Happy Belated Mother's Day all !!

Hope you all had a good one .. this year I'm vowing to GIVE MY MOTHER HER BODY BACK AND GET MY OWN!  lol

Eat healthy.

30 minutes a day.

We can do this :)

I'm re-weighing myself and starting fresh .. how about you?

ARRGGGHH!

I have been totally missing in action but I'm back.

My best friend is going through a personal/emotional crisis soooo being the good friend I am I jumped in with both feet "helped" by emotional eating right along side of her      I've had freaking MacDonalds for 3 days in a row!!!!!!! 

Enough of this shit .. I'm back on track .. this rest of this week I will get back to YOU on a Diet and eat healthy once again because (1) I've gained some weight back and (2) I feel shitty when I eat shitty!!!    Next week I'm back to C25K.

Man I hope you guys are all doing well .. I miss the support and I miss feeling great!!!!

penis. yes I said penis.

Yes .. and the game continues .. I will throw out PENIS in the title of my post  everyone once in awhile and see who it reels in .. did it get you?  If it did you HAVE to comment .. it's A RULE!!  LOL

How'd you guys do today?  Me? Not so good .. it seems the days that I do not have breakfast I tend to eat like a trucker so another new rule in my life ... BREAKFAST IS A MUST. 

C25K is back on tommorrow .. back to week 1 seeing as I missed 2 weeks so that threw me off . .. anyone up for the challenge???

And lastly ... where oh where is my friend skmama?  She seems to have fallen of the face of my ep/email world and I miss her ... I think she needs a kick in the pants and some major encouragement so if you have a moment we need to stop on over at her blog and give her a big "WHERE YOU AT GIRL?" and "YOU CAN DO IT!!"  www.extrapounds.com/blog/skmama/

Fessing Up

Beware .. REALLY REALLY LONG POST

I've been avoiding you all because I need to fess up and I've been having a hard time on how to word it to maybe give you my side of things before you make a judgement.

I'm STILL on my healthy journey but it's taking a new twist - one that will make me much happier in the end.

Quite a while ago I made a post something along the lines of "weight vs. shape" and this is what we are going to talk about.   For the longest time I have been very unhappy with my body SHAPE .. what I weigh is irrelevant to me but I have ALWAYS assumed that "when I hit that magic number" I will be good to go  ... as you can see from my pics my weight at 139 is NOT really that overweight  (possibly 15 pounds according to the charts but seriously I am quite muscular so I'm NOT huge) .. my arms and my legs are normal looking but because I went into menopause at such an early age (25!!) all the weight I ever gain goes to my stomach area and not any where else so I end up looking like a marshmellow with twigs poking out of it .. when I lose weight it initally (the first bit - unually until I reach about 137 or so) comes off my stomach area and then it moves to arms/legs/face only AND I just become more disproportiate looking because I get super skinny everwhere else and the stomach area remains big and my face begins to age quite terribly because I become drawn looking and sunken soooo (my godness you guys still with me?)  I have made the decision that I want lipo on my abs to correct it.  My husband is completely on board and supportive and went with me to the appointment and I am a good candidate because I never physically had kids so my elasticity is good etc etc.   Now some of you are probably shocked .. I am too but this is not about stopping exercise and it's not about not eating healthy it's about SHAPE and contour and I am sick to death of  looking like the Michelin man.

I will still be here .. I will still continue a healthy lfestyle and eating YOU ON A DIET because it IS a lifestyle.. I will exercise .. this is not about weight reduction or being the skinny chick because even with some of it gone off my stomach I will not be a skinny chick . I will just look normal and average which is what I am looking for  ... I don't want to look like I'm 23 or act like I'm 23 .. I just want to look like a good 43 (which I am).     I've spent my whole life trying to cover up this stomach  and I'm sick of it.  

So there's the long and fat of it .... I know alot of you are not going to agree with my decision and it's all good .. please note ALL comments welcome .. good bad indifferent. 

 ps.  I'm going to add some pics so you can see what I mean about body shape

Been Missing in Action (and oh yeah . PENIS!!)

Well I've been missing in action and eating so so .. all last week was totally a write off but today I'm back at it!  How was everyone's Easter?

Cadbury Mini Eggs & Penis

I seriously need to speak to the inventor of the Cadbury Mini Egg .. what kind of sick demented f'ing freak would deliberately make these desireable little morsels of chocolately heaven balls and then have the freakin' nerve to put them up for sale for desperate housewives such as myself???  Do they know what they have done???

