Seriouslly, I can't keep sabotaging myself...This past weekend we had a regional confrence in Baton Rouge for my sorority and lets just say I ate very awful!! I barely got in any fruits and veggies, if any. Very little water. I ate whatever I wanted and paid no attention to calorie/points, I overstuffed myself and felt gross more than once. IDK why I can not get back on plan! I feel like I'm sabotaging all my hard work and it's like I'm doing it subconsciencely. Ugh. I'm scared to WI tomorrow because I know I've gained. If I'm out of ONEderland, i'll be crushed but I know it's nobody's doing but my own.
*le sigh*
I know I wrote my plan of action 2 weeks ago, and have yet to follow through with it, but starting today, I am. I can not ruin what I've worked so hard for. So I know I don't have time to work out 5 times a week, so for now I'll have a target of 3 days and if time permits, I'll go more days. I'm not too far off, I went to the gym twice last week. It felt REALLY good to be in there. I ran for 10 minutes, it felt like I had never stopped. I have noticed that it's easier to run now too. It's a great feeling. Speaking of running, my university is having a Tri-It triathalon in May...It includes a 10 mile bike ride, a 2 mile run and 300m swimming. I want to Tri-It but I don't have a bike so I can't do the bike trail, or else I would and I can't swim so I'm not gonna kill myself,lol. I wish I could just do the running part. Training for it would be my motivation to get back on my exercise routine :) I'll call and see if I can just do the running part, I hope so! lol.
On another note, I'm going grocery shopping as soon as I'm done with class today. My grocery list is already written out, all I have to do is go buy it. THEN eat it,lol. No more fast food, no more resturaunts until I can control myself again. I really feel out of control right now. Blah!
Other than my disastrous eating this weekend, I had fun. We partied, of course. We went to Bourbon street in New Orleans Saturday night and had fun! We went to this revolving club on like the 31st floor and it was amazing. I had this drink called the Hand Grenade, WOW is all I can say about it,lol.
So I will report back mid week and let you know how my new plan of action is going...and with me being like this I can't stop WW's now. I need that accountability and structure...until I'm back on track, fully.
Ok, totally lost track of time, i g2g to class, bye!!
Hello ladies!! Hope you all had a great week. I'm tired, I've been tired, don't see that changing until the semester is over but it's all good.
About my title...I think it's time for a change in the way I'm losing weight. I'm not sure about it, I may try it and it be the wrong move but I don't know what else to do to get me back on track. It's been 2 weeks since I've said I'm getting back on track and I haven't. Time really isn't on my side and that's what it takes to be dedicated to WW. Also, money isn't really on my side and the $40 a month is kinda pricey. Especially since I haven't had time to go to meetings and I feel like I'm wasting that money. So those 2 thoughts have led me to want to cut the WW plan for right now.
The sad thing is other than those two points alone I have no other reasons for wanting to leave. I've lost 23lbs in 2 months on the plan. I've learned to love vegetables and how to eat healthy in any situation I'm in. I've learned to prefer healthier foods. I've given up soda, fried food and fast foods. In essence I've been succesful. So I know people are like "Why are you leaving?!" IDK sometimes but lately I've just been feeling like the price, the time is not something I have a lot of right now. I could still do the plan on my own, I just wouldn't have their scale to weigh in on everyweek. That's the only thing that I really like about the meetings. I'm just scared since I won't have that accountablilty meeting every week I may slack and start to gain back. Which scares the SHIT out of me!!
What is a girl to do?!
Since I have paid for the month of April, I will continue WW through this month but I believe I'm going to cancel my monthly pass and if I feel the need to go I'll just pay the $13 weekly fee. I mean there are plenty of people here on EP that have started with WW and quit and are still successful in losing weight. Before I quit at the end of the month I have to have a METICULOUS plan of how I'm going to continue to lose weight. As soon as I have that plan I'll post it here and see what you gals think.
Ok, I'm starving, so I'm gonna grab something to eat before class. Have a great weekend everyone!
Hello ladies! Hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I went with my roomie and some friends out of town for a girls weekend and it was awesome!! I had lots of fun.
This weekend out has brought me to some realizations. Well, this weekend and well..life in general.
I don't know how to explain this but I'm going to try my best.
