I don't know what to say now that I have logged in to be honest.
I am not healthy eating or exercising .. guess that is the big confession. Once I went of track I seemed to keep sliding down that slippery slope. I was too embarrassed to go on here and let you know what a failure I am but deep down know I have you guys support whatever.
I have been thinking alot about my eating habits and why I continue to fail and give up and can't figure out why I do this to myself. I feel as though I am depriving myself and when I stop I can't seem to give myself a shake and get back on plan.
I am sorry that I have let you down but to be honest I feel that I have let myself down too big time and am finding it hard to deal with. I thought my life was changing and I was finally becoming the person I wanted to be but I threw it in and food got the better of me.
I am seriously thinking about how I can move forward from now and where my road will take me .... I need to lose weight of that I am sure but what direction I take is something I have to work on. I could start the slimming world plan but this time I will go to the class and learn more about the programme and hopefully learn more how my body works and also the support of others.
I know I won't have as much time to log on here and blog but will do as often as I can and will check on all my "friends" who are truely wonderful and supportive. Thanks so much for all your messages during my absence, I do appreciate it.
I am going to get on track, I really am but I keep putting it off as there is always some obstacle in my way ..... easter is over and it is time for me to take this seriously and get back on track.
Posted By: BEARDJOY
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04/26/2011 10:42
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Dear Joy:
You don't need to be embarrassed. After my vacations 2 weeks ago, i was snacking and eating like crazy. Today my weight was 3 and 1/2 more pounds. Just move on because we always will have ups and downs. Hugs,move always forward and smile
It's good to see you back again! Don't you worry about any slip up, however long.
I think what's most important is to remember that it's all about the emotion and the thought, really, and not about hunger or a need to eat. Whether you're doing well, having a bad day, or even a bad week, it's best to log in and get your thoughts out. I guess leaving this site alone when things aren't going so well might stop you having that outlet to think things through and clarify what's happening.
Remember, the support doesn't end here on EP. We all understand. I look forward to your blogs again! :)
Joy, you know we love you here, and we don't consider you a failure. We all have our times when we struggle, and that's why we're here—to help each other. I haven't been doing so fantastically myself, so don't feel like the Lone Ranger. You know you can do this, and we know you can do this, so let's see what we can do to get your head screwed back on straight! Don't be embarrassed. You are just being human. We all need a break from time to time.
I do not judge you!!!! If I did I would be judging everyone on here that slips and falls.. why would I do that!?!?! We all (including myself right now) slip and fall, and we all have to deal with it in our own way.
You will work though it, and get back on track I know it!!!
I can totally relate to how you feel right now. (Check out my blog). I havent been on since mid-March. I COMPLETELY let myself go and have gained 9 pounds! Its so hard, but I know you have it in you. Life throws alot of obstacles at us that make it hard to keep the focus. To get back on track im going to try to stick with simple foods like apples and cheese and nuts for breakfast. More salads. Things that are easier to plan for. Packing lunches at night to be ahead of the day that follows. I hope your doing better today! Im going to try to prepare for a better tomorrow. Best of luck to you! Its never too late!
Joy, I've really missed your posts here, and I know it's hard to post when things aren't going as well as you'd like, but you have to start with baby steps! Don't expect to go from 0 to 10 in one swoop. Just decide to do one positive thing each day, and give yourself lots of praise if you do it.
It seems you were doing very well and were focused when you were doing this on your own. Once you started in with Slimming World you seemed to lose your focus. Maybe the competition feeling with your sister and others isn't a good fit for you? Sometimes just coming up with what works best for you is the way to go.
I know you don't want to hear this, but you really do need to get into the doctor to have her check things out. I feel that you should lose weight much more quickly once everything is in good working order. I know the slow loss was discouraging for you.
So come on back, put one foot in front of the other, and your motivation will rebuild. You don't have to be perfect!! Baby steps are king when it comes to improving your health. Big hugs and a gentle kick in the behind to get yourself back here. :)
