Day 139 - I'm bloody Jordan!
So we had a fabulous weekend. I'm aching now in my arms and legs and it will have been fabulous toning exercise I imagine. Strangely there was another woman there also on LL. She's lost 9 STONE!!!!! Really lovely woman too. There with her equally lovely husband. It was nice to have some solidarity in the soup thing because the dojo provided home cooked AMAZING looking vegetarian lunches - the sort of food I absolutely love - incredible veggie curries, salads, rice, cheese, breads ,,,yummmmm. A few people did a double take when they saw me sitting eating a bowl of powdered soup but no one asked a thing - so it was fine!
I got really into the taiko - got a bit overwhelmed (as I'm wont to do really) on a few occasions and had to fight back the tears. When you really lose yourself in it and feel the power from the drum coursing through your body, it's quite an emotional feeling!! I'm considering trying out a group here in London, but the one I have in mind requires a massive commitment and the guy who runs it seems a little scary - I've got a good bit on my plate at the moment so I'll try and clear a little bit out of the way and then get in touch with him. I don't know if it might just be one thing too many and I've been trying NOT to do that. On the other hand I felt, whilst doing taiko this weekend, that I've perhaps neglected my "spiritual" side a bit. Not that this is exactly "spiritual" but it certainly taps into a side of me that isn't met by my academic work or other exercise. At the same time as having that meditative element (for want of a better way of putting it) - it's also extremely good exercise!! Plus it would be fab thing to get involved with for my future teaching etc.
Anyway, we rolled off the overnight train on Monday morning at 8am and I went to Oxford Street to do some shopping as I need an interview suit for an interview tomorrow. Well - I was still shopping at 4pm!! BAD GAIJINGIRL! I had a good shopping day. I am now a size 14 trousers and a size 16 top! I was a bit confused by this but all was explained. I bought a white shirt for this interview and at home I only have black bras. In fact, they're black size 44C bras. Now, obviously I knew that they are now too big - but I imagined I was somewhere around a 38B (which is where I was when I last hit 11 1/2 stone). Obviously I needed to buy a white bra so I had them measured up... 36DD - WTF!!!!!!!! I had GREAT fun trying on bras and bought a couple to take home. I don't want to go too mad as hopefully I will be changing size a bit more. It really made me feel much better about my boobs as they really are droopy and saggy now I feel - lots of lose skin around the edges etc and I didn't feel they were at all attractive. But shopping for really pretty bras in really womanly sizes made me feel much better! I also bought a pair of black trousers and a pair of jeans and a lovely pair of shoes. I feel I'm going to look really good for the interview which should help with my confidence!!
Anyway - all of this meant I didn't get to my meeting on Monday night!! BAD GAIJINGIRL AGAIN!!! So, yet again, I don't know how I've done weight wise - but again, at the present stage I think this really is a good thing. So we'll see next Monday where I'm at.
Now I feel much more confident with sticking this out - the horrible blip of a few weeks ago seems to have passed - maybe it really was the stupid contraceptive pill - as well as my food worries and tantrum throwing, my mood seems to have lifted considerably and I'm coping better with stress - even though I have quite a bit more right now!! I really do feel I could keep going until 11 stone before hitting management at this stage.
So BRING IT ON!!!
