I hate managment!
Right - well it's 2.5 weeks since I hit BMI! Sadly in the two weeks since then I've put on 5lbs!! Now this is absolutely not a surprise. I went away to the middle of nowhere with just pub grub and frankly I did not stick to the "suggestions" of management at all. That being said I didn't go all out. When others had cream teas, I didn't. When others had icecreams, I didn't, when others had lunch, I didn't. However, I did have whatever was available and veggie for dinner - which tended to be quite carby! Plus I drank a LOT!
I have also had several binges - one full blown - complete with throwing up afterwards. 
However, I have also been exercising really really hard. I am doing at least two of the following things each day: running 5k (on interval/hill training mode which is bloody hard work), cycling 20-40km, swimming 1k, 1 hour's exercise class in gym. Yesterday I did hill training and cross training in the gym before doing a 1k swim - and frankly I think I might have overdone it a bit, 'cos I almost threw up - luckily I hadn't eaten yet!! I'm waiting for delivery of my new bike which I'm SO SO excited about - here is a picture. It really is the dog's bollocks - although it's an ebay purchase, so I'm slightly worried about it - hopefully when it arrives my fears will be allayed. But I took gaijinboy's sooper dooper racer out for a spin around Richmond Park last weekend and I OWNED the park - oh yes - it was wicked. So when I get this I'm planning some long, hilly countryside rides. And, of course, I've got the London-Brighton next weekend.
Anyway, Tuesday's weigh in was a bit of a wake up call and so far this week, I've been trying to stick to the rules. I've decided I'm on week 5 - my counsellor told me to choose a week and stick to it. I just wasn't sure where to be - having done weeks 1-3 before and now being 3 weeks later again?? Anyway, week 5 allows some alcohol, although I've chosen not to drink - until last night when I had a glass and a half of wine. Interestingly I did not want to finish the second glass anyway - which is NOT like me. Also, I've been trying to stick to 1 meal a day (instead of two), sticking to the rules of allowed things - although it's almost always some mixture of the following: tofu, some kind of raw veg - ie salad, grated carrot, fruit and cottage cheese. That being said I have "picked" at extras on 2 days - yesterday I had 4 mini crackers with philly cheese. The day before I had 2 biscuits. So I still have issues. BUT - to be honest, if I can eat 2 biscuits, or 4 crackers without then eating the rest of the biscuits/crackers - then going to the shop and having a huge binge/purge - this is a BIG success for me.
My worry now is - I get up, do all this exercise, have one meal - usually about 300-500 calories - very limited carbs (whatever is in the tofu etc). Yesterday I had really awful stomach pain - so much so that when I ate my dinner I felt instantly sick - in fact I made myself sick (again! ) and I hadn't eaten all that much.
I feel bad if I eat anything at all - the tiniest bit of tofu, the healthiest lettuce leaf.
Last week I was finishing exercising and having either a Fresh lunch box (190 cals) with falafel, hummous, lettuce and olives or, on one occasion I had a Fresh sandwich - 280 cals - smoked tofu, lettuce, beansprouts. I'd have these with an apple and a soya yoghurt. I felt ok. But this week, as these are not really within the week 5 suggestions, I'm having milkshakes/bars - or just LOTS of tofu, cottage cheese - and really struggling.
WHY CAN'T I JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL!!!!
Anyway, elsewhere, I'm procrastinating with my dissertation. Getting well and truly fed up with applying for jobs, going for interviews and getting nowhere. I have been accepted, I think to go back to Japan in August, directly after teaching foreign students here for two weeks and hopefully, directly before starting a new job in the first week in September. This means I will have sod-all time to write my dissertation, especially if, should I get a new job starting in September, they ask me to come in for a few weeks in July to be orientated!! That will basically mean that I just have the next 3 weeks - instead of 12 weeks - to write my dissertation!!
SO - as usual - taken too much on, generally pissed off with life - oh and on top of all that, I'm generally fed up with gaijinboy and feeling quite ambivalent about us at the moment. As always, when I get like this, I'm harvesting "run away" fantasies!
Life was so much easier on foodpacks.