Check up today...
So I went for my check up with my endocrinologist. It was ok. Here is the run down:
1. Blood pressure - great, but I have never had an issue , Thank God, at least one thing is in the normal range!
2. Sugars - same, still a bit high
3. Fatty liver enzymes - they've lowered and are now to normal thanks to the meds
4. Weight - I was at 230 today, but I have been losing weight slowly.
Here is where I became a bit annoyed though... she is a nice lady, I like her a lot actually. She is one of those folks though that look like she has been thin all of her life, so I am bugged a little when she gets on me about weight. She says things in a brutally honest, but not trying to be mean way.
She told me I HAVE to lose weight. Eat fish, chicken, turkey and veggies she says. Now I like all of those things, but the moment you tell me that is all I can eat, I instantly want something else. I know that is my mind working me over but I am trying to change it.
Anyway, I decide to ask her about phentermine. I took it once before and lost 50 pounds. I know it is not the "answer" but it helped to get me started and once I saw the weight coming off, I was able to stay on that path. I didn't even have the word "phentermine" off of my tongue yet before she said NO! She said that is only a quick fix. So then I did not push the issue, I felt silly for asking in the first place.
So again, I am losing weight but way, way slowly than I would like and to be honest iti depressing some days. I know that I just have to suck it up and do it, but it is hard!!
I hope everyone is well and have a great weekend. 



Childish I know but oh so human!