Believe in myself...right????
New day of the new me path. So far I have been focused on trying to make better choices. See in the past, I have dove head first into a "diet" only to feel like I am dying by day 3 and fall off of the wagon. This time I thought that I would slowly move into it and make small changes every 2 or 3 days. For example, the past 2 days, no soda or tea. I am a huge iced tea drinker. I make a 2 quart pitcher and put about 3/4 a cup of sugar in the container. I know I need more water instead, so I am trying to focus on that right now.
In the past, I used WW to lose weight. At one point, I weighed about 200 pounds and was able to get down to 150 with WW. Here is the big HOWEVER, I was also on Phentermine at the time. My doctor had prescribed it for me and recommended doing WW too. She told me that only using Phentermine would not keep weight off, I had to learn to eat better. She was right. I was feeling like a hot momma, down to size 10 , and then got pregnant with my 2nd child. It has been a downward spiral since then with my weight.
Anyway, so here is the thing... I am having serious doubts about my ability to do this without the meds. I know these are the demons in my head that I have to battle with and I know that if I really, really try, that I can do this ( at least deep down I know) but for some reason, I really fight myself about it.
I always have a reason not to try... "doesn't matter, I am so big, I will never be small again" or "Hey, the holidays are here and I have to eat huge plates of food right?" or " I am too tired to do this". Anyway, I could go on and on. The point is I am working really hard to change the negative thoughts I have about this process.
I can do this! Thanks to everyone who took the time to say hello and welcome me to the group. I appreciate it more than you know!