Hey gals, sorry I've been away for a little while. So much is going on in my life I can't keep up with everything.
I went to the doctor yesterday and talked about everything with him. He was nice and actually didn't rush me. As to my weightloss he said there's nothing about my diet I could change. I'm eating enough veggies and fruits, I don't drink sodas or juices, etc...He prescribed me Adipex to help curb my apetite since I told him how I always feel hunger pangs and I always feel the need to snack. I'm not sure if I'm going to fill the script or not. I really want to do this weightloss on my own but like he said if you have a natural slow metabolism then there's nothing "I" can do "own my own" to fix that...What do you gals think? Should I try it or not?
Onto worse news...BF and I have officially broken up. There is no chance of us ever getting back together. He came down here yesterday to give me my v-day gift...I was expecting ANYTHING but what did I get?? A FUCKIN CHEESECAKE! Argh! He knows I'm watching my weight, he's knows that I don't eat that stuff anymore...He has the lame excuse but it's your favorite. Ugh! I was so fuckin mad I couldn't see straight. My mom was/is here and asked him why he made me that too. Ugh. Then his phone was beeping and he was sleep so I pick up...lets just say I didn't like what I found and there was more incriminating messages. Some that are just so hurtful I feel like I was stabbed. I've had trust issues with him before and I gave him another chance and he ruined it. We got in a BIG argument and it was awful. Never again will I give wholeheartedly and take my guard down. I've been having feelings something wasn't right and it was confirmed....I will never ignore my woman' intution again, it has YET to fail me.
*sigh*
Yes, I'm hurt. But I'm more mad than anything. I'm mad my mom had witneess that crap. It was really awful..think about loud ghetto arguments, that was us and that is SOOOO below me. But when you're hurt sometimes you stoop to that level before you have a chance to stop yourself.
Please pray for me. I'm dealing with a lot OTHER than the EX-bf stuff...God I'm being tested...but I am faithful, I am diligent and I am a fighter...I will make it. I will be BETTER because of this. Maybe I'm dealing with this for a reason. Maybe I needed to be single to endure what I'm about to go through(big news...I know yall are tired ot hearing about) Lord, I need him more now than ever.
Due to all of this going on I have not tracked my points, although I've been eating correct portion and ate my veggies but I haven't been doing like I'm supposed. When I went to the doc I was still at 205 and holding so I haven't do that much damage. I think I've been eating less actually....I'll get back on track soon, promise! I didn't come this far to fall off now. I will probably be running my little heart out at the gym tonight too.
Ok, yall have heard me rant enough. I'm going to go lay down.
Hello ladies! Happy hump day! 3 down, 2 to go! This weekend and the following will be crazy busy for me...Such is the story of my life huh?!
Well, last night's work out had to be altered. The girl that was giving the butt & gut class decided not to show up but didn't have a cancellation on the door OR tell the front desk, ugh! My neighbor/WW friend went too but when there was no class I made her finish working out, I wasn't gonna skip my workout. So I did 20 minutes on the elliptical, 15 minutes on the treadmill running for 5 minutes then wogging on incline for 10 minutes. That got me all nice and sweaty. After than we did abs. We did about 250 I was going crazy in there. When we left neighbor's mom called her and she told her that I killed her in there, LMAO! I told her before we started I'm a maniac in the gym. She told her mom she'd be skinny in no time working out with me...I took it as a compliment. She texted me this afternoon and said she did the workout we did again today, WOO! I really hope this helps her WI Tuesday.