I don't know if I'm the only one but since losing weight, is it hard to imagine yourself as not fat or as fat as you used to be? Do you still have some old tendencies or habits that won't die? Well, I do and it's crazy!! My sorority sisters always have to get onto me about it. You'd think my self confidence would shoot the roof and I'd be flaunting my smaller self around but it's like I'm still in my "fat shell." I still go to the store and try on size 16-14 clothes when I'm clearly not that size anymore. I always look for the x-large shirts when I can fit a large easily. I guess it makes me feel go they don't fit anymore?! IDK but it's crazy. It feels so crazy that I can go in the same stores as my friends and BUY CLOTHES THAT FIT!! I went crazy this weekend. I can shop in Forever 21, Charlotte Russe and the like now...I've NEVER been able to do that. I'd have to go to dept. stores because they had the bigger sizes. Now that I can shop at these stores I feel so weird. It's a good weird of course but I could definately get used to this and hopefully I'll keep getting smaller :)
Also it's also hard for me to except all these compliments and guys complimenting me. I'm used to being teased or the girl that's just "the friend" or hearing things like "She'd be so hot if she just lost a little weight." Now I hear stuff like "such and such thinks you're hot" and I'm like "who? Me" Yea, people think I'm being funny but I'm not. This is all so new to me.
And I love putting on clothes now..It's like "OH WOW THIS LOOKS GOOD ON ME!" Or "oh I can wear this and not look bad in it" The best thing I'm loving is my back is flat, I can wear baby tee's and not have any rolls showing. It's great, LMAO! I love this feeling and it is just validating why I will not gain this weight back.
And with all that said I need to quit using the excuse my life is so busy and start tracking these points and meal planning. I know I posted that I would start but my school work is piling on me like no other. I just found out that I have 2 10 page papers due by the end of the semester. I have a test on Friday and a text book report due Thursday. *sigh* Then I have my sorority regionals this weekend, a concert on Wednesday...So do you see what I mean when I say my life is not my own and I really have no time?! I'm not eating a lot but I'm not eating ENOUGH...Enough food in general, enough veggies and fruits or water. But today starts a new week so that is going to change. I will also be in the gym today, yay! I'm actually excited about getting back into the gym...
This picture right here gave me the "ah-ha" moment.
My double chin is gone, my face looks smaller and so does my arm. I can really tell I'm losing weight...It really makes me feel like my hard work is payin off.
Oh yea, there are some new prospects (guys) in my life..Although I don't know when I'd have time to date, it's still exciting. And I saw my ex this weekend...But that's another entry.
Hello ladies! Hope you all are having a great weekend!! Mine has been great so far. Partied with the sorors and frat last night, didn't end up getting home until 6am, YIKES! But my work is never finished, so I'm back up and about to start my day. Crazy thing...I wouldn't have it ANY other way! Just call me crazy, lol.
But about that title...I've been being real lax about what I eat and HOW much I eat. I can NOT get comfortable and think I can eat whatever the hell I want to. Because what's going to happen is my weight is going to creep back up and that is DEFINITELY not going to happen. It's just that I never have enough time in the day, so I end up eating something quick for lunch and usually not even having time for dinner. This is not good and I know the weight will begin to creep back up if I continue on this path. It's really scary because I love that I've met my 10% weightloss goal and back in ONDERLAND. So I have to get it together and I need something/someone that I know will hold me accountable.
So here's my plan of action:
Meal plan on Sunday, grocery shop for it AND stick to it.
Exercise, Exercise and MORE exercise.
Quit making excuses
Make my weightloss a priority [again]
Plan for days where I will not be able to cook or make my healthy meals
Pass up foods that are unhealthy, it's just simply not worth it.
I think that's a good start. Do yall? Am I missing anything? You know I'm always open to suggestions.
I'm not doing horribly right now. Like I still eat breakfast that includes fruit but I don't eat snacks and I usually eat heavy not so healthy lunches and miss dinner. So in my head I'm like "Ok, this one big meal is just the points I would have used for snacks and a small dinner." That's definitely not the way think and the scales will show that Tuesday.
So, this plan is for me to start being PROactive before I get so far deep that I have become REactive. It's much easier to be proactive than reactive. Right?
So today is the last day of eating on a whim and menu planning and eating right starts tomorrow! That's my story and I'm sticking to it!
Hello ladies! Hope your week started off well. Mine just got a whole lot better!
Well, I won't keep you ladies waiting. I told yall I would start back WW today and I kept my word! So I went to the meeting today...Not knowing what to expect since I've been gone about 5 weeks. Well the results are in and....
I'M DOWN....
12lbs!!!!
Yup, you read that right. I lost 12lbs in the 5 weeks I've been gone. How? Well, I just stuck to the WW plan I had been doing before. I just modified it and was a little bit more strict since I knew I wouldn't be able to go to the meetings and track my points. Oh and nevermind a few days I didn't have time to eat. BUT I didn't starve myself or throw my food up, so I'm very proud of my loss.
