DAY 23 - SO CLOSE
So another 3.something pounds off last night - I'm now 11 stone 1.4 lbs - so I'm recording it as 11st2lbs at the mo. But that means I am now officially the lowest weight I ever remember being. I was 11 stone 2 for a while in Japan in around 2000 (but did not have this big loose tummy I have now... 
- I honestly think if I had a tummy tuck I'd be a good half a stone lighter!).
I also had a (new flavour) banana milkshake at bedtime last night and very much enjoyed it! Banana is not a flavour I would ordinarily ever go for - although I DO like real banana and soya milk shakes whilst training!!
Anyway, I'm in a HUGE quandary - do I continue till next Tuesday which will almost certainly bring me into a healthy BMI (JUST!!) and then stop? It would be a fortuitous time to stop as it will be my last day of exams and we're going away with about 40 other people on a walking holiday in Dartmoor over bank holiday - meaning I could eat a little and enjoy myself - also I know I would drink too - maybe not a lot, but a bit. It will also give me 3 weeks more food time to train properly for the London - Brighton (June 17) and then the London triathlon (August 5th)
OR do I try to contine on for another 2-3 weeks to get me down to a BMI 23 or about 10 and a half stone? Which would mean having about 4 days of eating before doing London-Brighton and about 6 weeks to train properly for the triathlon?
I'm SO torn.
Stopping means..
I can train longer and start to tone up and feel a bit better about my body which is not thrilling me right now! I'll be able to start running again every morning and begin to feel strong and fit again!
I can eat at Dartmoor and participate more. I went on a walk with the same group last year and didn't eat - actually it was fine but I also couldn't do as much walking as everyone else. 
It will feel like a "reward" for getting through exams etc
I will almost certainly stop losing weight and might even gain some - especially with all the training.
I will be able to come off in a reasonably controlled manner. I've nearly lost it again a few times and I want to stay abstinent and come off in a controlled manner rather than just fall off the wagon spectacularly.
BUT...
Although I can eat at Dartmoor, I know it won't be a block of tofu!! I'll be lucky to find a salad I expect - we're staying in a pub - although I'll probably get some soup.
Although it will feel like a reward for getting through exams - I'm not supposed to be using food as a reward and I'm SO SO stressed right now I feel like I need some kind of release and I'm scared of what that might mean.
Although I'll be coming off as a conscious decision I will also be doing so knowing that in the first week (at least ) I will not be able to follow the maintenance plan to the letter (as we'll be away for 4 days in such an inaccessible place).
Not stopping means...
continuing to lose weight and thereby having a buffer for when I start.
getting past the walking holiday and out of the danger of using it as an excuse to go mad!
BUT....
I am getting back into LL now and I can see myself getting to 10 and a half stone and wanting to be 9 and a half stone. Is this good? Why? I'm not delighted with my body right now - mostly because of loose skin - getting off and toning up would help!