Ok, it's official! I'm a maniac in the gym. *que I'm a maniac song* I wasn't going to go to the gym at first, I got home from a program late THEN I felt blah due to the craptacular food I ate today, then my mom was on the phone saying it's too late (it was like 10pm) and I told myself "GET UP AND GO! People that really want to lose weight worked out today, people that have lost a lot of weight went to the gym even when they didn't want to. So I better get up and move it..." and I DID! How about that NSV?! Tonight in the gym I did 45 minutes of cardio. I was extra hard on myself today because I had 4 chicken nuggests from McDonalds for lunch (granted it was only 4.5 points) but it was fried, no bueno. Then at my meeting today they had free pizza, of course I didn't turn it down..I had not ONE but TWO pieces of pizza. Lets just say ick, cause that's how I felt. Oh well, it's not my normal eating so it'll be ok. So today in the gym I did 30 minutes on the Cybex on level 5 and burned 460 calories! My legs and arms feel it too. Then I did 10 minutes on the treadmill, running 6 of those 10 minutes (I did 1/2 a mile continuous, then walked the rest) burning 100 calories. Then I ended with 5 minutes on the bike burning 40 calores. Totalling 600 calories burned in 45 minutes! My best yet! Then I did about 150 abs, most with the medicine ball on the incline bench. I'm a beast in the gym!! Lol.
I also read on my Women's Health magazine that it's better to weight train before cardio if you plan to do both in the same workout. When you do cardio after lifting weight it helps the blood flow throw your muscles and loosen them up. When I get to my 20% goal I will start my weight training. That means in 10 more pounds I will start weight training 2 times a week.
There's a lot of good stuff I read in there, you gals should pick it up or read it while you stand in line at the grocery store.
Tomorrow's Valentine's day and bf and I are still kinda on the outs...So I don't think I'll be doing anything special...I'm trying to act like I don't care but I do, it's my fav. holiday. Bummer. He said he couldn't get the night off so he wants to come out here Friday and bring me my gift and spend the night with me...But my mom is supposed to be coming to pick up my puppy (he has to stay with her for a while...it has to do with the big news I can't reveal) so how much QT are we really gonna get with my mom here. She's an attention whore, if I'm not entertaining or spending time with her, she'll get pissy and I don't wanna deal with that. We'll see how this plays out...
Quick question...Who gets those gov't rebate checks and who doesnt? I know you have to make over $3000 annually owe little to no taxes which includes me...Does anyone know if being a student exempts me?
Ok, that's all I got for the night gals. Have a great Valentine's Day with your sweeties! Don't eat anything you'll regret!
Today's Quote:
"Movement is a medicine for creating change in a person's physical, emotional, and mental states." -Carol Welch
Hello ladies. Hope you all are having a wonderful day. My day has been great!
Well, today was my WI. And I am proud to say I REACHED MY MINI GOAL FOR THE WEEK!!! I lost 3lbs like I wanted to! Actually I lost 3.8lbs to be exact! OMG, talk about a victory! I said when I had my gain last week that I would lose 3lbs to get me to my goal and I did. So now I've lost 10.8lbs total! Which equals about 2lbs a week. Only 10.4lbs til I reach my 20% goal and 5.6lbs til ONEderland! Even though I had that big 8lb loss at the beginning. It seems as if my body is on a trend. Every other week is a loss. So I gain,lose,gain,lose..I really don't want to keep that up but hey as long as I lose enough to counteract the gain so be it. This journey will just take longer than I expected.
I'm just so pumped right now. I set a goal and I made it! Do you know how good that feels to me? Really damn good. I prayed my way through this week. And I want to say I serve a good God and he walked me through this week. Even last night when I was at Main Event with my friends for her bday party I made great decisions. I didn't buy any of the fried food that they had. I just nibbled when I felt fatigued. For that I am going to reward myself...With what, I don't know yet.
I got a nice shock today..I went on the front page of EP for the last few days and I'm on the list for most active blogs. I guess I'm popular like Angela, Shelly and Precious now,LMAO! I'm part of the club now, lol. J/K. I just thought that was funny.
BF and I are....we just are right now. I'm not letting this disagreement go til he understands and sees my point of view. And then he tells me yesterday he doesn't have anything planned for vday because he has to work and he said he took Saturday off so we could do something but I have engagements on Saturday that I can NOT miss, so that's not gonna work. So that's all I'll say I won't let that ruin my good mood right now.
