26 days in (1/4 of my initial 100 days foundation phase!)
So my new counsellor is WONDERFUL. So welcoming. She even had me stay behind for 30 minute to chat to me and get to know me better. She's someone who really engages with the group and is very warm. Not to mention she obviously knows her stuff. I think she's a psychologist and a nutritionist - although I'm not sure exactly - but she herself says - she's also an addict! It was pretty much the polar opposite to what I've experienced so far - so I'm delighted!
I've only lost 1lb (actually a little less) since Tuesday.. but I'm relieved. A) because I thought I'd gain as I think the last WI was skewed by my leaky bum. B) because it hasn't even been a full week and C) because I think it's TOTM coming up (need to check that aksherlly). Not going to change my stats yet as I want to wait till I've had a proper week's results.
It's a good 9 mile cycle there, but the weather is so gorgeous I went for and and loved it. Then on the way home I cycled to a lido in East London which is opened and sort of heated and had a wonderful wonderful swim. Then I followed the MOST INCREDIBLE bike route home, mostly down a canal boarded by parks and marshes, alongside the river and under the river!
All in all I reckon I've cycled a good 25 miles (maybe more) as well as the 1k swim - but the weather was so fantastic I just feel wonderful!
Well as you know, yesterday I had my choccy waterfalls. Having spoken to lots of people on minimins.com doing this diet, apparently it is quite common to happen every now and then because of the richness of the foodpacks and the concentration of vitamins etc. The advice is often to break them up into two and eat them more evenly throughout the day... which sort of makes sense as I eat two - late in the evening - and my explosion was first thing in the morning.
Anyway, when I went to my WI last night I mentioned all this to my LL counsellor and he was actually quite angry with me. He refused to consider that it might be anything to do with the foodpacks and even said "Why are you insisting it's the foodpacks". He said that the only explanation was that I must have a bug or virus (which of course is also a possibility - just doesn't seem the obvious one to me!).
It was very uncomfortable and he took it very personally as an attack on the diet. This isn't the first time we've clashed. I actually think he's a very nice man but I do feel quite frightened to ask him anything because he frequently loses his patience with me.
So this morning I called LL and was put through to their medical department and lo and behold - it seems it IS recognised that this happens and they have since put this in an email to me. They claim that it only really happens in the first week or so.
I also called a LL counsellor who was one of those who actually wrote the programme and she said it does happen from time to time and is usually a reaction to the richness of the packets and gave the same advice I've heard above.
I asked if she had any spare places and she had only one place on Sunday mornings at 11am which is not hugely convenient - especially as she lives in Finsbury Park.
So I've been mulling it over all morning and taken lots of advice and I've decided to change. The counselling is easily the most important part of this programme for me and given how much money I'm spending and the fact that I view this as a really important change in my life, I think I need to prioritise!
I've written a very placatory email to my current counsellor and just hope he isn't going to go bonkers! I'm a bit scared really given his previous reactions. He's a nice enough guy but I think we just have incompatible personalities.
The new woman sounds great but that's no guarantee we'll get on. So I'm scared now in case I'm out of the frying pan and into the fire! Eeek.
So I'll be having another WI on Sunday!!
Meanwhile I've done precisely ZERO with regards to my MA for 2 days now and I'll be lucky if I'm not thrown off the course!! So I'm going to need to sort myself out and get down to it really!
I can't quite believe it. However, I think some must be due to the chocolate waterfalls this morning - so I must be prepared to have a low result next week!
Still... YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!
Forgot to add - in all my excitement that today I finished my very first knitting project which is for me - rather than someone else, or someone else's baby. It's a lovely hooded sweatshirt! All the time I was knitting it I was depressed because I just thought I'd look horrid in it because I'm so fat - but putting it on this evening I could really notice a difference in my body shape and it looks really flattering!
So straight after my shower this morning I felt the need to go to the toilet. So I clenched for a while - the way you do - only to realise - to my horror that it wasn't working!!
