The Caloric Idiot Trap

Pretty much since the beginning of the year I have been relatively constant in regard to my progress. I have still lost but not really anything that I could be happy with. I convinced myself that I was in the midst of my first plateau which in essence is true but in reality it’s more than that.  It’s amazing how quickly we are able to justify things and then worse – come up for excuses for them – I’ll come back to this.

Once I reached the 175 lbs lost mark I realized that I was only 25 lbs away from 200 gone – 200 lbs less that I will be carrying on my already sport-damaged knees – but that’s another whine-fest for another time. Needless to say I set my new goal to be there by June – a full 15 weeks (give or take) from when I hit the 175 mark. So here we are the week before June and I am still 15 lbs away – in other words I am in a “plateau”…

Bullshit!

Here’s the truth –

Let’s start by getting back to where I was – I have been lax and I have been careless and I have been lazy and it took the LW to point it out for me to actually think about what I have been doing and the stupid habits I am developing. The little extras that I would add, the eyeballing measurements I would do, and the things I would do because “they were close and I had lots of calories to use up” – were all sabotaging my success.

In fairness to myself however, it’s very difficult to remain motivated for so long on one plan and with limited selection to choose from. My diet has been relatively unchanging and I rotate through a given amount of meals – for 18 months now. I’m not suggesting I haven’t had and or indulged in that period because I certainly have – what I am saying however is that it would be very easy to veer off course a little.

With that said I need to re-focus and guide myself toward my ultimate goal – and stop getting bogged down in the day to day crap. Part of me is still having difficulty wrapping my head around how much I still need to accomplish and considering how far I have already come – it’s hard to stay on course.

If nothing else this acknowledgement has given me the opportunity to re-gain my focus and strengthen my resolve because I now know what it takes – I just need to get back there.