Is this a weight loss blog?
I think it is, or at least it was at one time.
I have been glancing over the tripe that I have posted over the course of the last couple of months, and simply put – I am blogging about as well as I am dieting at the moment. I haven’t gained any weight, but I haven’t lost any either – call it a dietary state of flux because we wouldn’t want to call it what it really is now would we.
My professional life – in a nutshell has gone to shit and as such, I have become an asshole (apparently there is a correlation between the two as well). I’m not happy to say the least with my current situation and it is affecting me in more ways than I thought it would. I always thought I was very good at leaving work at work and walking in the house with a smile on my face regardless of what is going on at the office and quite frankly, I always have been – until now.
There is nothing I dislike more than people that treat people like anything but – I just don’t see the point and it grates on me. I hate watching an office full of people walking around in fear of our own personal Napoleon – it’s sad and pathetic and truly not necessary to run a successful business.
Has it affected me outside the office? You bet it has, I feel for the LW – she has certainly seen a side of me that even I couldn’t see and through it all managed to achieve her goals in outstanding fashion – my admiration (and admitted jealousy) is unending – congratulations baby (and no – she doesn’t mind when I call her that she isn’t Janet Jackson).
Has my diet suffered because of it? Suffered might be the wrong word, perhaps stalled would be a better term. I’m worn out and stressed to a point where I don’t want to do anything when I get home. It takes everything I have to continue my job hunt in earnest – believe me it has been hard remaining positive with the environment I find myself in day in and day out.
Over the course of the last week or so I have been to a couple of job interviews with a large advertising agency here in Toronto. I am excited beyond belief that something is going to pan out in this regard. I will hopefully finally see a light at the end of this shit-hole tunnel I am jamming myself through – and I’m not a small man.
For my own benefit something has to change soon – very soon or I will lose what little sanity I have left. God willing when we get back from the land of Country Music next week I will have a new outlook and be able kick start myself back in gear again.
Keep on keeping on – seems more befitting considering the current circumstances.