Peace

The sun is warm

Birds sing

You'll soon kiss my lips

No stress in my life

Lost weight

I feel good

The Storm is Coming

Christmas is over and I ate a lot of sweet stuff BUT surprise surprise! I weighet myself today and I've LOST weight! o.O Nice!!

My exams are coming now... I really have to do a great job on them... The man I love... uff... I kind of told him I love him. And guess what? He's turned on me too =) But slowly slowly because when we rush things, they do wrong!

I've some problems on me now but "I'm breathing and all I can do is keep breathing" and hoping for someday to watch the sunshine in peace with the man I love and calling my life a fairy tale.

Angry and Hungry

I'm angry, I'm really angry, people make me angry, work make me angry, dieting is making me angry right now... grr I'm so angry! And what do I do when I'm angry? I eat! But today I'm angry with my anger and I won't eat! Oh no no! I'm so fucking tired of being fat! Fuck fat! Fuck food! Fuck crappy friends! Fuck work!

I realise this isn't the nicest start of my blog, sorry, I'm usally a very nice girl but today... oh I'm so angry! Crappy crappy friends! I want to say some truths to her but I don't want to lose her as a friend. But I hate when she treats me like this. I'm angry and I'm poisoning this blog so I won't poison our friendship.

I'm angry with myself too because last week I weighted 75,6 kg and then I spent 5 days screwing up my diet and now I'm at 76,37 kg.

I need people to show me some respect, I guess I have to become a more respectable girl.

I'm angry because I've so much to study and so less time to do it and I'm angry because I have to spend stupid christmas at a freaking cold place.

We need so much to be happy and so little to be angry. Is that possible? The man I love said me the most beautiful thing last night, how can I be angry today? Is this my stupid hormones working? Or is it just me? Am I stupid? I must be stupid!

Well let me be angry today as long as the scale keeps going down.