The Morning Of..

Last night, after eating a dinner of Mcdonalds, I signed up on extrapounds.  I'm thinking, why not?  Whats one more effort in an ever failing endeavor.  The last 25 times that I have tried and failed to lose weight play through my mind.  I don't want to do this, I don't want to fail again.  I don't want to gain even more weight.  I woke up this morning and think to myself, here I go again.  Another week of doing good, then getting frusterated and quiting.  How many times am I going to do this?  I took a picture of myself, pasted it in my diary, stared at it and said "why do I hate me?"