TOM....

Hello everyone. I have been checking in on all of you. I am doing ok. Taking my meds, and trying very hard to follow the diet plan given. My doc thinks I have PCOS due to my prediabetes. Which I think I understand to be possibly having cycts on my ovaries, elevated testosteron levels and it is reaking havic on my time of month. I have been spotting for the past week. It is not time to have TOM yet, but the PCOS can mess that up.

So I have felt bloated and have a huge zit.  I will be glad when it goes away again.

On the positive side, when I went to church this past weekend, I was able to fit comfortably in my pants. Let me explain, my pants are some God awful large size, however, they had been feeling snug. When I put them on Saturday for church, very comfortable. Now I know this is not going down a pant size or anything, but I am looking at the positives here. I could sit down in my pants and not feel like someone had me in a vice grip!

Skinny vibes to all.

My roller coaster ride...

I have been a bit emotional today. I seem to be all over the place. I am sad and crying one moment and happy the next. My poor hubby.

I think most of it is related to being prediabetic and dealing emotionally with that. The hardest part is eating. Especially when we have dinner. I know eventually I will be able to modify our meals more but for now, I have to be very strict about what I eat. My family had chicken poppers, rice, gravy and a veggie tonight. I had fish. Don't get me wrong, I like fish and I am trying to be positive,but it is hard. they had pizza the other night, I had salad.

I know it is for my own good and so I can be healthy, but I am feeling mad and sad at times right now. Good news is since I started eating like my doc told me to do, I have lost 3 pounds in a week. there is my silver lining.

I am reading up on diabetes and learning as much as I can. I want to be positive and make good changes in my life. Sometimes though our emotions don't match our brains and what we know is right.

Hope everyone is well!

Broke the 235 barrier!

I have been stuck at 235 for about 2 weeks now. I weighed myself this morning and I have finally broken through!! Yeah!

I started taking my medicine yesterday for diabetes. So far, so good. The doctor had warned me of some "side effects" but so far nothing. Thank God!!! Believe me , they aren't pleasant. I would be spending a lot of time in the potty if I had them.

Things are going well otherwise. I am trying my hardest to stick to the diet the doctor told me to follow. Veggies, fruit, fish, and lean meats. I was told to stay away from most grains for now. I guess she really wants to get my blood sugars in check.

I hope everyone is doing well on their weight loss journey. You can do it! Skinny vibes.

May have to stop...

following the Weight Watchers plan. I went to my endocrinologist today for my follow up visit. The tests I had done showed that I am definitely prediabetic and pretty close to being diabetic. I have to start taking meds and if they don't work, I may have to start giving myself shots of something.

Anyway, doc said I have to radically change my diet. Fresh veggies and fruit, lean meat and fish. No bread of any kind, white or brown. And I should stay away from grains of both of those colors for now. I will have a really hard time reaching my points I think if I stay on WW. Not sure really, I guess I will have to look into it more. She said even if I have brown rice, to only have 1/2 cup. No pastas and so on. AAAAUUUGHHH! I know I must do it though. She also wants me to get my weight down to 150 at least.

I also have fatty liver disease and probably CPOS. All things associated with diabetes and being overweight.

Anyway, I hope you all are well. I have been checking in on you all.

Skinny vibes!

Getting to the gym today...

My family and I have been sick the past few days. We all have colds and sore throats, yuck. So I haven't been to the gym. I need to try to get there today.

thanks to all who posted messages about the scale not moving. You are probably right. I only eat my regular points ( about 31). I never really eat my flex points or my points from working out. It seems like too  much food to me. I guess that is me having to get over my "diet" mentality. That is one of the things I like about WW, it is teaching me to eat well and showing me just how much I need to eat to lose weight successfully.

I am going to really try to journal 100% for the next two weeks. I have been about 90% with it so far, so I am going to add in that last 10 and see if it makes a difference. Maybe I am not doing as well I as think I am with eating.

I hope everyone is warm somewhere. It is super cold here today in MD. I am ready to move south!!!

Skinny vibes to all.

Feeling a bit frustrated about...

the scale. I try not to step on it because I know this is what it does to me. My weigh in day is actually Monday morning, but I stepped on it today. Mistake. I am still at  235 pounds. I have not budged in about 2 weeks. I must be doing something wrong.

