WEIGHED DOWN NO MORE

I have always been fat but no more!

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  • Name: BEARDJOY
  • City: Cambridge
  • Region: Cambridgeshire
  • Country: United Kingdom

My Weight Loss

Height: 157.5cm
Start weight: 241.00lb
Current weight: 187.00lb
Goal weight: 161.00lb
Lost to date: 54.00lb
Remaining: 26.00lb

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01/21/2011 10:45

HOW MANY CALORIES DO YOU USE ON YOUR BREAKFAST?

I am trying so hard to get into this breakfast thing, this past few mornings I have been having 4 weetabix (a wheat biscuit) with low fat milk but think I may be eating too much and am wondering what else I could have.  I am not a breakfast person but felt I could handle the weetabix with some warm milk but is 4 too many! It takes 4 to fill me up. 

The calorie content in 4  and the milk is 333 calories.  I know I could do better here by maybe having fruit but is there a certain amount of calories we should consume in the morning to get our metabolism going ... how many is it? 

Personally I could forget about breakfast totally but know that isn't good and am striving to find something that works for me! 

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01/21/2011 10:20

WHAT CAN I SAY ... I FAILED BUT WORKED AT RESTORING THE DAMAGE!

Well yesterday wasn't great for me as any of you know that read my post yesterday.  Yes I did binge, yes I felt guilty, yes I learned my lesson and yes I was so inspired by all your comments.

Afterwards I felt I had let myself, you guys and James down ... you all support me each and everyday.  I could have sat there all day feeling sorry for myself but I didn't.  I worked out how many extra calories I had consumed and set about fixing it ... the only way I could see was by exercising.

I had been for my 3 mile walk earlier before the binging session so done Jillians 30 day shred dvd which really was hard going but I kept thinking of how I had let myself down and battled through the 20 minutes. 

I didn't have any dinner but had a piece of fruit with some sugar free jelly, I just felt if I give my body something then it won't start storing the fat. 

After we had eaten I asked James to go for a walk with me ... he was so proud and happy I wanted to try and rectify the damage I had done.  He was so supportive when I told him (I didn't really tell him I just asked him to read my post on the blog), he knows how I crave food like never before when TOM is here.

I walked and walked and walked and ended up doing my 3 mile route all over again with James by my side willing me on.  He stopped a couple of times and said to me "do you know you have walked 6 miles today, I am so very proud of you Joy and love you so much", I thought "awwhhhhh bless him".  I could see how proud he was in his eyes and he kept taking my hand and asking if I was ok, he just the sweetest guy in the world.

We stopped at the grocery shop just to break the journey up a little and he went straight to the magazine bit and bought me a dieters magazine ... he said it was a reward for doing so well.  I sat an browsed through it last night while finishing my 2 litres of water. 

I felt good getting in last night.  I walked a total of 6 miles yesterday and done Jillian Michaels so calculated that I burned (330 x 2 walks = 660 calories and Jillian 150 calories?) = 810 calories!  I am hoping this more than makes up for my blip however I have no idea how to measure the calories on the Jillian 30 day shred dvd.

Today is a new day and the sun is shining ... James finishes early today and I am feeling a lot more positive. 

I have decided to log every single thing that I eat on sparkpeople (it is such great tool I really need to use it more and I can download an app for my ipad so you are never without it), I am going to be more exact with how many calories I consume and not guess, every single thing will be weighed and accounted for on my log.  My exercise will be tracked there too, I am not going to get lazy about recording my food and exercise ... I will be disciplined and will get through this with you guys help!


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01/21/2011 09:57

OOOOOOPSIE DAISY!

In yesterdays post about my weigh in I have made a little boob, I wasn't 234.6 lb but 225.4 lb.  At home I am 223 not 233! 

Don't know why I decided to make myself 10lb heavier ... so don't need that.  The scales are showing a  difference of 2.4lb not 12.4lb thank goodness!

Just a little typo ... sorry for the confusion!  I am totally useless and maths and must have got confused when converting stones to pounds as we use stones and pounds here in the UK!  Sorry!