Ok, I'm gonna go do some homework so I can get to the gym by 8. My neighbor that goes to WW with me wants to go to the butt and gut class at the gym today. So I'm willing to give it a try. It's only 15 minutes, so I'll still do my other 30 minutes of cardio. I'll be back with a report tomorrow.
Have a good night.
Today's Quote:
Goals are dreams with deadlines. Diana Scharf Hunt
Hello ladies, hope you all had a good start of the week. Mine was busy-busy! I had classes all day, then I had to get some paperwork done in the lab, then I had to go run and pay some bills, grabbed a quick lunch, then had to watch the baby for a while, and ran some errands with the roomate. Now it's 7pm and I'm finally getting a rest. But I have to go to my friend's birthday shin dig at 7:30 so there goes the rest of my night. I have no time to get a workout in. That frustrates me because I would have went this morning if I had remembered it was today. I totally forgot. So I can't get one this evening and it's the day before WI! Ugh, I hope it doesn't effect the scales.
I tried to put on some non stretch 14 jeans that I bought about a month ago, and guess what? THEY FIT! Yup, I could get them on and buttoned. Now they were tight and made my butt look flat but I'm happy I got them on. I'm headed in the right direction. Then I was talking to my mentor from work and she said I'm damn near killing myself at the gym and eating well, the weight is still not coming off as it should (she's done personal training and etc..) so she's going to build me a workout, YAY! I'm excited about that. I worked out with her some this summer and she was pretty crucial..yall know I'm a workout fanatic so I loved it! I'm excited to see what it is.
I also finally scheduled a doctor's appt. Yes, be proud, because I've been putting this off since the summer. It's a general practitioner so I'm going to talk to him about everything. My ankle that goes out everytime I run, the pigment fading on my back, the rashes, my blood pressure, diabetes testing,the weight issue, EVERYTHING! I hope he's ready because I'm not going anywhere until I get all my questions answered. I'm on a quest to be health in all area's of my life.
I found out today that at church they are having a weightloss program with a faith based trainer. I'm sad because I just found out today, so I can't make it. Nevermind the church it's at is 50 minutes away. I'd love to go though. Maybe I'll just check out her website.
Ok, gotta go change and get ready, have a good evening all.
Today's Quote: “Victory is won not in miles but in inches. Win a little now, hold your ground, and later, win a little more.”- Louis L'Amour
Hello ladies. Hope you all had a good weekend. I did not. BF didn't get here until after 10pm, which already had me in a pissy mood. Once he got here we just layed around playing on the internet. We're TMZ nuts. Then we went to bed. I was also pissed because I didn't even get dinner, I had to get my own damn Chili's because he took to long. Although the Guiltless Chicken sandwinch was yummy, Chili's pissed me off. They didn't give me my steamed veggies, instead gave me rice, UUUUGH! Just wasn't my day yesterday. Then today BF and I were bickering all afternoon. I was still pissy from the day before and so he just left. Instead of talking to me about, which further pissed me off. But he texted me for the next 2 hours. I'm getting tired of this go round...*sigh*
Well, I went looking for a suit for my event Saturday, again! I have the one from Friday but they prefer us to wear skirt suits so I had to find one. I got two but whichever I don’t wear I’m taking back. I’m sure I could use them but I could use the money more right now. The one I think I’m going to wear is pretty gray and black stripe, I’ll take a picture when I wear it.
I did in fact make it to the gym. I did 30 minutes of interval training on the treadmill. I ran 4 minutes and walked 4 minutes, increasing the walk and run speed everytime, burning a total of 300 caloires. Then I did 5 minutes on the stairstepper on level 7 burning 60 caloires and OMG, my legs are now burning because of it. Then I ended on 10 minutes on the bike, increasing my speed from 5 to 7 mph burning another 60 calories. Bring my workout total to 45 minutes of cardio burning 420 calories. After that I did intensive ab workout. I used weights this time (be proud Alicia!) and the medicine balls, so they feel pretty tight too. Very good workout for me tonight J
My appetite was back to normal today. Not out of control hungry which I like but I did have breakfast, lunch and dinner. BF boiled sausages for lunch, not the healthiest but I was too lazy to cook anything healthy.
