My Weightloss Journey

Improving My Life Inside and Out

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  • Name: As I Am
  • City: ONEderland 4good
  • State: TX
  • Country: US

My Weight Loss

Height:
Start weight: 216.00lb
Current weight: 211.00lb
Goal weight: 160.00lb
Lost to date: 5.00lb
Remaining: 51.00lb

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We Stink.

Hello ladies! Hope you all are having a fantabulous weekend! Mine is pretty quiet.

My dog (Duece, a 5lb yorkie) and I just came back from a mile wog at the track. And now we're sitting here resting, I smell something not so fresh. My guess is the dog, definately not me, LMAO!

Yes, you read that right **I** went wogging OUTSIDE on a track. I jogged a lap, walked a lap for an entire mile. Trust me I wanted to quit after lap 6 but I didn't. Duece didn't make it any better by getting tired and just laying out when I was trying to walk. After lap 4, I just let him go rest in the car. He was heeding my process and I was too tired to have anything distract me, I would have just left. But I didn't! I made it the whole. I can tell that my body is out of shape from the past 3-4 weeks I have skipped working out. But I'm back on it! So, no worries. Lesson learned today: Don't take a toy breed dog to exercise with you, he's not meant for that purpose, lol.

As far as eating, I'm on plan too! I had Special K cereal and orange juice for breakfast. Applesauce and a Special K bar for snack and have had 2.5 glasses of water. Next is lunch. I'll probably have a Smart one and some corn.

I'm feeling really good! This new start has given me a better outlook on life and myself. I'm out of that funk I was in this break. I'm over worrying about what people think about me and if they like me or not and who is my friend. It's MY year, to hell with those that aren't there for me. I've been studying my bible every night, I'm reading the book of Job and if anybody went through some hardships, it was him and he NEVER doubted God. Such a good story for what I'm going through. So I'm loving the me I'm becoming :)

For the rest of the day I think I'm going to deep clean my bedroom, bathroom and finish washing clothes. School starts Wednesday so I just want to start this semester off right. I think Duece maybe in for a bath today too.

I haven't seen my bf in 2 weeks and with him being in the academy and me starting school, who knows the next time we'll see each other. I know I'm frustrated and he's making it seem like it's nothing, which further pisses me off but oh well!

Here's something I think is helpful and eye opening to all of us who are counting calories and points

 Today's Quote:
Stressed spelled backwards is desserts.  Coincidence?  I think not!  ~Author Unknown

The List

 

Hello ladies! Hope everyone's good, if not remember the weekend is tomorrow!!

My mom and I were talking on the phone yesterday and she was talking about this book she had read while she's away on a business trip and she said the girl had found a list she made that had things she wants to do before she turns 30, well she was 29 and had a year to complete it all and the book just followed her while she got the list done.

Well, this prompted me to make "the list." Things I want to have done by the time I'm 30. I've been thinking about it and it's not easy as I thought. And I have til my 21st birthday to have 30 things on the list BUT I still have 9 years to COMPLETE them,lol.

My List:

  • Be in a career I love
  • Be making atleast 75k. With hard work I can get it!
  • Vacation in Cabos San Lucus
  • Take a cruise to Brazil
  • Party in Vegas
  • Get a passport
  • Be married or atleast in a very committed relationship
  • Treat my mom & grandmother to something very nice and special
  • Do a charity marathon run
  • Be in the maintaining stage of weightloss journey
  • Be investing my money
  • Own a luxury car
  • Go to a spa

13 down 18 to go.

On weight news: Today was another on point day. I just have to get in another 8oz of water before milk product and fruit. So I will have a glass of water, pudding and an apple before bed. For dinner I had the leftovers of yesterday's dinner and it was yummy but I hated not knowing the exact points of it. I only ate 1/2 of the 3/4's that was left. I just gestimated it was 10 points (the rest I had for the day) and ate it. I will have my snack using some of the 33 extra points I have for the week.

****EDIT****
I looked on the gym calendar and they open for regular hours Sunday!!! I'm so excited about that. I will be running on the track, OUTSIDE tomorrow *gasp* then I will be on back in the gym Sun. So I will have 4 work out days before my weigh in Tuesday evening. Woo! I'm pumped.