Cue mad dash, full striptease, shower no. 2!!
Now I have to get to work and unusually I'll be on the bus rather than on my bike and my stomach feels most unpleasant!! I feel a bit queasy too - but that could just be from the trauma of it all and having to get up v. early this morning!
The upside of all this is that it's my WI tonight so hopefully I'll be considerably lighter....
Well yesterday was bloody hard! Went to the pub in the evening for a friend's birthday do. Everyone was eating chips and drinking beer etc. I was hungry as I hadn't had my soup and was basically quite pissed off. So I came home, in the dark and rain on my bike whilst Kublai stayed out at the pub and then went to an Italian restaurant.
I just went to bed with my soup and milkshake.
But... today I'm glad I did. It was no big deal really. It's not forever. And let's face it... I've had my fun and now I'm paying for it really!
Only 2 more days till weigh in and hopefully I'll see results that will make it all worthwhile!
Very excited today as found out one of my best friends is moving house and going to be living very close to me! AND she might be starting LL herself! She's an old running buddy of mine so we should be good support for each other!
Just when you think you're safe the voices return.
Today I was really craving food.... any food. I kept imagining biting into a cheese ploughmans sandwich or some filled pasta with pesto. I could taste it!
I can't believe how loud the voice can be - "go on, just one won't matter".
I guess what's quite good about this diet is that "just one" most definitely WILL matter. If it knocks me out of ketosis I'll be screwed! Another 5 days of feeling hungry and waiting to get back into ketosis - as well as the reduced weight loss!
I know why the voices were so strong though - I had fully planned to go straight to college and study this morning, but ended up faffing about at home not doing very much. When I'm busy and focused I forget about food and the voices stay away.
Well.. I made it through the weekend. This involved staying with friends.. going out for a pub lunch in a gorgeous pub in Brighton with lots of old friends and being the only one not to eat. Then to a party with lots of lovely party food. Then back to friends' flat where they all ordered Chinese! And I managed really well! It helped that I was the only vegetarian at lunch, so their food wasn't so appealing to me - but even the chips etc didn't bother me. Today was easier because we were really just around for breakfast, which I'm never interested in anyway. I also had to turn down some very delicious looking home made vegan apple cake but again it was fine!
And best news of all... my friend confided in me that she is pregnant... I'm SO EXCITED!!!!
I'm feeling quite good and definitely feeling slimmer/fitter or something... basically not fat and horrible!
Long may it last! Only two more days till next weigh in!!
Blimey... day 11 already! It seems to have gone so quickly, yet also very slowly! I know that doesn't make any sense!!
Anyway, today we're down to Brighton to see friends and staying overnight. This will involve some restaurants, a party and lots of socialising - which generally means food. I think I can probably deal with that, but I'm worried about how my friends will react to what I'm doing. I have a feeling that my mate's husband will be less that supportive - he's not exactly renowned for being tolerant! Hopefully it will make me stronger rather than anything else.
The buffet function on Wednesday when I felt really hungry was quite testing but I guess this will be the first big test. Strangely though, it doesn't seem to be times like these that are the hardest.. it's more innocent, normal, nothing-really-going on moments - like when you walk into the kitchen and someone's left some biscuits out, or a plate of chips and it would be so easy to just pop one in your mouth....
Anyway, can't falter now.. only 4 more days till weigh in and I'm looking for a good result. I have been feeling better/slimmer but I caught sight of myself in a window yesterday and was utterly disgusted. Couple more weeks of good results and I should hopefully start seeing results as well as feeling them.
I realised that I had lost count of what day I'm on. This has to be a good thing right? I hope so.
The last two days were tough. I really wanted to eat. I did actually feel hungry but much more than that it was head hunger. I felt so tempted to pick. BUT I DIDN'T! It's scary to know how I'm going to keep the resolve up for such a long time. But, ONE DAY AT A TIME!