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01/20/2011 16:26

H E L P .... I HAVE JUST PIGGED OUT!

Oh dear! Oh dear! You are not going to like what I am going to post ... nor am I!

I went for my walk and picked up some groceries on the way back home.  The supermarket had a sale on the weight watchers deserts that I sooooooo love so bought 5 boxes of it (10 in total) to have in the freezer.

I also spied some chocolate trifles in the their healhy eating range and bought a pack of two to try out.

I got home and felt soooo hungry, I had lunch before I went out but it didn't fill me, I just wanted something tasty soooo badly.  I did tell  myself just have one of the trifles and be done with it.

It was soooo yummy ... you guessed it .... I ate them both at 130 calories each! Yicks!

As if that wasn't enough I wanted more, you know when you start something and you just want more and more because you have been denying yourself, I was like a person who hadn't seen food in years.  Anyways I reached for a box of those deserts at 187 calories each and had one of them too .... I was craving something sweet.

I am not done there.  After I had something sweet I wanted something savoury (don't know why but I am the opposite to most people I want sweet then savoury most want savoury then sweet) so I got some bread and had some cream cheese on it!

I have let myself down and everyone who has been encouraging me on here down too.

Good news is (I hear you asking how can there be good news?) I am only 100 calories over my daily allowance.  It is now almost 4pm so if I skip dinner and eat some sugar free jelly later on to curb my cravings I am still within my guidlines.

I feel soooo guilty but am not going to dwell on it and am going to move forward and learn from it ... I am not going to buy those tempting low fat low calorie goodies, best to avoid them totally.  If  I hadn't have bought them I wouldn't be in this predicament.

I know James is going to be disappointed when I tell him I might just let him read my blog when he asks why I am not eating tonight.  He has been soooo supportive and I don't want to let him, you or me down so the only way I can make up some of the damage is to get Jillian on and do the 30 day shred dvd and then do some dancing.

Why do I do this to myself?  Is it because TOM is here BIG TIME!  Is it because of the scales this morning?  Who knows!  What I do know I am going to make up for it!

I have already burned 330 calories from my walk, at least that is something isn't it and missing one meal isn't really that bad is it?

I have eaten 1304 calories today and vow to eat no more!

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01/20/2011 15:56

NO ARMS, NO LEGS, NO WORRIES!

What a truely inspirational and wonderful guy this is!  We worry about the smallest things in life sometimes when they don't really matter in the whole scheme of things.

 A friend just sent me through this clip, it is the first time in a long time I sat down and cried, not because I felt sorry for this man, because I found him to be so uplifting and strong and knew every word he said was true.

Life is for living, no matter what size or what age we are ... we have to go out there and grab it with two hands and never let go.

I am on my own personal journeys to lose weight and I have no doubt I will get there and hopefully then I can live life the way that have always want to and learn to love myself and feel that I deserve to be loved.  I am not going to let my weight issues hold me back any longer.

We all have different challenges in life but looking at this guys perspective makes everything click into place:




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01/20/2011 11:06

FIRE UP ... THIS IS WORTH IT!

Many of us are starting a new lifestyle or reinforcing the progress that we have made. Lots of uncertainty mixed with doubt and maybe a little fear. I am hoping these tips will help us get to where we want to be on our journeys:-

1. Believe in yourself - it is your journey and you must make it successful.

2. Lean on and allow others to support you. Tell people what you are doing - it helps you commit to this new course of action. People want you to be healthier and will generally support you - some people will not support you - find someone who will. As you make progress you may influence others around you to live a healthier lifestyle as well.

3. Make moderate but continuing change in your lifestyle - work to improve a little every day.

4. Stay away from problem areas - get out of the kitchen after meals, stay out of the office break room, if you eat fast food identify healthier options before you go.

5. Be more active, take the steps, park further away, walk outside, walk at a mall. Walking is low impact on joints but has significant health benefits. Move a little more each day. Replace eating temptation times with activity. You notice I did not use the work exercise - it can be a scary word - start with activity - exercise will follow - and it won't be scary.

