FUCK YOU VANILLA FUDGE AND YOUR IMPERIAL MINT FRIENDS!
Right woke up today thinking - must go run at least another 5.5k after yesterday. But remembered my problems with being "all or nothing". I went to bed last night thinking - "If I run 5k and just go back to shakes and soups for the next week it will all be ok".
Bollocks!! I decided to have a lie in with Kublai - haven't done that in AGES! I've had a shake. I'm going to his parents for lunch as it's his mum's b'day and I know I'll be having tofu and salad. We'll cycle there and back - it's not far but I'm allowed a day off!
Then later I will have plenty of choices - still have an official snack and 2 more packs to choose from. I need to remember that this is a long journey and it's going to be hard.
I learned last night that maybe I don't want to start drinking again? I don't suppose I'll go totally teetotal - but the allure of going to a really smoky, crowded pub and probably feeling like shit this morning was really not very high!! I wanted to be able to get up this morning and feel good and do stuff - that's how I've been feeling for the last 5 months whilst on this diet! I just need to convince myself that this doesn't make me a boring old git!
I also need to remember the good things I did yesterday. I had a long run and I didn't succomb to the large piles of sweets I have bought to take to Japan for the kids. There's fudge and all sorts in there and they've been calling my name ever since I bought them. FUCK YOU FUDGE AND YOUR IMPERIAL MINT FRIENDS! 
Anyway, feeling positive again today!
Thanks for all the lovely comments everyone.. it really does help me out!
FINAL MENU
2x milkshakes
1x bar
snack: 1 bowl 0%yoghurt with blueberries and raspberries
meal: tofu and salad leaves with balsamic vinegar.