01/21/2007 19:56
OK, ok, now I'm serious
Two things went wrong with this weekend.
1.) Went out to eat for happy hour at a late night happy hour with my friend who influences me badly.
2.) I didn't go to the gym on Saturday OR Sunday.
(OK 3 things went wrong.)
3.) I nannied overnight and somehow came to the conclusion that I could eat what they ate. Ugh.
I'm not about giving myself rules. Cause I live to break them. I DO need to teach myself / kick it into my head that I CANNOT afford to keep doing this! One month has already almost gone by, and there hasn't really been any changes. I have made some good alterations to my eating habits, but can't seem to kick the bad ones!
ENOUGH. Done.
Be strong everyone!
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01/17/2007 13:04
At least I didn't gain
Well, I just got on the scale. It stayed the same after my weekend of sin (and pizza, and french fries and chinese fried egg rolls.)
I guess that's not a bad thing, but I suppose I was really hoping to have lost at least one after all the good eating I did. I guess there's always next week.
Keep up the good work everyone! Stay strong!
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01/16/2007 20:33
I did good today
Yeay! One successful day down. Now all i have to do is go to bed... and stay in bed... and not get out of it for chocolate.
Went to bodypump tonight, despite loathing the teacher. I have no idea why she persists on singing (horribly) and loudly into the microphone to OLD music that she insists on playing. That isn't classic old, but just old enough for you to hate it so much that you want to scream.
BUT I got through it.
Had a delicious turkey burger for lunch and a chicken pasta muchroom thing I whipped up for dinner.
Tomorrow is weigh in day for me. I'm thinking I will have gained since last week, due to my awful weekend of over eating and not excersizeing - but maybe something miraculous will happen.
Good luck to everyone! Stay strong.
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01/16/2007 12:57
Anyone out there in Minneapolis
Just a thought to help myself and others in the area stay accountable... Is there anyone out there in the Minneapolis area??
I'd love to get a group of people together to chat about our respective journeys.
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01/16/2007 12:49
going to bed hungry
There's nothing like the feeling of going to bed hungry, and waking up in the morning so incredibly happy you did that. (And hungry of course.) Then eating a nice healthy breakfast.
Too bad I can count on one hand the number of times I've actually done that this year.
I'm thinking about getting a camera to take pictures of myself weekly. I don't know if that would be bordering on psychotic though. I really don't want to be a nazi about this, but I'm afaraid I am going to have to be.
Doing good so far today
for breakfast:
Yogurt
100 Calorie oreo crisps. (Whoever invented these is a genious!)
I'm thinking turkey burger for lunch. (Without the bun of course.)
Haven't gone to the gym yet. I'm thinking about going during Oprah. I HAVE to go though. Last time I said that it started getting dark and I started getting sleepy adn didn't want to venture outside in the cold.
Good Luck! Stay Strong!
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01/15/2007 22:22
The Skinny on me
So here's the "skinny" on me. I'm a lifer at this weight loss stuff. I first noticed I was overweight in fourth grade. All the kids were making fun of another poor child because of his weight. (They made us get in line and get on a scale in fourth grade gym class.) I was up next. Mine was only 5 lower than the other poor child. Luckily, the mean children were too encompassed being hellacious to the kid to notice my weight.
I blamed my weight on muscle. I was not big, but I was a dance. I did classical ballet from 4-18. And I had great muscle tone. Everwhere except my mid-section.
I started routinely excersizing when I was in 6th grade with rollerblading. Even at that time, a friend and I told ouselves that we had to wake up early before school and work out so we dont get fat. 6th grade.
Flash forward a few years to tenth grade when I actually lost a lot of weight. I had been up to 170 and down to 150. Though still muscular, etc I didn't think I looked the part of fat kid. I was a cheerleader, the biggest, but I had to be the biggest becausea the rest were 0-2s. I will never be a 0-2.
One brownie sent me into a downward spiral after a homecoming dance where a boy finally asked me to dance. I was happy. I ate. I put it all back on.
From there came college and the freshman 15. I still had a good excersize routine and OK eating habits. After college came hell. A miserable desk job. after six months of that and 20 pounds I have come to my current state of being. And I realized last week at a kickboxing class that I WAS the fattest girl in the room. Even though under it all I have always felt it, I finally realized it. I had NEVER seen my stomach bouncing, jiggeling, etc durning an aerobics class. I used to be the Queen of aerobics. The teachers always told me I had great technique. But now I've even lost that.
That's probably the most depressing thing. I had convinced myself that I could still eat what I wanted, becasue all I had to do was work it off. Even though 99.9% of hte time I never bothered to work it off. But now its even hard to do that. Excersize has become hard and that's what hurts the most, emotionally.
But I've got to do it. Shit- now its for my health! Not just my confidence. It's that whole lifestyle change thing. I know it will take a long time to get where I want to be. Hopefully somewhere I've never been. I've never been below a size 8.
So here we go! On my magical journey of weight loss. It's going to suck. Suck very very much. But hey, if it were easy, ___ (Insert proper analogy here.)
Good luck! Stay strong!
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01/15/2007 22:05
A little bit of a back track
Isn't it the story of my life? One step forward and two steps back. I take the blame for it. But I've got to gain some wilpower against a friend of mine who always wants to go out to eat. (And spend money on top of that.)
Over the weekend I ate greasey bar food, chipotle, pizza, and TONS of fried chinese food.
It hit me that I can eat these things. But I can't eat ALL of them on my plate. I can have pizza. I can't eat the whole damn thing. You can burn off one piece, not one pizza.
Today was better. I detoxed in the morning with some dieters tea, and have pretty much stayed on track. Of course, going to work is hard. I nanny, and usually end up eating toddler left overs for dinner. Today it was grilled cheese. But I did good the rest of the day so I'm still in the green.
Was hungry this evening, so I ate a protien bar, and and egg white omlet. Egg whites are my new favorite. I had no idea how littler calories the had. And buying regular eggs is a ton cheaper then just doing egg beaters, which taste like cardboard to me.
Didn't get to work out today. The gyms were closed for MLK day. Tomorrow is a new day and I will continue the routine that I took a few steps back from this weekend.
Good luck to everyone! Stay strong.
Cheers!
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