6. Be patient - really - I mean it - this takes time - you are changing habits you have used for a long time - you can change them - but it will take time. Stick to your plan. There will be hiccups, bumps and bruises along the way - it is okay! Don't give up when you fall down - minimize the damage and get back to your improved self.

7. Food - reduce portion sizes first - we eat too much. Start improving what you eat - less fat, fewer carbs would be good starters for most. Then reduce the empty calories, candy, sweets, alcohol. Eat more vegetables, more salads, more fruit (diabetics follow your doctors guidance). Find a low calorie salad dressing that you like.

Commit and believe - stay the course for your own good. For your own good.

It may help to remember this - the cookie tray does not love you. You gotta love yourself.

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01/20/2011 10:57

I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO GET UPSET ... BUT CAN'T HELP IT!

Well everyone I have just weighed in using the new scales !

Yip guess you can I am not a happy bunny this morning.  The new scales are weighing me in at 225.4, the last time I weighed in at home I was 223 ... this is a 2.4lb increase!  Is it the scales?  Is this right?  I will be wondering now until I get home again.

I know it more than likely is the scales but deep down it will niggle at me until I get home and weigh in on my own scales.  I shouldn't let it get to me but when you work so hard and don't see what you want to see you can't help but be disappointed.

It could be something else though .... TOM didn't arrive on time, then when it came it was the lightest one I ever had and a couple of days ago it decided to come AGAIN!  What is that all about???  Not only is it here but it is really really bad so am thinking if the scales are right this could be reason.  I feel really bloated and have the dreaded tummy cramps, this has been a really bad one and just feel yucky but I am not going to let that stop me.

Then again it could be my muscle building up because of the amount of exercise I have started doing ... I have definitely upped my game!

I really think the obvious answer though is the new scales, rarely do two sets of scales weigh the exact same.  I will get James to try them in the morning and see how he fairs on them.  It actually says in the instruction booklet "do not compare weight readings from one scale to another as some difference will exist due to manufacturing tolerances" it goes on to say that the weight can differ between the scales depending on the floor type.  At home we have concrete floors and in the bathroom we have ceramic tiles , I am not sure what the apartment has but we are on the first floor ... might make a difference?

Anyway I am not making excuses as I don't feel I have to, I have done everything I can to lose weight, my only downfall this week was the chinese buffet which I thought I handled well and there is no way I ate enough to see that big a jump in my weight.  I chose all the healthy options and didn't over indulge!


      Today I am feeling a bit blah but am going to do my 3 mile walk, it was so invigorating yesterday. Today isn't as nice a day here but will pump the music up and get moving.  I will see how I feel when I get back but might do some dancing in the evening too!


     Thanks everyone for their concerns about the new scales, I will keep a log here at the apartment for when I am here so I can get a good idea of my loss but won't log it on here as I will stick with my own scales which are the ones I have used from the start of this journey.  You won't see a weight log from me this week, I will weigh in again on Wednesday when I get back home and hope that I see the result I feel I deserve.

I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing, I am exercising daily and counting my calories ..... the scale is only part of it, the main part of this is getting healthy and giving my body what it needs and deserves.

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01/19/2011 16:38

FANTASTIC HOUR ... TOTALLY REVITALISED NOW!


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I have just had my 3 mile walk and it was truely lovely.  The sun was shining the air was fresh and the walk was lovely.  Even the music on my ipod was great and suited my mood.  There were buds on trees and birds singing and it was just lovely ... really lovely!
 
I thought my legs were going to ache but they didn't, I didn't even feel them ache one little bit.  I feel totally invigorated and to be honest I could have done the route again .... but didn't.  I think it would be too much for me at this stage 6 miles but I am going to up it at the weekend.
 
I have been thinking about upping my walk for a while now and James said he would do a longer walk with me at the weekend, maybe we will go to a National trust property and do one of their walks, they have them online for you to print out.  Hopefully we won't get lost this time.
 
I would like to do a five mile walk.  I like to have James with me as he can spur me on but once I have done it once I know I can do it and am fine.
 
I feel so revitalised now and raring to go!  I am doing this slowly but surely ... patients is going to have to be something I am going to have to work at!
 