Tomorrow starts the weekly grind. WI is Tuesday and I’m feeling pretty confident about it. The scale at the gym still down 3lbs so I’m hoping my WW scale is down 3lbs too. Pray for me.
Ok, I’m going to bed so I can get 8 full hours of sleep tonight. I’m excited about that actually.
Today's Quote: Movement is a medicine for creating change in a person's physical, emotional, and mental states. ~Carol Welch
Hello ladies! Hope you all are having a fabulous weekend. Mine has been quiet. I just took Duece (my puppy for those who don't know) to the groomer, he stunk real bad! Then I got my car detailed, it really needed it too. BF is not here yet, should be soon though. We kinda got in a tiff over the phone so he has some makin up to do when he gets here ;)
My eating has been the same as yesterday. Really no appetite at all. It's almost 7pm and I'm not hungry and I had breakfast around 11. Then I had a string cheese and water for a snack. I'm going to try to make myself eat, I might wait til bf gets here and make him take me to Chili's. I love their Guiltless Grill.
I did make it to the gym today. It was a light cardio day. I did 30 minutes of cardio, 10 minutes on the bike, cybex and treadmill (I ran 6 out of the 10 minutes!!! woop) I didn't burn a lot of calories but it felt good to be moving. Then I did 220 ab exercises. Not a bad day at the gym. I really wanted to run at the track outside but they were having some football game or something, so I couldn't do that. If it's pretty tomorrow, I'll probably do that.
I couldn't resist stepping on the scale at the gym since I hadn't been in 2 days and it was down 3lbs since the last time I stepped on it. I don't know how official it is because it always reads different than the WW scale. But I have been feeling like I'm losing. Especially with my pants being real lose yesterday and how my workout clothes fit today. And I stay in the mirror so I notice little changes. I sure hope it keeps up!
Ok, I'm gonna hop in the shower and do my hair before BF gets here. Have a good weekend-end.
Ok, I've tried to write a blog twice and both times my computer just keeps randomly deleting what I write. Ugh!! It's annoying. Wanna know what else is annoying? Ashy-ness. I hate being ashy. And my hands are ashy and dry because I just finished washing dishes...There ya go for some randomness!
Ok, so today was busy-busy. I had class this morning then I had to run to the mall to find a suit for an event I have to go to next weekend. I got a 3 piece suit at Dillards for $44!!! I couldn't believe it! They also had winter coats on sale for 75% off! I couldn't resist, I ended up getting 4 coats. I know, I know...I live in Texas but for the prices I couldn't believe it! And if I end up not wanting them, I can always sell them on Ebay. I got a black, brown, creme, & black and white checkered coat for $140! That's steal, each coat was no more than $35. I might take the one back but I can always use them post graudation when I have a career and have to dress up. What do you guys think?
My eating today has been...weird. I haven't really been hungry all day. I got up (ON TIME) this morning, even after partying and staying up past 2am. I fixed myself a Smart One English muffin w/ham and cheese sandwinch and banana. Well, I only could finish 1/2 the sandwinch and the banana. Then I didn't even feel hungry through out all my classes. That's unusual, because I usually eat about 2 snacks in that time. Then I got home and tried to fix something quick because I had errands to run and only ate 1/2 of that. Then ran my errands and never once was hungry and had to make myself eat some raisins and drink some water. Then for dinner I just cooked a Smart One and that was fine. That's all I've really had to eat today. I hope this keeps up. Maybe it's my stomach shrinking. I hate feeling like I have to eat all the time.
I really could kick my own self. I had the opportunity to go to the gym after I got back from running my errands but I just couldn't muster up enough strength to get off the bed and go. So that makes it 2 days in a row I haven't worked out. No bueno. But I will be going tomorrow, Sunday and Monday. That seems to be my routine as of late. But working out as hard as I do 4 days a week is not bad. I am pretty happy with that.
