Ugh

I was doing really well today, eatingwise.  However, I ended up snaking on chocolates at my dads and for dinner I ended up eating a grilled chicken delux with onion rings and blue cheese dip.  Well, at least I didn't eat ALL of the onion rings and I didn't finish all the dip either.  I decided that I won't eat again today.  I have to get used to consuming less calories. I've eaten more than I need for the day.

I think my stepmom is an enabler.  Whenever I go over to my father's house she just puts out all this temptation for me.  She was the one that ordered that food for me.  Grr.....  Everytime I try to loose weight, I feel she is trying to undermine me in some way and I always fall for it.  I say to myself "well if she's offering she doesn't seem to think it will hurt me."  Argh...

Furthermore, I didn't get much excercise today.  I walked about 20 blocks in 93 degree humid heat but that was about it.  No intense cardio or anything.  I feel sooo guilty, perhaps later I will jog in place for an hour to make myself feel better.

Tomorrow is going to be a tough day, I am going to my cousin's engagement party and I tend to nosh (sp?) at these kinds of events.  It find it difficult to feel satisfied unless I'm having a proper meal.  My body doesn't realize I've eaten 20 pigs in a blanket or a whole thing of chips and dip because I'm eating it so sporadically. 

I need to work on self control :-(.