****END EDIT****

Tomorrow I have to go to the grocery store and pick up bananas, apples, oranges and pears for fruit. This 5 fruits and veggies a day is ALOT and it's costly. Can someone tell me if it's 5 fruits AND 5 veggies a day or just 5 or either. I also got to get some frozen veggies to try in the ziploc steamer bags. I can't eat them plain does anyone have any ideas for light dressing or sauce I can put over the veggies?

I haven't bought ONE clothing item since being on Christmas vacation. I don't plan to until Iget to my 10% weight loss goal, which is 21 pounds. So yea, I better lose it fast cause I love to shop! But not for fat clothes so I'll just wait til I can do it and enjoy it.

Ok, I'm actually tired. I'm gonna lay out on my couch. Thank God I can sleep in tomorrow!

Today's Quote:
If you hang your swimsuit
On the refrigerator door,
The goodies inside
Will be easier to ignore
.
~The Quote Garden

 

Will Power

Hello ladies! Hope everyone is well.

Today was an alright day for me. It was going great-point and eating wise until I found out the event my job had was NOT near any resturaunt and they ordered lunch...And it was Papa John's pizza. Eek! Which is 7 points of pizza. The old me would have said forget because I was pretty hungry and would have ate 2 or 3 pieces. Nope, not the new me! I only had 1 piece and enjoyed a banana and a bottle of water. I was full and saved myself going over my points for the day. The ladies that were eating with me were going on and on about how they love pizza and stuff. I knew if I sat there conversating I'd be tempted and probably without thinking pick up another piece of pizza. So I told them "I'm going to get up and go back to work so I don't eat another piece of pizza" One girl say "You got some will power, go girl!" I smiled and took that as a compliment. Although I debated eating nothing for the rest of the day to have 2 pieces, and I had resist the craving to go back and get another piece, I'm PROUD I didn't! I ate 1 and only 1 piece of pizza. Yay me!

Today I'm struggling with my fruits and veggies. I've only had 3 and I need to more. I may eat another orange before bed with my last bottle of water...Want to know something funny? It says you have to have 5 glasses of 8 ounces of water..I've been trying to drink 5 bottles of 20 oz water. No wonder I feel bloated,lol. So 5 glasses of 8oz is 40oz which is only 2 bottle of water for me...I think I'll still keep up with my 3 a day.

I was doing fine until dinner came. My mentor/co-worker whom I adore called and asked me to pick her up from the airport since I was in the area. I got to leave work an hour early, so I did. She wanted to treat me to dinner for thanks. I was hungry and  I LOVE spending time with her so I said yes. We have the greatest conversation ever and she's so cool! I found out she's expecting her first baby so I'm uber excited for her! Anyways back to the eating...We went to Pappa's Seafood and I got grilled shrimp lenguine. The bowl was HUGE!! It easily had 3 or 4 servings in it. I got a to-go bowl and put 3/4 of it in there and ate 1/4 of the bowl. I looked EVERYWHERE online to find the calorie count on it so I can figure my points but I couldn't :( To be safe I just used the rest of my points for today on it which is 7 points. I hope it wasn't more. But it was full of veggies and grilled shirmp(which is only 2 points for a cup of grilled shrimp). I'm praying this won't affect the scale on Tuesday.

Tomorrow is a new day and I'm done with today's eating. So day 2 down! My mom told me to take it day by day and that's exactly what I'm going to do.

I found out that the place I have to work tomorrow DOES have a microwave, so I WILL be taking my lunch tomorrow so I will not have to eat pizza or any other non-healthy food they bring. I will not always avoid other foods but for the beginning stage I have to. Once I get more comfortable with the program I will venture out more. Today was enough venture for me this week,lol.

Still no exercise. I think I'm just going to start Monday when I'm off and the gym is open. Then I will be going 5 days a week, I'm sooo ready to be back in the gym. I now remember why I started back going to the gym. I also bought some roller blades on clearance at Tareget for my "fun" exercise day. I'm pumped but I have to find somewhere to skate because it's really hilly here. There is no concrete track so I gotta get creative.

