I had visions of what kind of post I would include as my triumphant return to the EP community – comedy drenched ramblings of a mad fool of course rose to the top of that list – but alas, humour aside – I have little to add to what others have so eloquently penned or typed in this case.
I did indeed want to add my two cents (or sense if you feel so inclined) in regard to the unusually large amount of our “community of corpulence” that have been falling off the wagon of late. Keep your eyes on the prize – and stop beating yourselves up every time a muffin is replaced with a Danish – the self-loathing that some people display because they dared indulge is sad and truly the wrong thing to do if a lifestyle change is indeed your ultimate goal.
So what’s new with me you ask? Not too muckin futch really – I am still plodding along and have decided to set myself a new goal to reach for – one within reach because most of mine are stupid – because that’s what I do – set unrealistic goals for myself and then re-evaluate them when I get close. My new goal is to hit the 200 lbs lost mark by the time the LW and I head to Cuba in June – early June no less. So essentially I have 3 months to lose about 25 lbs.
Child’s play (he says with tongue firmly planted in cheek)… I’ll keep you updated.
To all of my EP friends – on and off the wagon – thanks for visiting me in my absence – I promise I wasn’t being bad and thankfully now that Christmas, death cubed, and both the LW’s and my birthday are behind me, I can refocus on the goal – and not a moment too soon.
Keep on… you know the rest.
Posted By: Iconoclast
Comments to this post:
02/23/2007 14:04
Congrats on your progress
Thanks for the comments on my page, but after checking your page, I can see you've also had a lot of success. Keep up the hard work... it is definitely worth it!
But glad you're around and preaching the gospel of non-guilt. As difficult as it is not to beat oneself up, you're right that it doesn't help anything.
25 lbs in 3 months . . . that's 8 just over 2 lbs per week so while it's ambitious I know you can do that. And 200 gone! I guess since your start weight here is from when you started blogging I didn't realize that milestone was approaching already. I hope Cuba sees you under 350 and that you have not too mucking futch to report besides good losses in the meantime, but you know you can ramble about pretty much anything here: it's your blog, after all. I feel like most days I have nothing exciting to say but it makes me happy to babble in the general direction of the ExP community.
A number of people have also reached goals recently--may not be so much a "community of corpulence" in time, though I like the alliterative nature of the name.
I think the self-loathing comes not so much from indulgence as loss of control. Indulgence implies choice. I know I don't really feel bad when I choose to eat something off plan. I think the anger-turned-inward comes from being unable to stop oneself from self-sabotaging behavior. It's easy enough to say "you shouldn't do that." However, if people could stop, they would. Hence, the self-loathing. It's that realization that 'you are your own worst enemy' that really socks people in the gut.
Thanks for the much needed kick in the ass pep talk! I agree, we are way too hard on ourselves! Here's to reaching goals and climbing back on the band wagon! Good luck reaching your "Cuba" Goal!
I found your blog while posting on Blondeez's...you are direct and so friggin right! I love people who tell it like it is! Ironic as it may sound, I hate the self loathing that I allow myself to exhibit! I have been doing it since I was 12 years old, and it is really getting old now.
What I want to say is "Thank you." Your dry wit and humor frees me. It gave me a chuckle and something to think about. Have not read all of your blog entries, but from what I gather, you've had a rough few months. A heartfelt "Sorry," for your losses and a huge *pat on the back* for all of your triumphs! Keep on kickin ass.
