GOING BETTER!
Well today has been better. I had a right old moany strop at my meeting last night. The poor other people in my group must think I'm a right spoiled brat!! I have been feeling SO hungry and not dealing well with it AT ALL! PLUS I didn't lose a lb last week which I was gutted with - given the hunger and the fact that I consumed very few extra calories than when on food packs. It really makes me worry that next week I will put on weight - and I probably will as I've massively stepped up my exercise and I can feel my muscles building - well aching massively - but same thing!!! 
Sally basically told me to get over it - which is fair enough - obviously not in so many words but I certainly came away feeling like that's what I was going to do!! I'm not going to see my weight again next week - and then that'll be it till I come back from Japan!! There's no point in obsessing - if I follow the programme then I should be ok. I know in Japan I will deviate but we've discussed that and I need to trust myself to make the right choices. I've learned a lot and I'm NOT the same person I was - this fear that I'm going to lose it is not helpful!
SO, I bought lots of veg on the way home and loads of those 0% fat Greek yoghurts - which are clearly going to become my saviour! They're really nice and feel quite filling - i mix a bit of the drink flavouring in to make orange/blackcurrant flavour yoghurt - which is horrific really given that I feel I should be trying to stay as "natural" as possible - but I'm going to do what it takes - and if that's what it takes, so be it!
I got my hair done today - I went for a sort of punky, red rock and roll cut and they gave me a very grown up, dark brown with a very subtle hint of mahogany cut - a bit Davina McCall I think. I had LOADS chopped off! But I LOVE it. The guy who did it is a genius - it is super flattering!! PLUS he didn't use any products in it like I asked and I immediately got on my bicycle and spent the rest of the day dashing around London on it - and it still looks nice - so this seems like a good omen. Although of course the proof of the pudding is in the first wash (or something .....!)
Going out for my first meal out with Kublai in 5 months tonight. He's delighted - he hasn't seen my hair yet but I know he'll like it. We're going to our local Japanese restaurant where I will be able to have tofu and salad leaves - my daily menu at the moment. It's not about the food though - it's about being able to interact socially in that way again together. It's a bit of a reward for him really for putting up with me and paying for all this!!!
PLUS I've started training again. I've been running every morning this week apart from yesterday when I went swimming instead - and I'm cycling everywhere - no more buses for me (of course the gorgeous weather and longer days really help!). I really love the feeling of getting stronger - and running around the park in the morning is just wonderous. My flat actually backs onto the park so I go straight in. There is a considerable hill in the middle (great for training) and the rest is flat or undulating. It overlooks the whole of London so I can see the sunriseall the way from Battersea Power Station right through to Canary Wharf and Crystal Palace. When running away from the view it's beautiful trees and flowers and the ponds etc. It's incredibly exhiliarating - especially with my MP3 player on full blast!! I'm taking my trainers to Japan with the aim of continuing to run every day. I figure that being 5lbs heavier and toned is better than being lighter and flabby! Clothes are looking good on me atm but my stomach really needs work (although I suspect that the loose skin may be around to stay... 
) and the rest of me could do with being tighter and more toned - I like feeling fit and strong and I'm determined to get back there. The weight loss is all well and good but it's really one component of the full package and I'm nowhere near finished!!
So - feeling much better now. Will try and get some "after" shots over the next few days.