Alright, I'm gonna take a shower and make it an early bed night. Sleep effects weight loss too. And I have a week worth of tiredness to catch up on...Maybe I'll lay on the couch and watch a movie.

Today's Quote:
"Never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."

Day One-Complete

 

Hello ladies!! Thanks for all of your support on my last post. I calmed down and wrote out my menu for what I "owe" like Glory said and just followed it. I chose to do breakfast,snack,lunch,snack,dinner. My co-worker was like DAMN GIRL, SEEMS LIKE YOU BEEN EATING ALL DAY. I felt like that too. I had a snack at 11, lunch at 1:30, and another snack at 3:30. Before work I had breakfast at 8:45ish and then had dinner at about 8:30 when I got home. That's a little late but I stopped by to see my friend and her new baby who is precious!

But I am proud to say that I made my points today! I even had to take 1 from my extra 35 for the week. It wasn't too bad. I think i'll just make a list of the foods I commonly eat with their points value so I don't have to figure it out every time I make a menu or eat it. 

I tweaked my menu for the day. It went as follows:
B-Banana, scrambled egg with cheese, wheat toast,water
S-Orange, sugar free pudding, and raisins,water
L-Smart One Fajita, 1 cup of garden salad and a tbsp on dressing,Crystal Light
S-3 peppermint candies, apple, low fat yogurt, mini delights,water
D-Grilled chicken salad and 2 tbsp of dressing, caffefine free diet soda

Points total for the day= 31.

Not shabby for my first day! I got in all my oils(added it to my salad and eggs) got in my dairy with the cheese in the salad and eggs, got in all my fruits and veggies with my snacks and salad. IDoes anyone know if it's 5 fruits AND 5 veggies, or 5 total? I have one more bottle of water to drink and I will have my water in for the day too.

Only bummer about today, I didn't get any exercise today :(

The hardest thing about this new lifestyle is cravings! That is the single most hardest thing working against me! It's not like I naturally crave for bad foods but if someone has it and I see or, or I see a sign for a fast food place or even someone mention a food I crave it. It almost feels like an addiction...I guess it sort of is. I need those encouragment cards BAD! I need something to help me get over these cravings. Blah.

Tomorrow's menu:
B: 1/2 Honey wheat bagel and 1 tbsp of jelly and orange 4 oz of milk= 5points
S: Special K bar, apple, water= 3 points
L: Wendy's chilli & baked potato(with cheese)= 10 points***
S: Pudding, raisins, raw baby carrots, water=5 points
D: Grilled chicken breat, green beans, corn=6 points
Total= 29 points.

**The reason I'm having that high lunch is because I have work function to go to where there is no microwave for a smart one so I have to eat out nd only a Wendy's is close. And I need something filling. Those were the lowest point items on the menu. That's a lot of points, I know but I still come in at 30 and have "paid all my bills."

I am only posting this all out until I get used to it. When I get used to it I will stop posting it here and just keep it in my written journal and point tracker I keep.

And I see a few people were uncomfortable in the meetings, I'm going to go to atleast 1 more meeting to see how it goes being "un-new" and if I still don't feel comfortable then I'll try online. With school starting I know I won't make some meetings so online maybe the way to go for me, we'll see.

Another thing that I did that is helpful, on every box of food I have it has it's point value on the box so I can just track it without looking in the book to find it. It has helped menu planning and tracking. I'm gonna be great at this, just you wait!!

Ok, time to get ready for work tomorrow. ONLY TWO MORE DAYS!!! Then it's back to my regular life of going to school and working part time. Oh how I've missed it. This full time work is for the birds, although I love the checks, lmao.

Today's Quote:
If food is your best friend, it's also your worst enemy.  ~Edward "Grandpa" Jones

It Has Began.

Hello ladies!

So I'm here to report that I did go to the WW meeting today. It was just as I expected full of older (40 ) women. I and another new girl were the only 35 and under in there. So to say I felt out of place is the LEAST! But they made me feel welcome and they seemed nice. Just hard to relate. But the leader showed us a before and after picture and she's definately lost a lot of weight. I am going to continue to go but it's just hard not having someone relate to my struggles (Not being home enough to cook meals, working and going to school,etc..) These are all housewife, retiree's or just working women.

