Rain, Rain, Go Away
So I'm a little bummed, it is supposed to rain tomorrow, and I have the hike with Mountain Mammas. I so want to do it, if it's good weahter I will be there. But I will not spend three plus hours out in the rain with my son on my back. That would be just miserable.
So I'm using the food log, and been recording everything I eat, or at least as close as I can get it, for over two weeks. It has led me to a question, how many KCAL's should I be at? Is under 2000 good? or should I shot for lower? I'm trying to be more active, but that also means I'm about twice as hungry. Of course I don't do as much as some of the women here do, but I am increasing what I do as I can. I hate being hungry. I have never dieted before and I'm finding it every bit as tough as everyone said it would be.
I just want to be thinner, back to my old weight when I was in college and could bike for 20 miles, and hike 2 or 3 14neers in one weekend. I want to hike for 8 straight hours, and do it again the next day. I want to play basketball, and kick the boys butt again. I want to be able to climb a 5.6 rated climb. I use to be able to do all these things, and eat whatever I wanted. Then I had a breakdown, gained 80 lbs and lost all my pyhsical strenth and stamina. It's been almost four years and I'm tired of it. I can't keep going like this. I hike, but it's so pathetic. I want more! I just wish I could eat more and still lose weight.
Ok, enough complaining and rambling. I'm sorry for all the "I wants" This is just so hard for me, when I keep looking back at where I was, it seems like such a long journey to get back there.
I hope you all are having a great start to your week.