I am off now to prepare the dinner.  Fresh Cod with roasted vegetables ... yummy! We are off into Cambridge to pick up my scales and a new mirror I want after James gets home from work.  James wanted to eat out but I said I would rather not and he said that was fine, James loves eating out but I would rather eat out at the weekend when we have more time and I bought the fish yesterday and like to eat it as fresh as possible!
 
Hope you are all having a good day too ..... Love, Joy x
 

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01/19/2011 11:29

WEIGH IN TODAY BUT CAN'T DO IT!

Today is my weigh in day but I have no scales here in England. 
 
Never thought I would feel sad about not weighing in but I do like to check on my progress.
 
I am however going tonight to get a set of scales for when I am here in England, I was toying with the idea for a while.  Why?
 
When I weigh myself on my Mums scales there is such a difference between hers and mine.  Mums scales weigh me heavier than mine by about 4/5 lb.  I am petrified of seeing a big gain on the new scales and not knowing whether it is because I have changed scales or whether I have gained weight but guess we will see!
 
I have made the decision though to go and get the scales as I need something to compare myself from week after week.  I need to know that I am doing things right and that things are moving in the right direction.  I will allow 2lb either way but will keep a log here and a log at home now so I have a good comparison as to how the scales differ.
 
I won't weigh in until tomorrow morning as I am not getting the scales until tonight after James comes home from work.
 
Wish me luck!

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01/19/2011 10:49

STOP FAILURE BEFORE IT STARTS!

14 Tips for Starting and Sticking with a Workout Routine

For some of us out there, if we could just convince ourselves that there is enough time in the day to exercise, we could be on track to a great fitness program. For others, we get started but quickly lose momentum and give up. To help get started and stay on track, here are a few tips:

  • Throw away the bathing suit you wore in high school… and the memory too. It’s normal to have a mental image of yourself when you last exercised like a fiend. But if that image is from high school, you could be in big trouble. Even if it’s from last year, forget it. Remember as little as possible of what you used to look like. Starting today, make new memories.
     
  • Prepare. We already know you don’t have the time, so write it down like an appointment every day. You wouldn’t cancel an appointment, why would you cancel on yourself? Aren’t you important too?
     
  • Start slowly. Do much less than what you’re capable of. Take a 20-minute walk if you’re returning to exercise. You might feel like it’s not enough, but it’s a good start.
     
  • Get the family involved. Run while your daughter rides her bike. Go to a local track and let the kids play their own games. Run with your spouse. Sign up for a local 10K. Walk with your son. Celebrate with a little something special after every activity.
     
  • Where are your friends? Four words, four reasons – motivation, inspiration, determination, conversation. Surround yourself with friends who think positive and live large.
     
  • Put the pain in perspective. When the going gets tough, remember that you have survived 600 carpools, 540 loads of laundry (this month), 41 baseball games, 230 dinners and one family vacation. What’s the big deal?
     
  • Allow yourself to slow down. You’re driving this bus! For the first time today, you are in control.
     
  • Sign up for a race. It’s a goal to strive for and adds a little meaning to your everyday workout. Boy will you feel good if you accomplish it too!
     
  • Run/walk in public. Be proud of your accomplishment. Take in all the sites and be an inspiration to others.
     
  • Just show up. Go to the gym, class, or the park. Once you’re there, it’s hard to say no. 98% of life is showing up.
     
  • Eat. Follow a healthy eating pattern. If you limit your calorie intake, you will not have enough energy to work out and your metabolism will slow down.
     
  • Understand your energy cycle. There are peaks during our days. Even during the week. Try to complete your workout when you feel good about yourself.
     
  • Wallow in your greatness. You can exercise to become a better exerciser, or you can exercise to become a better mother, a better wife, a better daughter or a better friend – or you can exercise to become BETTER. Be proud of that accomplishment.
     
  • Have fun. Where’s your childlike spirit? When you can make workouts "playouts," you’ve got it made.

    • Don’t give up on yourself. After all, it’s never too late to be that healthy person you might have been.

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