Sounds corny but...
I had decided to take some time off from writing on the blog here. I decided to really take the time and think about what I really want and to try to clear my head. I have put so much pressure on myself about losing weight, that I was starting to feel badly about myself. I think just the opposite should happen. If I am trying to make positive changes, then shouldn't I start to feel more and more positive about myself?
I became wrapped up in "what is the right thing to do?" and "which diet should I follow?" that I lost sight of the big picture. I became overwhelmed. There is so much information out there, as we all know, and I wasn't sure what to do. I started to try to do too many things.
HOwever, with the time off from it all I realized some things. First, I need to do what works for me. I can't worry about what everyone else is doing or the newest diet book out there. I will gladly listen or read and try to get some new ideas, but I won't let them consume me. I will figure out what works for me!
Second, I will stick to the basics. It is not rocket science, losing weight! There are basic principles involved here. Eat better, eat quality food that gives me great nutrition, and eat less. Then there is also the move more factor. If I follow these basic guidelines, then I am bound to lose weight. The "trick" is finding balance. Eating the right amount of calories, not too much or too little.
Third, losing weight is more of a mind game than anything else. If I am not in the right frame of mind, then this process will not work. I think taking the time off from everything allowed me to refocus myself. I am in control of what I eat. I am in control of how I look. If I want to lose the weight for good, then I need to make some mental changes. Starting with how I look at food. Food is not a comforter to me. I can eat myself into happiness or eat away feelings I may have with a bag of chips. That just causes a vicious cycle to begin and continue. Instead, I can talk to my husband, talk to my great friends on here, or write. I can go for a walk or play with my kids. You get the point.
Finally, I realized it is time for me to stop making excuses. I have been comfortable ( so to speak, not phyically) with being fat. It is easy. It is easier to stick to what I know then to step out of my comfort zone and not make changes. Yes, getting up at 5 am will be hard. I will want to sleep. However, if I want to make changes, it is needed. Yes, eating chips may taste terrific to me now, but with time, my tastes will change. It may take a year or more to lose all the weight I want to lose, but time will be on my side.
I am sorry my post was so long. Once I started, it just kept coming. I am ready to see a positive me and positive changes. I am ready to find the real me not the one hiding in the fat girl suit. There is so much more to me than just the fat girl and I am ready to find out exactly who I am.
Thanks for supporting me and I hope to support all of you too! Brelee get some of those small tanks ready for me! Next summer, I may need to borrow some. 