Dammit

Yesterday (Friday) I went to the gym and focused on cardio exercises only.  I burnt a total of 620 calories on both bike and treadmill.  My meals were healthy, fruits served as snacks, everything was good.

But then,  I binged later that night!!!   It was horrible.  Yes, I was watching TV while binging.  I ate a massive bowl of museli by itself (I like it without milk or yoghurt) and 2 nut bars.  I was craving something crunchy and I picked mainly the dried fruits in the museli, and I forced myself to eat the rest of the oats in it.  It was shitty, I wasn't even hungry but I just needed the crunch.  Carb-overload.  Carbs are evil.  They make me fat the most.  I was really uncomfortable.  Dammit!!!!!   Makes me wanna cry just thinking about it now.      I said to myself "Fine, this is the one free day of the week, no more now. "  I should've brushed my teeth after dinner.  I shouldn't have reached for that pantry. 

I feel like I've thrown my efforts down the drain in one single night.  What was I thinking!!!  Indulging/binging is satisfaction only for the moment, but it's forever in your thighs! 

This morning I woke up and skipped rope.  I did get my heart rate up and sweat a little under the sun.  But still not as much calories as I would've burnt if I was at the gym.  Damn gym closes on the weekends!  So now I'm at uni doing an assignment due soon.  Then at 5pm, I'm going to powerwalk home since its not rainy.  It takes about 50 mins from uni to get to my house.  At least its some exercise better than nothing.  Today, I'm not gonna eat much either.  I feel bloated and yuck anyways.  I wanna feel starved today.  And eat healthy meals - low calories are a must!!!!

I really can't wait to go back into some high intensity cardio workout at the gym on Monday.   It's a real fast fat burner and boosts your metabolism.  I know this because after all the cardio at the gym before binging yesterday, I realized that my tummy couldn't hold it and it came out soon afterwards.  My stomach was really working fast and hard.  It's different from previous binging experiences when I didn't used to go to the gym.

Tomorrow (Sunday) I'm also gonna go for a morning run with my brother.  He's real skinny and athletic so that should be motivating.  Kinda like trying to keep up with the guys.  Tough it out. 

That's all now.  Sorry for the negativity compared to my previous blogs.  But that's the truth.  I have my failures also and I just wanna get it out of my system.

I'm still keen on reaching my goals for the challenge I'm on.  This is only a small set back.  I'll be back into it.  I will remember this feeling of failure and the punishment sure served me well.  Man, I hate this guilty feeling.  I don't want it again!

Michele

don't get discouraged...

don't beat yourself up... it is just one slip up.  just workout extra hard the next couple of days the gym is open.  you can make up for it this week.  i know its frustrating... i just ate my body weight in sour patch kids candies.  they were good then, now i feel terrible.

you can do this.

kate.

haha

intense workout= spinning class, straight to yoga, straight to treadmill, streching, straight to free weights. 

haha, i might be insane, but it will work for sure.

lollies!  that's great.  yeah those things are like crack, they are so good!!!  my stupid boyfriend came home with a 2 pound bag yesterday and i couldn't take it anymore earlier today.

do you have a costco by you?  costco and i have a love-hate relationship.  i love the 90 count box of organic granola bars for 6$, hate the bulk alcohol, soda, candy, chocolate, fried foods.  (it is a warehouse store where they sell things at the wholesale price to the general public.  the only place on earth you can get 6 liters of mayonaise!)

i have heard the five-hundred calorie thing, and let me tell you, after doing a coupleof spinning classes, i completely 100% believe that.  you sweat like never before, it's disgusting and exhilerating (sp?) at the same time!  i think you will love it...

kate.

check this out!!!

i was playing on self.com earlier and they had a section to see how many calories you burn in spinning class based on your height, weight, and level of activity in the class.  here is what mine said:

http://www.self.com/fitness/nutrition/calculators/happyWeight

There is the sight, check it out with your statistics!  The option is on the left side of the screen: "burn calories".

kate.