Crazy summer days

So I think I did pretty good last week, did 4 bike rides and played softball on Friday. Got sick on Friday, was just tired and not hungry. Finally eat three meals today, although I'm still tired.

We took a hike around the marsh this morning, I carried my son for a better workout. Minus the mesquito swarms it was nice. Even saw a deer.

My dad is coming to visit this week, and the day he leaves my finace's mother and brother are arriving for a two week stay. So I don't know how well I'll do this month. I talked more with him about how he needs to support me with my weight lose, and for him to stop bringing me food.  He said he'll try. We shall see. It will be hard with guests here.

Also, I don't know how reliable this is, but I weighed myself on a scale at Wally world and it said I was 220 lbs. That means I have gained weight, that makes me so sad. I could have sworn I had lost weight or at least gained muscle, but burned fat. I didn't think I weighed that much. I need to lose it, I'm going crazy being this fat, I just want to stop eating. I feel so disgusting, no wonder my finace is not sexually interested in me, why would he be.

Sorry for the pity party.

I hope you all are having a good week.

I'd discount it

The weigh in on a different scale.  If you weigh under different circumstances (scale, time of day, clothing selections, etc) it can throw off the numbers.  So, I'd discount it.  Hang in there, keep up the good work.

Wow !

Your post is sad.

Fist of all i gained 7 lbs in one night from water.  =). Dont get so down cuz you saw a higher weight one day and dont have a scale at home to confirm a day or so later.

second, your self image is just yours , and its so sad to see someone so beautiful beat her self up. Your SO has an opinion and its great that he loves you, purposed to you, and all that , but if he is having sexual issues thats not all your fault and has nothing to do with your body.

8 years of marriage and mine cheating on me, made me see, if he didnt love me for who i was then he wouldnt ever love me for who I become.

Changes you make my dear are for you and you alone.

I am sad for you. Just because I know you personally.

We all love you, your beautiful, and you know you have a great support team both on EP and with your friends here in town. Use us to get where you wan tto be, thats what friends are for!!!!

xoxox.