Day 71 -yesterday's WI

So 1lb off at yesterday's WI.  I'm very happy with that as after last week's 12lb loss I thought I might stay the same or even put on through water retention.

After WI, I went to a 4.5 hour Cerco intensive beginner's class with Kublai.  We were so shit!  I was easily the worst person there!

It made me feel a bit disheartened because I'm used to picking things up fairly quickly - but not this.  It didn't help that I kept being paired up with another student who was frankly a complete cock!  He kept saying things like "no no,you're getting it all wrong" and trying to physically push me about - not in a man leading a woman way, but really quite forcefully.  I really had to bite my tongue.

I thought maybe I was being over-sensitive, but at one point when we were put into two large groups I very quietly asked Kublai (who was in the other group) if he would change places with me so I wouldn't have to be in the same group as that man.  In my new group a girl noticed and asked me why I had changed.  I just shrugged my shoulders and said nothing.  So she said "Was it because of that horrible man?".

He'd been to one beginner's class before and thought he was Patrick Swayze.. and I wouldn't mind but he kept getting it wrong himself!!

Also, I've been feeling so good about my body shape and getting thinner recently.  But we were in a dance studio completely surrounded by mirrors and I was the fattest one there - which made me feel a bit shit.  I just felt I looked ugly.  It didn't help I suppose that I was in my cycling gear from cycling there and no make up etc...

Also I didn't eat enough to sustain me - just had my LL bar at about 1pm.  So by 5pm I was feeling quite weak and then I had to cycle home in the rain and wind from Kentish Town to Brixton.  By the time I got home I felt very unwell until I had a milkshake and some soup.  So silly silly me - a lesson learned.  I really pushed it too much yesterday I think!

I'm trying to order the beginners DVD so we can practice at home because we're only bloody booked up for another workshop in January and to be honest, there was a point yesterday when we had to show the others what we'd learned and I totally could not remember a single thing.  It was probably the most humiliating experience of my life!

Anyway, onwards and downwards.  Got a really nice day planned today - although I need to get off and do some work for college!

Also, good news, looks like I might have found a way for my craft club to get an allotment - although it looks a bit tenuous at the moment.

We'll see.......