The meeting information was very good and all the new materials I got are very helpful! I got all the guides and found out that my alotted points per day is 30. Yea, I'm trying to plan a menu and it's hard trying to find foods to fill up these 30 points! *sigh*

I'm going to be honest, I'm confused with all the adding and subtracting to find out how much points everything that's not in the guide is. It's tough for me to plan a menu. I think I'm just going to plan a regular menu and then just find point value to it, then either add or subtract.

GLORY & PRECIOUS PLEASE HELP ME!!! Or anyone else that has done Weight Watchers.

All of the menu's call for cooking meals with meats and fresh veggies, something I do not have readily available! I need some menu's with practical foods that I can prepare easily.  It's also hard for me to figure out the points for normal foods, like a bowl of spaghetti, or a grilled chicken breast. That's what is confusing me the most. If anyone has any websites that would help with this, I'd GREATLY appreciate it. I really want this to work but I know I can easily get frustrated and fall back into my poor ways of eating, I DO NOT want this to happen.

But other than those frustrations, I'm GLAD I joined because when I got on that scale I wanted to cry. I've gained 6lbs since the last time I weighed in! I knew I was going to have a gain but I didnt expect 6lbs!!!! But that's my own fault...I haven't exercised since the gym has been closed, I have been eating candy and snacks [I.E: the break room sagas] I haven't been monitoring my calorie intake, I've had ONE too many Sourdough Jacks and Dunkin Donuts. It's inevitable. But today starts a new! No more of this eating crap stuff. I have my menu planned for tomorrow but I'm NOWHERE near my points for the day. *sigh*

Tomorrow's Menu:
Breakfast: Banana, 1 scrambled egg w/ .5 cup of cheese and piece of wheat toast. 7 points
Snack: Orange, sugar free pudding, 1/2 cup of raisins & water. 5
Lunch: WW Smart one, cup of salad and fat free italian dressing, Crystal light. 4 points
Snack: Apple, pack of mini delights, water. 3 points
Dinner: Grilled chicken breast, green beans, raw carrots and diet soda. 4 points
Snack: Peanut butter & wheat toast. 4 points

See that's only 27points, I need 3 more points.

I just need some easy to whip up meal ideas. I know I can't go wrong with the Smart Ones so I may eat more of those :)

 

 

Ok. That's that. Tomorrow I will start working out. I'm thinking I'll do 30 minutes of rollerblading or do my work out tape..Although I hate it, I have to make sacrifices for what I want.

 

Pour in those suggestions girls!

Quote for the day:
"Unless you try to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." ~Ronald E. Osborn

Tomorrow's The Day.

Hello ladies! Thanks for the encouragement on the last post.

I was going to try to write a plan for my success with WW tonight so that I will be all set to go tomorrow but then I realized that doesn't make any sense because I want to go to the meeting, see what they have to say and THEN make a plan. I'm going to do a monthly goal plan and then break it down week by week so that when I weigh in I can say well I didn't lose because I didn't follow my plan or if I follow my plan and I don't lose like I should I can evaluate what I've been doing and tweak it so it will work. Sound good?

But I do have some self goals for myself. Some people don't believe in timelines to reach goals and that's fine, but I think I need one. I know if I have no boundaries or no time clock working against me I won't be pressed to lose it and work at it EVERYDAY.

Weight goals:

The ultimate goal: Lose 50lbs. Time to lose: 25 weeks.

Mini goal[s]: Lose 2lbs per week. 25 weeks.

Meaning I want to lose 2lbs a week equaling 10lbs down every 5 weeks. And 10lbs every 5 weeks equals 25 weeks. That seems doable to me.

25 weeks from tomorrow is: July 21sish

Which means by my 21st birthday I WILL BE AT GOAL! Lord willing. So I will give myself some lee-way and just want goal by my 21st birthday which is August 10th.

Exercise Goal:

Ultimate goal: Be able to run 2 miles without stopping in less than 30 minutes. My friend in the army has to do that for their PT test so I want to make that my "PT Test" so to speak.

Mini goals: Run .5 a mile without stopping, then go up to .75 of a mile without stopping, then a mile, then 1.25 mile, then 1.5 mile, then 1.75 mile, then 2 miles.

