Do a 1 Mile WATP workout. Drink at least 8 servings of water. Stay within range for food consumption. Stability disc fun (get review prepared!)
Random Thoughts
I’ve been doing great with eating – that’s always the first step for me. Once I can get a handle on that, I’m usually pretty good (at least for awhile). This year I decided to give up fast food for Lent. I don’t normally do anything for Lent, but for some reason I thought this might click. So far, it has…I even told myself I’d let myself have a sweet tea every now and then from McDonald’s (I loooove their sweet tea)…and have yet to even do that much.
It’s been really pretty outside today. Still can’t make myself go out to walk at the park across the street. Maybe tomorrow.
I need to remind myself as to why I started this in the first place…
I have a long list of things I want to change. I want to breathe better, be more fit and healthy, and be a better parent to my children. I’m tired of feeling out of place. I hate looking at my stomach. I hate seeing the person I’ve become and I want that to change. This isn’t me. I don’t want my kids to be embarrassed to introduce me to their friends when they’re older. Heck, I don’t want to feel on the spot when I meet new people because I feel like they can’t see past all the weight. I want to LIKE pictures I see of me. I want to run around with my children without feeling like I’m going to pass out.
Goals For Today
Do a 1 Mile WATP workout.
Drink at least 8 servings of water.
Stay within range for food consumption.
Try out my new stability disc (on clearance for $6 from Target!).
Random Thoughts
It’s been awhile and I’m excited about getting back up on the horse. I was so proud of myself last year and while I’ve managed to not get up into the 200s again, I’m way too close for comfort (196, anyone? lol). I’m not sure what I can do to keep myself motivated, because even after several months of hardcore gym-time and dance class (that I LOVED), I still managed to fall off the wagon. I’m going to start small and force myself to keep posting every day and hold myself accountable.
My name is Hilary and I’m a 34 year old mom to three awesome children. I have been a member of Extrapounds for a long time...I just deleted entries from 2005, so yeah. Considering I was able to get my actual name as my username should say something haha.
I was never a thin person. I always had a tummy, but I felt that I was fairly healthy and active. I ran track in junior high but couldn’t really keep up with activities like that as I got older due to my chest size. Running became painful, and honestly…you can’t really get good momentum going when you’re holding your arms crossed tight around your chest to keep from bouncing around. I had a breast reduction when I was 20 and have never once even come close to regretting it. It was far and away one of the best decisions I’ve ever made about my body. I was so heavy up top that after my reduction, I felt like I looked like I had lost 40 or 50 pounds. I was finally able to wear shirts that actually fit me instead of over-sized shirts that had short sleeves that hung past my elbows.
As I got older, I became deeply depressed and mix that with the births of my three children…and the weight just packed on. Being my height, it’s much harder to hide your weight and when you’re also not happy with your life or yourself, it doesn’t matter what you do…you just aren’t going to look great. I never realized how tightly the two are intertwined until I got a bit older.
In addition to suffering from depression, I also have high blood pressure, asthma, and anemia. It’s a super recipe for motivation, don’t you think? (Not really!)
The happier I am with my life, the easier it is for me to lose weight and feel motivated enough to care about myself. There is a lot more surrounding that that I’m hoping to dig into in this journal.
If you’re on a journey of your own, please feel free to leave a comment on the blog and let me know how you’re doing or how you’re traveling! :) Safety in numbers, I say!
I made a list of things I want to do (fitness-wise)…belly dancing, roller derby (already have my name picked out – Peaches n Creamed! hehe), and long distance running (I miss running so much).
Last year, I started taking a belly dancing class with Zaina Ali (who is awesome wrapped in awesome). I went for a few months and then summer and the aforementioned lack of funds got in the way. I’d really like to make a point of putting aside the money for classes again along with the gym.
The classes were amazing and I felt so alive and happy. The other women in the class were so friendly and open and I never felt anything but completely comfortable. It’s time to shake the dust from my wraps and get back into classes.
If you’re looking for something different to do that will honestly just make you FEEL beautiful, shimmy your way into a belly dancing class. I found two different ones online and emailed the instructors for both. Zaina was so engaging and friendly, even via email. As soon as I walked into the class, I felt comfortable and happy. If you aren’t comfortable, give another instructor a go – just like with any teacher, they all have their own styles and flair.
I haven’t been on the scale in a long time. Finally stepped on it today.
And of course, I’m just mad at myself all over again. Last year, I’d gotten down to 169. And my goodness was I ever proud of myself. And it just went downhill from there. I don’t know what changed, but just one skipped gym session was all it took. I’m now back up to 196.7. At least it’s not over 200 again. I’m angry at myself for letting it get like this again.
So, day one starts now. Step one: WATER. For the love of Pete, I adore water and for some reason lately I just haven’t been drinking enough. So, more water incoming. I also really need to get on a better sleep schedule.
I’ll do measurements tonight…going to make myself go walking talking. It’s a walk. I can walk. I can do this.
