onion rings and blue cheese dip. Well, at least I didn't eat ALL of the onion rings and I didn't finish all the dip either. I decided that I won't eat again today. I have to get used to consuming less calories. I've eaten more than I need for the day.
I think my stepmom is an enabler. Whenever I go over to my father's house she just puts out all this temptation for me. She was the one that ordered that food for me. Grr..... Everytime I try to loose weight, I feel she is trying to undermine me in some way and I always fall for it. I say to myself "well if she's offering she doesn't seem to think it will hurt me." Argh...
Furthermore, I didn't get much excercise today. I walked about 20 blocks in 93 degree humid heat but that was about it. No intense cardio or anything. I feel sooo guilty, perhaps later I will jog in place for an hour to make myself feel better.
Tomorrow is going to be a tough day, I am going to my cousin's engagement party and I tend to nosh (sp?) at these kinds of events. It find it difficult to feel satisfied unless I'm having a proper meal. My body doesn't realize I've eaten 20 pigs in a blanket or a whole thing of chips and dip because I'm eating it so sporadically.
Today I ate alright. I could've done better with breakfast but my favorite breakfast place was closed and Dunkin Donuts didn't have the reduced fat blueberry muffin made. So I had a small skim latte and an egg and cheese bagel sandwich. I was surprised at the nutrition facts online, I thought it was a lot worse.
For lunch, I had a 6 inch subway chicken breast sub, the only extra thing I added was American Cheese and I had baked lays on the side.
For dinner, I had a chicken sandwich at the diner with French Onion soup. I could've done without the soup, but I spent 1 hour doing intense cardio at the gym and I was pretty ravenous.
I won't eat again today.
At my father's house I have about 2 weeks worth of Jenny Craig food I stored away like a squirrel. Tomorrow I am going to get it back and when I finish it, I am going to start on the program again. I've decided I need a little bit of help again this time around. Coupled with going to the gym, I should be set.
This week I went to the gym three times for three very intense workouts. Tuesday was a lot of fun, I went to my other gym's location and walked/jogged for a half hour on the treadmill and then took a 1 hour BELLY DANCING class. OMG I love belly dancing so much. I've taken it sporadically over the past two years and I'm so glad that it's offered once a week in my gym.
Prior to Belly Dancing, I used to belong to a West African Dance troop. I was pretty good at it (even though the closest I am to being African is Sicilian). I miss it a lot, but it was only a class offered at my undergraduate college. However, I attributed that class to the positive resuls the first time I lost all the weight I wanted. (I had lost 30 lbs in one semester by eating just chicken, salads, and hummus going to gym 6 days a week with African Dance class).
I also miss the dinning hall at my old college. It sounds weird, but I was fortunate enough to go to a college that took pride in having the #2 dinning services in the country and #1 in NY. What I liked about it was that I could get certain foods I enjoyd every day cooked for me and were very healthy. I also had a enormous salad bar available at all meals. Now that I have to fend for myself with cooking and food shopping, I'm finding it a lot easier to get off track by taking the lazy way out by ordering in. Hopefully going back to Jenny help give me the boudaries I desperately need and simulate the continuity my old college's dinning hall gave.
I am currently at the highest weight I have ever been in my entire life. Fortunately, most of this weight has been put on in the past two months. Up until a few months ago, I was on Jenny Craig and I had lost about 15 lbs, with my goal to loose 30. However, I was a student at the time and finals came and went, the I made the big move into the real world and sorta fell off.
I think I can loose this "new" weight rapidly for two reasons.
1. I haven't had it all that long and perhaps my body won't be able to sustain it if I got back to my old eating habits.
2. I actually belong to a gym and have been going consistently. With 24hr access to cardio, I can't blame lack of excercise for slow weight loss.
Well, wish me luck. I will need it this time. I have fallen into some really bad, but tastey, habits that need seriou breaking.
