Another slip up and some good things too!

I had another bad day yesterday picking wise!!  I picked the equivalent of a flapjack and ate a small bit of bakewell tart - the worst kind too!  I am also being quite liberal with my food allowances - whilst still sticking within the recommendations - we aren't given actual amounts we can/can't eat - it's all about eating until we're "full" - sadly I still appear to be a bottomless pit - I did think my stomach would have shrunk after all this time but apparently not!! 

I am still relatively controlled though - I caught myself with the flapjack and cake leftovers midway through scoffage and threw them out before I could go on a bender.  Then immediately owned up to it so that I'm not getting into the habit of secretly eating - it was a kitchen grab and scoff though.  I need to tell myself that if I'm going to eat it - put it on a plate and sit down and eat it - and then I know I won't eat it.  It's tough though it's because I know this that I scoff it in the kitchen before I can talk myself out of it!!

BUT - I have to nip this in the bud.  It's doing my head in. That's 2 days out of 9 I've done that now.

Looking at positives I've been running every day this week except for the two days I went swimming instead and I've cycled at least 12 miles a day.  So - some battles lost, some won.  Today is going well so far.  It will continue to as I'm at college and would actually physically have to buy something to eat - which isn't going to happen.  Then I'm going to a Japanese restaurant for dinner with my mum which will have plenty of nice choices for me.

The danger will be when I get home - but I'm saving a 0% greek yoghurt for my treat later and a choccy milkshake!  There are still biscuits and stuff at home - but they belong to everyone else and I want to be able to live around this sort of stuff - not make people hide things!!