Officially the first day
Today is officially the first day of my weight watchers/diet journey. Technically i started 2 days ago - that way any pitfalls or weirdness was taken care of already. I am all set to "start" this thing since i am already feeling pretty comfortable with it.
So, here's my back story. I have always been short and a little stout - never fat. It was always that i was slightly bigger than average or thin but never quite big enough to accurately be called chunky or fat. My sophomore year of college my long term boyfriend and I broke up. Surprisingly this was my thinnest weight. At about 150 (i don't remember weighing myself) i was my thinnest. I fit into my size 10 pants just perfectly. Well, the next couple years leading up to graduating college has lead to a 20 lb weight gain! I could say i don't know what happened, but i do. I over ate and i ate badly. Sometimes i believe i binge eat - i eat until i am so full i want to vomit but just can't stop.
One thing about my food habits you should know, 1: i'm italian (off the boat, italian) so eating is essential and love in my family. 2: i was raised with a sister very close in age wit Prader Willi Syndrome. Part of prader willi syndrome is that she can't control her hunger or eating, she is constantly starving and is obese as a result. Growing up the refrigerator and cabinets were literally padlocked. A lot of the times my mom would sneak in "fun" food and we would hide while trying to eat it so Nicole didn't see or feel bad. I truly believe this hiding of food is something that is now a part of me. Even when i don't have to, i hide food i buy. For example if i go out to grab lunch at work i'll get a sandwich and some water but i may also by a bag of chips or maybe some candy these extra items go in my purse and i will hide that i am eating it and have even gone so far as to lie about having it.
I really believe that this diet will work and i will reach my goal. I am not horribly fat or out of shape, in fact i actually lose weight fairly easily (igain easy too) but its just a matter of staying with it. The reason i think this time is different is because i am doing it with my mom and so she is my acountabil-a-buddy and also i made sure to tell a select few people that i am on a diet so i am making myself accountable that i now have to lose weight lest i be a liar!
Ok, here i go...