I feel like I am doing really well though. I keep within my points. I would say that I am 95% at logging my points, so I should be ok there. I have been working out. Just don't know. Maybe I need to look again at my points and really evaluate what I am eating.

There are certain "tricks" that work well for me. I know I am the type of person who has to to say no eating after 7 pm. However, there are days when I don't have enough points eaten yet. Maybe I need to start trying to take that into account and make sure to have all of my points before 7.  My husband is a snacker at night and I could easily snack right along with him. That is part of what has gotten me to this size.

I am trying to look a the silver lining of the cloud. I have not gained weight and I am still doing well. It is just so frustrating that I have been working so hard and not seeing a payoff. You can't tell me it is a plateau either! I am 235 pounds, there is still plenty to lose.

Skinny vibes to all.

Thanks for your prayers

Hello everyone. Just wanted to add a quick update. My friends son came home last night. His brain surgery last 8 1/2 hours, but it looks like the thickening that was causing his seizures was completely removed!!!!! 

He is unable to walk right now, but can crawl. They are told the swelling of the brain from the surgery is what is causing that but he can expect to fully recover.

Thanks to all who mentioned they would say prayers!

Cher

Score one for the Nachos

Ok, so this whole getting healthy thing and losing weight is a learning process for me.  I am the type to eat for any reason, bored, tired, happy, sad, depressed, you name it. 

Well yesterday after a day of completely reorganizing my kitchen and scrubbing it, I was exhausted. I then had to go and clean my dad's house. I  clean it once a week. He was going to hire a cleaning lady, but felt weird about having a stranger in his house when he was not home. So I offered. He lives alone in a townhome so it can be done in about an hour. Anyway, I made a bad choice on the way there and got my favorite 711 nachos.

I am not beating myself up over it. Instead I am taking it as a learning experience. I know if I don't change my habits and behaviors, any weight I lose will be right back. So with that said, I realized one of my triggers yesterday and hopefully now will cope better with it in the future.

Otherwise, things are great. I have been staying OP, well except for yesterday's nacho disaster. I have been working out 5 times a week, sometimes twice a day.  I am feeling better. Haven't seen any change on the scale though. I try not to weigh myself daily. I know some do, it gets me in the dumps if I do and dont' see a change, or heaven forbid, if the scale goes up. I know my weight fluxuates so I stay away from the scale.

I hope everyone is doing well. Skinny vibes!

One more thought for the day.. Rock of Love 2

I must have  a lot going on in the old brain today. Promise this will be the last post.

So as many of you already know, I LOVE  reality tv. Last night one of my favorites came back on... Rock of Love.  I am 35, so Poison was popular when I was in middle school and I enjoy seeing Bret Michaels find the "love" of his life in the quality selection of women.

I must admit, I recognized one girl from another reality show, Beauty and the Geek. So my thought here, is she really looking for love or just to hook up with Bret or be on tv again? Also, I want to know where they find these chicks.

I do love the show though, so keep it comin'!!!

Lesson Learned here...

Okay, this is a follow up on the post I added a little earlier.

I spoke of wanting mac and cheese for lunch. Well, my kids love Velveeta shells and cheese, as do I. I know this stuff is bad for you, but I guess I have never really taken the time to figure out how bad.

I had some. I did not check the points before hand. Just figured I would have some and check. I knew it would be up there, but I am getting ready to work out and then go to the gym tonight for my "mommy time". Anyway, just logged my points on line.  Are you ready???????? for the amount I ate, it was a whopping 16.5 points! Let me write it again... 16.5 points. For one stinking bowl of mac and cheese! No wonder I weight over 200 pounds!  Just to give you an idea for those of you not on Weight Watchers, for my weight I am allowed 30 points a day. So gone are over 1/2 of my points on one meal. Looks like I am eating veggies the rest of the day and sweating my rear off at the gym tonight.

I am not going to be serving this to my family any more. I will try to maybe find a lower calorie and fat version of this. 

So, with that said, my lesson is learned. No more mac and cheese , even a little is not worth it.

We can post sayings on the WW board, here is mine...

"You are what you eat, and Lord knows, I don't want to be a bag of M and M's any longer!"

So true about you are what you eat huh?

Anyway, talk later ladies.