I WANT HIS EASTER EGGS ON A PLATTER NOW!!!   If I see the Easter Bunny at this point I'm liable to strangle him!!!

The last couple of days I've been missing in action!!  My life surrounded me and SUCKED ME IN!!  Tommorrow my ass is back on the treadmill (I haven't even exercised!!)  and I will be completing my C25K on Wed/ Friday and Sunday this week.  Food wise I have been OK .. not fantastic just OK .. I have YET to give into the temptation of the Cadbury Mini Egg which is damn good :)

As for the penis .. I'm just putting it in all my post titles from now on .. cause it's fun   LOL

Pizza, Popcorn, Penis, Pez

Alec, I'll take things that start with P that pissed me off today for $200.00!!

Went to Pizza hut - ate pizza

Went to the movies - ate popcorn & pez

Went home -  wanted to roundhouse kick my husband right in the penis** (not for any particular reason except he annoys me sometimes and did so this morning.. I think I better go to the doctor and have my hormone pills checked what do you think? LOL)

As you can tell my food day has not been outstanding today .. for some reason I just couldn't get my shit together .. oh well what's done is done .. even the Biggest Losers get a cheat day every week so I'm counting today as mine and getting back to the grind tommorrow :)

How's everyone else doing??   Two more days till the kids go back to school .. .YAY!!  hehe

** DISCLAIMER ** no actual penii were harmed in the making of this post .. or during my day at all

The Biggest Loser

Does anyone watch this show?  HOLY CRAP I love it!!  Did you see that chick that came back (Ali)  .. she lost more weight and looks better than the woman who stayed on campus ..   how is that even possible?  The women who stay on campus work out like 6 freakin' hours a day!!  What is up with that?  I'd like to have Jillian or Bob riding my ass in a workout a week that's for sure! 

HOLY CRAP ALI GREAT JOB!!

THIS TIME IS FOR REAL!!!!

As per my previous post I've been doing alot of blog surfing .. and if I lost one pound each time I've read "THIS TIME IS FOR REAL!!" on people's blogs or in their titles I'd be a skeleton.   No real concrete thoughts on it .. I just found that it's a funny coincidence that so many of us type or say that ... like the other times we were just pretending to lose weight or get healthy   "practising" if you will which leads us up to this time .. the "real time"  Maybe we say it to give ourselves conviction  because when we type it it seems to be typed with such STRENGTH  and FINALITY  like drawning a line in the sand between the before big ass fried chicken french fry eating me and the now svelte baked chicken on a bed of baby greens with dressing on the side me... .. like tommorrow it's going to jump off the screen and smack us in the greasy lips when we are about to wolf down that quarter pounder with cheese and fries .. NO NO STOP .. THIS TIME WAS FOR REAL REMEMBER???     Good words though .. and if we type it enough we may even begin to believe it and it becomes our reality.  I sure hope so .. cause I'm sick of buying fat pants, skinny pants, fat pants, skinny pants.  FOR REAL.

Oh and btw .. I ate pretty darn good today even though I had a piece of peanut butter pie for dessert (shared amongst 3 adults I might add!) AND shovelled the driveway forever .. tommorrow is weigh in and measurement day ... FOR REAL!!  "wink!"

omg now you guys probably think I'm crazy and won't join our group LOL

strange satisfaction ..

I'm developing a  habit of surfing the EP blogs and dropping in encouragement to my fellow dieters out there and in turn you are all giving me a such very strange sense of satisfaction, motivation and encouragement without even saying a word.  I feel a sense of belonging here .. like you guys know what I'm saying and going through.

I'm sitting here thinking .. when I drop into your blog with a "you can do it!  I know you can!"  what I'm also doing is speaking to and encouraging myself .. motivating myself  .. making myself accountable .. if I say it to you it must also go for me right?  Something to think about for me.

I did something awesome today ... I'm bored .. I'm sick of surfing .. the kids are doing crafts therefore have no interest in me ... I certainly have NO DESIRE to do housework .. hubby's watching sports and currently shovelling and I didn't know what to do with myself .. so I hopped my as up on my treadmill and did my C25K Week 1 Workout 3. yeah baby!  I WORKED OUT.

Then I had some brushetta on 8 whole wheat crackers (recipe in the You ON a Diet Group) and a cup of soup ..

Anyone want a son?  I got three to spare who are fighting non stop at the moment.  I'll throw in a 130 pound hairy freakin' dog just for kicks too.