Happy Birthday Little Brother!!

Today is my little brothers 28th birthday. Happy Birthday Michael! He lives in Minnesota, I live in Texas. I miss him, and wish that we were closer. I'll see him this summer, and I am really hoping to "WOW" him with the weight that I have lost thus far. He has no idea that I am losing and I really want it to be a surprise. Actually, none of my friends and family know-so they'll all be surprised!

I'm slowly losing still. Not as fast as I would like, but at least the numbers are moving down, rather than up. I know if I would pick up my exercise, things would go a little faster, but the truth is that I am just too lazy. I'm tired in the evenings after work, and the last thing I want to do is go out and exercise. I just want to sit and relax and enjoy the evening with my family.

So, here's to a new week. I'm hoping that the scale will continue to move in the direction I would like.

At a crossroads...

I've lost another pound, but that isn't what is on my mind lately.

I'm seriously considering changing jobs. I have been worked in education with the school district for a long time and it taking its toll on me. I have worked with several school districts in 3 states and I think it is time to admit that enough is enough. The only thing holding me back right now is the schedule-and most of the students are great-I really enjoy them. I love my schedule. I have lots of time off, I am home in the afternoons and I get to spend a lot of time with my family, especially my daughter. The downside is that I am stressed all the time. I dread going to work and dealing with red tape and administration, the following work day consumes my mind from the minute I get home until I arrive at school the following morning. That is no way to live.

So, hopefully soon I will be able to report that I have come to a decision and am taking the necessary steps. Wish me luck!

Getting frustrated.

The scale hasn't moved since Friday. I'm getting frustrated especially considering how easy it was in the beginning to lose.

I'm having a hard day today as well, because I feel like I am hungry ALL the time. I haven't felt like this in a long time, and its taking a lot to keep my mind occupied.

Grrrr!!!

Happy Easter!!

It is Easter and there isn't a single Reeses Peanut butter egg in the entire house. I suppose that is a good thing because I would consume my entire days calories in just a few minutes eating those delicious treats. Mmm Mmm Mmm!

I haven't lost anything for 2 days now. I'm kind of bummed but hoping that this isn't going to be a long lasting plateau. I still need to take my body measurements, so I have something else to compare. I should have done that when I first started losing, but I didn't. I still have a lot to lose, so it isn't too late.

Happy Easter everyone!! Have a wonderful day!!

April 15, 2006

Hello!

I am a brand new Extrapounds member. I have included past blog entires from a previous blog site, just so I would have everything in one place.

I've been on my quest for weight loss this time, since the beginning of March. I am doing very well, following a low calorie diet. I wish I were exercising more than I am, but that has always been an issue with me. I'm hoping with time, I will be able to work on this issue and see further results and overall increased health.

As of this morning I have lost a total of 32 pounds. I am THRILLED! Last night I was hoping that I would finally reach the 30 pound mark. Not only did I reach that goal, I exceeded it!

I hope to have all my statistics posted very soon. I am trying to feel my way around here, and still have a lot to learn.

April 13, 2006

Maybe tomorrow morning will be the day that I get up and finally see that I have hit the 30 pound loss mark. I've been sitting at 29 pounds for a couple of days and am ready to see the scale move again. One can hope, right? I finally was able to buy 2 new pair of jeans. They are 2 sizes smaller than the ones that I had been wearing. I am so proud of myself, and am shocked that I have stuck with it this long.

Tomorrow is also the start of a 3 day weekend. Not only is it a 3 day weekend but it is also a holiday weekend. Easter is on Sunday. We are planning a very small, low key meal. Nothing fancy and no tables overflowing with food. We'll do turkey sandwiches and some potato salad. I am saving some of my calories for a glorious piece of peanut butter pie. YUM!!

I'm exhausted from work today. Those kids had me running all over the place. I am anticipating many more days like today before the end of the school year. This is the hardest time of the year.

I'm hoping I'll be able to get outside and get some sun this weekend. I'm trying to get myself ready for our trip to MN. It won't be long and it'll be time to leave. I can't wait. I'm actually looking forward to seeing people-and for people seeing me for the first time in a LONG LONG time.

April 9, 2006

7 hours. That is how long we were out shopping today at different places trying to find a pair of jeans. WHY because the calendar says it is spring, must the stores decide to put all the jeans away and pull out ONLY shorts and capris? HELLO!!

I'M SO FRUSTRATED!!!

April 8, 2006

 I am so happy. I went to the doctor yesterday and we have come up with a non surgical alternative for now. I don't have to have a hysterectomy!!! I never wanted this surgery and am so glad to be able to put it off for a while.

Another positive note, I have now lost a total of 28 pounds. I hope that this downward trend continues. I would love to be at least 50 pounds lighter when we go back to MN this summer. I have always been hesitant of family/friend functions because I was so uncomfortable with the way I look. Hopefully, I will be more comfortable in my own skin and will be able to enjoy myself for once.

I'm off to do some shopping today. I was actually frustrated while getting dressed yesterday. For the first time in my life I didn't have a single pair of pants to wear...because they were all TOO BIG!!

HAPPY WEEKEND!!

April 5, 2006

I've lost a total of 23 pounds now. I'm happy and proud. Still wish it would come of faster-like by tomorrow.  I'll still keep plugging away and hopefully continue losing. We are planning a trip to MN in June-so if I continue on this weight loss pattern, I will have lost quite a bit of weight by then. I'm excited!!

American Idol blew this week again. I'm tired of that show, but I know I'll keep watching. There isn't a single person left that I really really hope wins the title. They are all just Ok in my opinion.

I go back to the doctor on Friday. I'm still nervous but have just decided to take whatever information is thrown at me-and deal with it. I refuse to live my life scared at every moment that I'm horribly ill, and a lost cause. I plan on facing whatever comes with a positive attitude and moving forward.

So, that's that for now. Nothing exciting...but nothing horrible either. On a happy note-I cannot wait any longer-I HAVE to get new jeans/pants/shorts that FIT. Every pair I have is too big and constantly falling down. Yippee for that!!

April 1, 2006

The first thing I do each morning (after running to pee) is jump on the scale. For the past week the needle on the scale is hardly moving. I am getting SO frustrated. It seems that pounds were falling off at the beginning, and I was loving it. It all seemed almost too easy.  I have lost a total of 21 pounds since starting my "diet".  I am THRILLED with the results, but irritated that I have stalled.

I have a ton on my mind, and I made bad choices this week. I own that, I admit it freely, and I can't do anything but move forward. I get so frustrated with myself. I think about food ALL THE TIME. What kind of person does this? Why do I let it occupy my mind so much?

My mind is racing all the time with thoughts of my health as well. I have yet another Dr. appointment on Friday to determine what to do to treat the cancer that I may be developing. Pre cancerous cells. That's what she told me. PRE Cancer. Pre=Before. If I do nothing, this will be the time in my life that I refer to as "Before I had Cancer." I am terrified. More so than anyone knows, or am willing to let on in my "real life". I have had one month to decide what path of treatment I want to take. ONE MONTH! I still have no idea what to do. Maybe if I ignore it, it will all go away.

So, today is April Fool's Day. I guess the joke is on me.