Also an exercise goal is to be able to run OUTSIDE, I'm so chicken I always run on the inside track in the gym or the treadmill. My goal is to be able to run a mile outside and 2 on the treadmill without stopping.

Body Goals:

Ultimate goal: Have my bf look at my body and say i look anything BUT 200lbs! Other than that...

Be in a single digit clothing size. 8-9. Be able to wear a bathing suit comfortably. Feel good in "sexy" type clothes.

Mini goal: Take week pictures of progress. May not post them here unless I become brave but to have them for inspiration.

Eating goals:

Ultimate goal: Be able to make and know healthy food choices in any situation and DO THEM! Not know them and still choose the unhealthy alternative.

Mini goals: Alternate an unhealthy choice for a healthy choice in EVERY meal, EVERY day until it's no longer a task but a habit and everything on my plate is healthy. Make sure I am eating the right types of food to promote weight loss.

Health goals:

Ultimate goal: To weigh in and not be considered obese or overweight. To become by "healthy" body weight. To have my asthma and blood pressure under control.

Mini goals: Go to the doctor and get checked out. Be in tune to my body and know when something is wrong or is it just out of wack because of poor choices.

Mental goals:

Ultimate goal: BE HAPPY IN MY OWN SKIN!

Mini goals: Encourage myself daily. When reaching a mini goal reward myself. Eliminate the negative aspects of my life. Make sure I'm doing something to promote my weightloss at all times! Know when I'm makiing a bad decision and correct it!

And that's my plan of attack for the next 25 weeks! What do you gals think? I'm more than happy for suggestions!

Today I ate very healthy. I had a banana, special K bar and OJ for breakfast. For lunch I had a turkey sandwinch, orange, sugar free pudding and diet soda. For dinner I had baked pork chop, corn, mashed potatoes and 2 rolls. Could have done without the roll but WAY better than what I have been eating. AND I GOT IN ALL MY WATER FOR THE DAY!

I'm really nervous about going to this meeting tomorrow. I go to school in a very rural town. I just invision this meeting being full of older women that I can't relate to. I sure hope not! If so, I hope they are atleast empowering. My friend had recommended WW to me and she lost quite a bit of weight! Even recommended this site to me (although she's not a member but heard of it) and she definately didn't stir me wrong coming here, so I'm hoping the same for WW! Wish me luck girls.

 

 

P.S- DiscoeryHealth is doing a National Body Challenge for this new year. And it's FREE! And with the free registration you get a free 8 week gym membership to Bally Fitness Center much more! So if you have a Bally near you and want to get in a gym, DO IT!!! I love Bally, I think they have awesome programs. So please check it out! And if you do it, let me know please!

I'm signing up now, so I'll keep you all updated on that front too.

Tracy you can put this on your freebie blog too!

The website is: http://health.discovery.com/national-body-challenge/national-body-challenge.html 

Sorry, I don't know how to do the spiffy little links with names on EP. But just click that.

 

 

I'm so pumped about what lies ahead of me!! :)

I'll be back tomorrow with my WW and Body Challenge update.

Not A Fan.

 

So today at work, I picked up the much talked about, Skinny Bitch book. I was going to buy it but after scanning/reading a few pages I decided not to. I don't know how many of you have read the book, or even heard of it but it's crazy. It's not that the vulgar language and the constant calling of us non-followers "pussies" offended me but I didn't like the message they were giving.

Don't read the following if you want to read the book and haven't:

 But I didn't like how they basically were saying if you don't eat organic than you're wrong and that's why you're unhealthy. I didn't like how they used to "scare" tactic to get people to eat organic foods. I mean it's ok to say organic is best and base your diet book on those foods and give the reasons why to eat organic but WHY go into major detail about how non-organic food is processed. I didn't like how they used the scare tactics about eating meat because of the situations on the "farms" it's ok to mention it by why is 1/3 of the book about that? I mean, it's ok to educate your reader but it made me feel like to be "skinny" you have to eat organic and be vegan. I think it's kind of misleading with the title...You think you're going to read a witty book about how to get in shape but it's totally NOT that...Or atleast that's how I thought. That's just the jist. There's more but if you want to experience it you can pick it up at your local bookstore/Target.

