hello again

^^ I hate that it makes you have a title lol.
But anyways... weighed myself today, 201.1! A little disappointing, I was hoping to be under 200, but that's okay. I think it's cause I haven't been to the gym lately. But, today me and the roomie too a 40 minute walk (with a few sprints in there haha but we are out of shape) so that was nice, and I am going to go to the gym tomorrow and Friday. I just wish I would lose faster! That's my problem, I'm too impatient and I get discouraged if the pounds don't keep coming off. But, losing weight takes a while... I just have to remember that. I want to give up because it seems like it isn't really working, BUT if I stick to it the little pounds will at up!! or so I tell myself haha.

quick update

Hmm, quick update.. I haven't weighed myself at all this week, so I have no idea how much I weigh, but I've been sticking to my diet almost 100%. Although, I just ate like 4 servings of peanuts hahaha... but they are only like 3 carbs a serving, so... plus I pretty much had nothing for dinner. I had a salad but took 2 bites and then pushed it aside. I'm getting tired of salads, oh no!! :( That sucks.
But yeah, I've been staying on track! And this weekend I went home and my family said they could tell that I lost a little, like in my stomach and stuff. Kinda hurts to hear how it used to look haha but now they said it doesnt stick out as much.. thanks? I guess? haha.

two more pounds down!

Just got back from the gym and I weighed 202.4 !!! How exciting! And my friend told me you are supposed to weigh yourself before exercising, whoops... I did it after, but still :) I lost two more pounds since I last checked! It's so nice to actually lose weight... it kind of keeps you going, knowing that you are actually doing something right and losing weight. Yay!
what i ate today (don't feel like using the food blog)
breakfast: nothing
lunch: hamburger, cheese (no bun though), mixed vegetables, water
dinner: ham, salad, water
snack: string cheese
:)

Been doing pretty well

Going to the gym tomorrow so I will get to weight myself :)
But today I ate pretty well. I had:

Breakfast : string cheese <3
Lunch: soy chips, apple, water
Dinner: grilled chicken, veggies, apple, water

that's it.. not so bad :) I really really hope that dinner with my friends didn't kill me! Because of the ravioli and the smores.. but I decided that ONE dessert all week wasn't bad. I mean, it's way hard at the dining hall, because every meal you can have cake or cookies or ice cream or whatever. Last year I used to eat all those things, but this year I am doing SO good. I think I had orange sherbert the very first day and nothing after that. I felt soooo guilty about the ravioli, but it was SO GOOD.. oh, and the Texas toast haha.. but I thought I deserved a carb filled meal after I did so well all week :) And so far, I've been doing great this week. We'll see tomorrow at the gym anyways!

I have a partner now!

My boyfriend came to visit me at college this weekend, and he is going to join me in my diet and exercise plan :) I'm excited! I'm really glad he's going to try with me.
THis weekend I actually did pretty good, considering I always mess up horribly on the weekends. Yesterday I had an omelette for breakfast/lunch and for dinner I went to Chili's, but I had a salad and salmon and veggies so it wasn't bad. This morning I had an omelette and some bacon and sausage for breakfast.. not real great, but oh well. No carbs anyways. For dinner I'm going over to my friend's apartment and we are making ravioli But I will just limit how much I eat. And, I'm bringing the salad, so :)

weighed myself

So I went to the gym today, and they finally have the new scale :) And guess how much I weigh! I weighed 204.7 . Score! I can't think of the last time I weighed that... it was definitly not in college, not senior year of high school either. But that is very encouraging, because I lost a little more. Last night me and the roomie went to the mall, and I had chinese food  but I am back on track today.

Breakfast: woke up at 12pm haha...
Lunch: cheesestick (I <3 them), orange, carrots, and some peanuts

For dinner I didn't eat it yet, but I got a salad from the grocery store (6 carbs wohoo) and a fruit bowl. And it's cool now too, because I am starting to not crave carbs so much. I mean, I still do, but at first I was like OMG BREAD! or pasta or whatever.. but it's not so bad now. And I find that I'm not so hungry anymore either. I don't feel like I've lost almost 10 pounds, although that's what it is.. but then again, it is that time of month lol and I am bloated... So maybe that's why. all I know is that even though high insulin levels is HORRIBLE, I am kind of glad that I heard that from my dr, because it has kicked me into gear. Hopefuly I will continue to lose :)

back to school

So, back to school! And so far I have been really good. I HAVE to be now. I went to the doctor and had blood work done and she told me that I had elevated insulin levels (which means I am more likely to get type 2 diabetes down the road, which my mom and grandpa have already) I really, really hate being overweight and unhealthy. it's so depressing and I want to live a long, healthy life and I already have all this crap wrong with me and I am only twenty. Before she told me that I was doign iffy on my diet, but now I am back on track. So far today I have had:

Breakfast: slept through it lol
Lunch: salad, ranch dressing, bottle water, apple

that's it so far. But I've been having that pretty much all week. I have done great this week so far though. She told me to stay away from white carbs and sugars, which I was trying to do earlier, but I am serious now. I can do this, if I actually make the effort, which I haven't ever really done. But I can.

Dunno if I've lost any, or how much I weigh. Last time I weighed myself I was 207, but I think I might have gained 2 or 3 pounds on my week off before school. But, I went to the gym once this week alreayd and am going tomorrow, and I've been walking all over campus so that is some exercise. And I think I have been eating pretty well. The scale at the gym is broken and they are waiting for a new one, but eventually I will weigh myself! Any tips would be appreciated for my diet :) i'm trying to go low carb, but I don't really know what to eat.. I've been sticking to fruits and vegetables, salads, and meat and chicken (no bun though). I had some fish last night too. Hopefully I can stay on track! now I have to, really.

same old same old

Went to the doctor's on Friday, and there I weighed 207. It probably went up a little because my diet/exercise plan has been pretty much non existant since I've been off work (I <3 sleeping until 1pm hahaha). But I plan on keeping this up at school, which is a week away, and the gym there is freeee and I have lots of free time lol. So hopefully I will continue to lose! But I could tell the difference when me and my friend went to Old Navy, it was so exciting. It's only been like 6 pounds but still! I could tell a little. How exciting. Now all I have to do is keep it off!

Lost a little!

Holy cow. So I went to the gym today after about a week of not going (I'm lazy) but I weighed myself and it said 209! I nearly died haha. Maybe because I'm drinking a lot of water..? either way it rocks.. although I ate pretty crappy this weekend, so it might go up a little. But I hardcore worked out at the gym today, I was soooo sweaty... pretty proud of myself :) My gym membership expires in four days though so I think I will put out some of my mom's exercise tapes. Fun times!

not doing so well..

Hmm.. so it's back to school soon, and I haven't really went anywhere with the whole diet/exercise thing. We've had this crazy heat wave this week so I haven't felt like doing ANYTHING, much less going to the gym (I know, I know, excuses) but I'm still trying to eat healthy. I'm debating on whether I want to cancel my dining hall membership... I eat SO much at school. Freshman year coming in I seriously only weighed around 205 and I got as high as 225 (ugh lol). Wisdom teeth helped bring me down a little, but I really, really need to lose weight and I am so terrified of the dining hall. Everything good for you there tastes like crap so I always go for the bad things (of course). But yeah...

If anyone has any advice on how to stay motivated, I would really appreciate it. That's my real problem.. it's like, I care, but I don't care you know? I give up too easily and I'm just not that into it. I really want to be but I can't seem to bring myself to be. I will be like YEAH DIET AND EXERCISE! the one day but then the next day I see a cupcake and I want it so I eat it. No willpower I suppose. I don't know how to change that either. I dunno...  but thanks for reading :)