Tomorrow I will go volunteer at the SAAFE House again then I will hit the gym RIGHT after. I'm packing my bag and taking it with me so I don't even have to come home. Then bf should be here. We have no plans but I'm going to talk him into some. I don't want to sit around here.
Ok, I'm gonna lay on the couch with Duece. Have a good weekend everyone.
Today's Quote: “Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.”-Gandhi
Hello laides! Hope you all had a wonderful day. Mine was ok, I had an allergy attack. My eyes started watering, my throat is and ears were itching, face had these little bumps. I don't know what it was from but it was awful. After laying down with a wet rag it calmed down although my nose is still running. Blah!
So, I went on the National Body Challenge website and according to them, I need to lose 56 more lbs to be at a healthy weight. I knew I needed to lose about 50 lbs but it's so discouraging to see that BIG number in front of me. It's like OMG, I'm struggling getting these first 10lbs off, how the hell am I going to get 40 more pounds off?! I know I am doing a good thing by doing WW and exercising so it will just have to be slow and steady.
If my school keeps having free food activities, I'm going to have to stop coming, j/k! Everyday this week they've had free food. Today was hot wings and soul food cook off. I don't eat everyone's cooking so I just ate the catered hot wings and a wheat roll. 6.5 points I wasn't expecting but am working around. All I have left is dinner and I can just have my 3 points Smart Ones. I went to the gym yesterday and I couldn't help it, it's like I'm a fiend, I stepped on the scale :( It was a good reading so I won't beat myself up but I will try not to do it so much.
I don't think I'll make it to the gym today because I have to finish studying for my espanol test tomorrow then there's a party (yea, this is becoming a weekly thing) but again I'm not drinking AND this will be my last one. Due to my news I talked about yesterday I can't go to anymore so I better enjoy this one! LOL.
Ok, I'm off to study. Have a good weekend ladies!!
Today's Quote: Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win.- Bernadette Devlin
Hello ladies!! Hope you all had a wonderful hump day. My week is not going to let up and doesn't look like it's going to for a while. I got some great news today. Although I know none of you would share it because you don't really know me IRL, I don't know who's reading this, so I can't share it with you all yet but I will once it comes to fruition!! Just know it's great and exciting non-weight related news! Something I've wanted for a long time is now at my finger tips. Heidi you might know what I'm talking about ;)
Anywho back to regularly scheduled blogging.
Today was off plan eating but I am not gonna beat myself up about. I logged the points, I'm within reason and it's ok to have "off" days. I'm not going to be perfect, I'm going to have perfect days everyday, but like Alicia talked about it's about what I do most of the time that matters. I had 3 too many cookies and 1 too many pieces of brownie but oh well. I don't eat like that everyday or even once every week so it's ok.
I did make it to the gym. Did 30 minutes on the Cybex machine burning an all time high of 370 calories (per the machine) then doing 10 minutes on the stair master (HOLY SMOKES! I've never done it before but I will be now, it's a great calorie burner and butt toner, LOVE IT!) burning 105 calories. Then I ended with 5 minutes on the bike burning 30 calories. Totalling 505 caloriees burned for 50 minutes. That's a new record for me!! Woo! Another NSV for me. Tomorrow is supposed to be 2 a day with the neighbor but we'll see if I make it, I have studying to do for my espanol class, blah!
Good news for the day is BF IS COMING THIS WEEKEND! Woo. Pumped about that. Haven't seen him in 2 weeks, it's well overdue. I miss him.
Today an organization I'm in volunteered at the SAAFE House and it was such a sad thing to see. This paticular house was small so they were like basically on top of each other and it's just horrible to see. The are there because someone is abusing them and then they have have live with OTHER people for safety. It just makes me feel even more blessed for what I have and what my mom could provide for me growing up. God is good and he's able so I just prayed for those women in children in there. Tonight send up an extra prayer for those less fortunate than yourself.
