When's it going to show?!
I've lost 8 lbs to date but nothing about my body would prove that. I know that it is probably water weight and 2 weeks from now i will just be in awe of how great i look, but its so discouraging to see the scale change and have your pants fit the same way.
Now, don't get worried. I am still sticking to this diet and not straying and i am actually VERY happy with life right now. The diet is easier, honestly, because most other things have been going very well for me. I am starting my new job on Monday and have put in my resignation for my old one. I am seeing this guy who is wonderful and i really like him a lot.
The only down side to this new boyfriend is that he is actually straight (which, if you knew me is a feat on its own for me - my life revolves around gay men, they are my friends, and confidants, and a few have been my boyfriend before they came out...i know....). Well, what this means is that he has other straight guy friends who i will be going to meet tonight and watch the Patriots game. This is great right? Wrong. That means there will be alcohol and pizza and other bad for you stuff. I am preempting all of this by prepping for it. I am saving my points and eating no point veggies all day to fill me up. Here's my plan:
At the party:
2 small pieces of pizza - 10pts
4 beers max (or 6 diet cokes and rum) - 12pts - let's hope it will not be that much alcohol. I am really rooting to stay in the under 3 drinks catergory, not even in the mood to drink - plus with not a ton of food in my belly i may be drunk after 1 so, problem solved!
I'm at work today so at work i will:
1 orange - 1pt
popcorn - 1pt
brocolli spears - 0pts
frozen mixed veggies - 1pt
That will put me at 25 points for the day and not ruin my diet - or make my weight skyrocket in one day. At least that's the plan. I've been pretty good at not drinking at parties and such and eating well, but i think tonight will be a challenge. I haven't told the guy that i am on weight watchers - strike that i told him that i was "trying to eat better" and that my mom was dieting and i was supporting her by doing the same (which is sort of true) but i did not tell him that i was hardcore "dieting". I think he would be more than understanding if i told him, but at the same time i just started dating him and pulling the "oh, i'm on a diet, i couldn't possibly" seems very unappealing and not me. So instead i must prove my determination to myself and my willpower by resisting the pizza and liquor. I do love pizza and liquor though (and even before my diet i never really ate horribly) but its going to be hard.
Gee, does it sound like i'm more nervous about the food than meeting new guy's friends? I guess that's good for the guy and crappy for the pizza....
I will say one last thing to that delicious pizza: "I don't need you! I am stronger than you and you will not ruin my diet! Plus tomorrow i'll have a whole pizza...yes it will be Lean Cuisine, but it will be Great! So ha."
(it's a little weird that i talk to my food, but i figure if i am going to have a disfunctional relationship with food anyway i might as well be on speaking terms with it!)