04/06/2007 12:48
Woot!
I'm down to where I was this fall! Now I have just 25 more lbs to go before goal! :D :D :D
It's weird to think about, but even my goal now isn't close to getting "back where I started"...however, this journey has taught me to be realistic with myself, to view my body as it truly is and not compare it so often to the Stick Thins I see in magazines and on TV. That's been hard to learn...but getting up to way-too-high-weight (and looking back at pictures of myself at a muscular 115, when I thought I was "fat") have taught me that my views of myself were--have always been--absolutely ridiculous and inaccurate. If I get nothing else from this weight loss journey, I hope that is something I (and all of us!) can learn.
I'm feeling pretty energetic, today, too...always a plus for the hypothyroid sufferer. ;) Energy is a hard-won commodity!
Happy Easter, everybody!
04/05/2007 13:34
Shame.
A few bloggers have mentioned how they felt ashamed to leave the house, etc, b/c of being overweight. I have struggled w/ that. I still do. When I think about upcoming weddings I'm in, and I imagine people watching my not-so-slender self traipsing up the aisle, it makes me sick. Why do I care so much? I don't know.
Anyway, it's nice to hear from others who have gone through that. I really am trying to put it out of my mind. There is so much more to me than just a number on the scale. Our society is so focused on being Ultra Thin that it makes it hard to see...but as Christina Aguilera said...we ARE all beautiful in our own way, and much of that has to do w/ our unique, special personalities.
So, to whomever happens to be reading this--know that you are, indeed, beautiful, whether you weigh 104 or 401. The number is just the journey...it's what's inside that shapes the woman.
03/19/2007 11:57
The Evil Beautiful Scale
It's hard to stay away from the scale, you know? It becomes like a magnet each morning, drawing me in with its steely flat eye and promising to crush my day. It's my best friend, though, too, letting me know when I've had a few too many bites of ice cream and motivating me to keep working hard. I guess that's why it's hard to know when exactly is the best time to weigh. If I can "catch a mistake" in time, I can correct for it. But if the scale says my weight is fluctuating too much (and sometimes just a pound is too much 
) it discourages me to no end.
So this morning, I weighed again. Yeah, I know, I know...I would like to at least *try* to wait a week, see if it works well for me. But this morning the temptation to weigh was just too great. And the unkind scale made me pay for my impatience and fear, trumpeting the weight gain that has persisted for 2 days. However, because of that, today I've been keeping track of what goes in my mouth like too much food could send me months behind...
...So which is better? I have no idea. I see pros both ways and cons both ways. What I know for sure is that the scale has far too much power over my daily mood. I don't know how to counterbalance that with my obvious need for its motivation.
03/18/2007 09:33
To weigh or not to weigh?
As I mentioned in my first post, I have hypothyroidism is that is barely controlled by my current medication. Anyway, so losing weight is an uphill battle, and if I weigh day-to-day, I often see that I've gained as much as 2-3 pounds. Sometimes that pattern goes on for days before my body finally releases some weight. And this is while running, eating 1,500 calories a day, and taking prescribed diet drugs!
My question is: should I just weigh once a week instead? I have read that people are more likely to stick to a "diet" if they weigh every day, but that can be so discouraging for me, I'm not sure what to do.
Thoughts?
03/16/2007 19:43
Brand New
I've been fighting hypothyroidism since I was 23 (I'm 27). It's affected my fertility, my ability to lose weight, my energy...everything. I've been frustrated, angry, and lost faith in previous doctors. My current doc upped my Synthroid until things got a little better, and prescribed another drug to aid weight loss. Along with running 2 miles a day and careful dieting, I've lost 16 pounds since August. I'm looking forward to losing more and regaining so much I've lost. I'm hopeful for my future!