Ok, gotta go study now.
Today's Quote:
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.” -Gail Devers
Hello ladies, hope you all had a wonderful day. And hope all of you that had the opportunity went out and voted!! Sorry I couldn't think of a better title.
Well, as you know my WI was today. And it was what I expected, a gain. 1.2lbs to be exact. For that I am not mad. I thought the damage was way worse. My leader was sweet and supportive as ever. She said it could be because I lost so much weight in the beginning. I have a total loss of 7lbs this past month I've been on WW. And I also have to take into consideration that TOM is/was here this past week. Then my Superbowl splurge eating on Sunday. I am taking responsibility for the past week but I'm also letting it go. I am not stopping, I'm not giving up and I know I will meet goal. This journey is not for the weak or quitters. I am neither of those so I will continue on.
I may have gained weight this week but I have also gained other things. I have gained an understanding of how the body reacts to certain foods and exercises. I have gained an understanding about how weight flucuates and changes daily. I have gained a love for WW and what it's teaching me. I have gained an appreciation for Smart Ones ;) ANd most importantly I've gained an appreciation for all of you ladies for coming here and encouraging me day after day, it is one of the reasons I'm still on this journey. On any other previous weight loss attempt I would have quit at this point. I would come up with tons of reasons that this isn't working and my body is failing me and stop. But now I know, I'm more knowledgable. So onward and downward is the only way for me to go!
I was sitting at the light thinking about the last time I attempted to lose weight. This past summer. I just did 50-60 minutes of cardio and ate small meals and snacks. Simply cutting calories and exercising. BUT the big difference is I didn't weigh in the whole time I did it. For 2 months I just worked out and ate less without ever stepping on the scale. So I had to measure my success in other ways. I know being on WW won't allow me to do that but I now know the scale is a vice. I will NOT weigh in at the gym. I will only step on the scale once a week at WW and at WW only!
I have also went back to menu planning. Giving myself to much rope to hang myself with freeballin my meals daily. A menu will make sure I'm on track and eating right. I also have to stay away from those damn 100 calorie snacks. I'm eating atleast 2 a day with my snacks at school. But if I cut them out I don't know WHAT to replace them with. I also need to find some filling breakfast foods that's low in points. The problem I'm having is feeling so damn hungry in the afternoon. I get pains and it's just not a good feeling. I have exercising under control, if I get this eating I will be well on my way. Suggestions are welcome!
Today was my off day at the gym. I will resume tomorrow morning at 7:30am. Tomorrow starts my 2 a day training. I will do it Monday's and Wednesday's. Please pray I can get up! And my neighbor that goes to WW says she will be calling me to go work out in the morning. She said she will call and call til I pick up. JUST WHAT I NEEDED! I'm really happy she is doing that. What an extra push. I hate telling people no so I will crawl my tired butt out of the bed. She started incorporating exercise in with WW and loss 2lbs this week, she was so happy. I'm glad she is doing this. I'm glad she's there with me. It's so nice to have someone to relate to there with me. Although the meetings are PACKED with "resolutioners."
So I'm fine, I really am. I'm not mad, sad or angry with today's WI. It just pushes me to work and try harder this week. I want to lose 3lbs (I know, I know) so I can get to my 10lb loss mark. 7 work outs and planned eating will get me there, I know it.
Menu for tomorrow:
B- Weight control oatmeal(I hate it but I'm willing to scarf it down) and banana
S-Wheat thins & apple
L-Grilled chicken salad
S- Sugar free pudding & v8
D-Smart one & steamed veggies
I have to work on the feeling between satisfied and when I'm actually still hungry after eating. I also need to get rid of this sweet tooth. I hate TOM takes it with him, although I've had it for a while. And I've been chewing gum all day and it's not really helping, ugh!
Ok, I've written enough. I'm off to shower and sleep.
Today's Quote:
Live the life you love, love the life you live.
