DAY 130! The weekend again - eek!

So - it's the weekend again - which has been problematic for me for the last few weeks.  I've woken up feeling really tired, grumpy and shitty.  I've noticed this happening almost daily now..  Despite getting 8 hours sleep last night I feel like I'm about 5 hours behind on sleep and just really low and down and tearful!  I feel like life is so mundane and I'm just plodding along some completely pointless path for no good reason.

I wonder if this is to do with coming off the anti-depressants?  It's been at least two months now since I did though - so that's a bit weird.  I guess I need to just soldier on.  Maybe my body still needs time to readjust to get to "normality" - whatever that is!

Mum suggested I take St John's Wort - but I would really just like to stop taking things to make me "happy"..... I can't help feeling I just need to get over myself and accept that this is life - get on with it!  What the hell have I got to be unhappy about anyway?  Not a lot really!

Anyway, grumbles over.  Hopefully this weekend will not be so bad as I've got plans for the rest of today and tomorrow we're going on a day trip to Surrey to visit our two best friends and my god daughter - so that will be a nice day of countryside stomping and chatting and not obsessing about food!!

Then it's my meeting on Monday which is always like a dose of tonic.

Feel better already for having had a moan!!

Miserable cow..

Lots going on....

Wow Gaijingirl, sounds like you are dealing with an awful lot at the moment.  I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling - though it sounds like you have a lot of legitimate reasons to be feeling down.

One of the things that ww sez (along with many others) is that it is important to make time for yourself.  Perhpas you've done that with your day trip to Surrey, but perhaps doing something special for yourself - just yourself - might help energize you a bit?  I know it's not a solution really, but you've done *so* much (lighter life, university, come off anti-depressants) to change your life and your body maybe it'd be good to give yourself a bit of a reward and a break?

Hang in there girl, your life is an inspiration even if it doesn't feel like it so much at the moment.

Even more of a fan,
xN

THANKS!

Well thanks ninamoonshine!!  I took your advice and had a "day off yesterday" - even though I should have been writing an essay.  I think I needed it!!  Going to write about it now on my update.