With that said, I'm not against orgnaic foods, I think they are healthy and would eat them if I had the money but limited budget means limited amount of choice. That's another problem I have with the book, they go on to bash people that don't eat organic saying how the spend mass amounts of money on jewelry, clothes,etc...but won't spend it on organic food, which is true but there are some that just can't afford it. And if meat and non organic veggies and fruits are so bad why hasn't the USDA and FDA done something about it or atleast warned Americans?

Ok, I'm done on this topic, I could ramble for hours,lol.

Today was a HORRIBLE day with eating. Today I had 1.5 donuts and 11 donut holes AND a McSkillet breakfast burrito from McDonalds for breakfast...I couldn't decide which I wanted so I got both, WTF is that about?! That's just plain glutony. I don't know what's with me and these cravings and these eating habits but I've got to get it under control! I can't start WW if my eating habits are horrible, it will make it THAT much harder to stick to plan.

I felt so bad for eating so horrible for breakfast I skipped lunch. Just had a bottle of water and it was a lunch with ALL my co-workers. I played it off by telling an funny story about an employee and it took the time up.

Then for dinner I had a [nother] craving for chinses. So I have general tso's chicken, boubon chicken and chow mein. WEIGH too much but it was really good. I guess my mind is telling me to eat all of this because on Tuesday it's back to reality. Sad thing is my body is rejecting the bad food. I have tummy aches, face breaking out, etc...it sucks but it's over!

Got in an argument with the bf and he's not coming...I'm REALLY-REALLY mad but what can I do? He didn't do things my way so I got mad, said things I probably shouldn't have but felt I had to then we didn't talk for the rest of the day. The bff backed out of coming (she lives 3 hours away) so now I'm here in my apt all alone like I have been for the last 3 weeks. I think that's what is causing the emotional eating and just depressed moods for me. Ugh! I'll be glad when school starts so I can atleast have reading and class work and mtgs to bury myself into. This crap is for the birds....

Ok, I'm off to fall asleep to a movie, have a good weekend ladies!

I probably won't be back until Tuesday evening with an update from the meeting. Pray for me girls, I definately NEED it!!

Today's quote:
Never give up on the future because the present is tough.
-Yours truly, As I Am [guess I'm speaking to myself here ;)]

 

 

The Date Is Set....

So there's no turning back! It's only down [in size] I go!

I have set the date to start WW..I start Tuesday at 6pm. I know I have to go 30 minutes early to register. I'm so happy because they are doing the free registration and free first meeting, so it will cost me NOTHING the first day, that's what I'm talkin bout. My mom is even encouraging me. Since I've been going through hell lately, she has been there for me. Holding my hand and encouraging me. I KNOW things will get better. I have to keep praying and holding strong to what I know is right.

Please wish me luck and pray that I have success on this program. I really-really hope this is it for me. I'm not looking for a miracle, I'm looking for a program that will help me.

Today I had to go to a recruiting event for work. It was in the heart of downtown, took me AN HOUR AND 30 MINUTES to get there! Ugh. I'm such a bad driver-as Tatum's mom and I talked about yesterday,lol. The day flew by and I had a nice time. They served a great lunch! It was healthy, that is rare to have an event with healthy food. I had veggie lasagna, steamed veggies, a salad (with ranch tho) corn, and some kind of wheat bread thing. It was all really good...and healthy! Nevermind the small piece of chocolate chip cheesecake I ate for desert.

I don't know what's up with my skin but my face is breaking out horribly. My neck is cracking and peeling skin. It's gross. It has been doing that atleast once every month and half, and I have NO clue why. As for the face breakouts...I don't think it's my makeup I've been wearing MAC for about 2 years and it never breaks me out. I may need to increase my water intake. Any other suggestions?

Ok, I'm off to find me something [healthy] to eat for dinner. You ladies have a wonderful weekend...My bf is coming tomorrow, I'm cited!! I miss him. My bff might be coming to she'll call me later and let me know. She may be bringing her bf, we need to find some couples stuff to do tomorrow.

If any of you like Victoria's Secret, they are having their semi annual right now...I didn't find much in my local VS but I got lots of smell good and lotions and make up. They had the very sexy eyeshadows for like 4 bucks...gotta love it!

Ok, I'm outta here.

Today's Quote:

Don't go out of your weigh to please anyone but yourself.  ~Author Unknown

 

Most High

"like the angel in the sky"- one of my favortie songs.

Hello ladies! Happy new year! Hope this new year brings new beginnings and new triumphs and greater joy! I sure am praying that it's the case for me.

My new years eve was spent at church. It was just a praise and worship service, so it was nice. My co-worker came and I could tell she really enjoyed it so I'm glad. Although  I know going to church was the "right" place to be I couldn't help but beat myself up that I had no friends to call and "go out" with. I only went to church as a last resort, sad I know. Everyone always tells me how 'responsible and mature I am' but for one time in my life I want to feel like a normal 20 year old...Partying and just having a grand ol time and just living it up. I have the rest of my life to be old and mature...*sigh* That's my biggest downer right now but I can't get into it. I'm dealing with it on my own, so there I'll keep it.

Moving on...

Today marks a new year and just when I was thinking about the turn of this new leaf I saw the Jenny Craig commercial with Valerie B. and what she said touched me and that has been one of my goals for 2008. She said, "I am happy that this is the first year I don't have to wake up and worry about my weight...This can be you next year." Even though I'm not going to do Jenny, that will be me! January 1st 2009 I do not want to have to make ANY goals about losing weight, only to maintain the current. I do not want to have to set exercising goals, I want it to be a routine by then. In 2009 I just want to maintain. With everything in me, it will be done! Or I will try like hell to make it.

For this to happen I will have to set mini goals and make sure I'm doing something every day to ensure that this happens!

Such as:
Start and stick to WW
Make encouragement cards to curb cravings
Go to the doctor to ensure there are no health issues heading my weight loss process
Stay true to myself and watch for triggers that will tempt me to emotionally eat
Make and keep myself accountable for exercising
Keep up with victory calendar AND make sure 90% of each month included exercise.
PLAN,PLAN & PLAN!

 

I do not want this to be a chore. I want it to be something I want to do. I know I want to lose weight but what it takes to get there can be a chore. So I want to find alternative exercises that are fun..I.E-Roller blading, intramural volleyball, spinning class(just waiting for my gym to get it), and swimming (although this will only be when it's time to wash my hair cause chlorine relaxed hair=no bueno!)

Eating is by far my most tallest hurdle. I am dealing with a lot right now emotionally so it is definately responsible for my emotional eating. I have had Jack and the Box 3 times in the past 2 weeks. I haven't had that in MONTHS! WTF is wrong me? Never mind all the Christmas candies, snacks,etc.. at work. My plan for work to be a good thing for me backfired...So now being AWAY from work will be better for me because I know at my house there are no unhealthy, sugary sweets to give into and I choose what I put into my mouth not what others are eating to "fit in." I have the rest of the week plus next to work then I am back to full time college student and part time worker, yeeeeeeees! Although the checks are nice, I'm over the commute, gas prices and lack of life.

My best friend and bf are coming into town this weekend, so I know I will not be exercising. So my eating will have to be extra healthy and then the following week I will be able to do my work out tapes at home, ONLY 5 more days then I can go back to the gym, I've never been so happy to go to the gym,lol.

 P.S- I didn't really go to Georgia, I just put that song as my title cause I was going out of town,lol. You guys crack me up.

Today's quote:
Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the
difficult may become easy.
- Bill Blackma

Leavin On A Midnight train to Georgia....

Hello ladies!!

I was jus stopping by to wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I'm going out of town to spend it with my family. We're going to bring in the new year at church...The way 2007 is ending I KNOW that's where I need to be. Partying afterwards? Hey...who knows?! lol.

But I made great attempts at weight loss this year but 2008 is gonna be GREAT! I've decided to do WW so that with my desire to lose it is going to make me reach my goals! Each and everyone us will have success next year, I just know it ;)

If you're partying do party to hard and DONT DRINK AND DRIVE!

Happy new year, I'll talk to you girls next year ;)

Ciao bellas.

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