And the 12lb loss means....I AM NOW MEMBER OF ONDERLAND!!! I am 193.6lbs! I almost cried when I saw her write that number on my card. This also means I've met my 10% goal as well! So now I can start working on my overall goal which is to get to 160lbs. That's 33 more pounds to go. Which looks alot more promising than the 56lbs when I started.
I am so very happy I could cry. I thought I'd never make it back to onderland, but I have!! I also never thought I'd be a member of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority Inc., but I am!! God is so good! He is so faithful and he answers prayers! Nothing can bring me down right now!
Now that I've gotten that out I gotta get back to homework. Blah.
Quote: Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan, in which we must fervently believe, and upon which we must vigorously act. There is no other route to success.-Stephen A. Brennan
Hello ladies!! Thanks for all your support and congrats, it feels really good. It is a big accomplishment it was hard work so I am proud of myself as well.
Well, like I said I didn't let me weight loss efforts go to waste while I was away. I am in between a 14 and a 12..My 14's are extra baggy but 12's are a tad too tight for my liking. I am comfortable in large shirts. NO EXTRA IN FRONT OF IT!! That feels really great, I love it. My rings are loose and so are my shoes. I love this feeling. I'm not gonna let my weight creep back up to ruin this great feeling.
Well, I've been away for WW for about a month and I miss it. Tomorrow I will go to my first meeting in a little over a month. If I'm still in the 200's, that's fine because my clothes tell a different story. Today started my healthy eating and 5 fruits and veggies. I kinda messed up by having cold stone cheesecake icecream and I took a free piece of pizza they had on the yard today. BUT I had my special K bar for breakfast with a banana. Then I ate wheat spaghetti with turkey meat for lunch. I will be going to the gym today too. I think I'm getting a cold, so I will take it easy. Probably 20 minutes on the bike and 20 minutes on the elliptical.
So have I missed anything significant in you guy's life? If so, update me PLEASE!!
Here are a few pictures from my probate (coming out show):
I'm in the green sweater
That's me again in the green sweater
Me with my sorority sisters...I'm on the far left.
I will put up more pictures where you can see the weight I've lose once I upload them.
Hello ladies!!!! I hope you all are doing well and still staying true to your weightloss efforts. I've missed you ladies so very much!! I hope yall missed me too.
Now that I'm back, lets just say I'm back a new woman...A woman of:
Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority Inc.
Spring 2008
#13
And I didn't fall of my weightloss efforts. I am now a size 12, large shirts, and my shoes fit lose now. I don't know how much weight I've lost but I will find out Tuesday and report.
That is all...So sorry for being MIA but again I'm officially back,
I miss you guys soo so soooo much!!! I have been reading when I get the chance but definately not enough time to comment. But I see you all are still on the weightloss train and doing well. I never thought I'd grow to love and care about you gals so much. You are definately missed.
My life is so crazy busy. Every hour of my life is occupied, LITERALLY...all 24 hours,lol. So finding time to watch my points, exercise and all that jazz is definately out of the window. I will be back to normal soon enough. Keep praying for me. I will weigh in when all this dies down and keep goin from there.
And I am SOOOO glad I let go of bf...I keep finding out more stuff about his lying ass. Thank God for getting me out of that situation when he did. I know that was his divine plan for me to find out at that exact day. My heart is calm and I am fine with it. So onward and downward I go!
I really miss you gals! I hate it that I can't come on here and keep up with you like I normally do. But oh well, I guess somethings take precedent.
I am doing fine. I have been so crazy busy that I've had no time to even think about ex-bf. He texted me last night asking me how everything was going...I deleted his numbers out of my phone so I replied "Who's this?" I guess he got offended and didn't text back, OH WELL! It's to late to give a damn, I'm over him and all his damn drama. I'm soo glad I did, that weight is off my shoulders and I can live my live my life. I mean I wonder about him sometimes when I my mind wonders but that's about it. I'm doing good. God is good!!
On the eating front....Haven't tracked my points for about a week...I just don't have time to...But when you are hardly eating, there's hardly anything to track, LMAO! Still only drinking water. So I don't think I'm doing too bad. I just don't have time, so WW may have to take the backburner for a little while. I know I can be successful, so I'm ok with putting it on the backburner.
I'm feeling kinda of light headed. I haven't ate a whole meal in a couple of days so I'm gonna go do something about that. Lol.
If I dont' comment please know I am thinking about and missing ALL of you!! Please don't ditch me if I don't come around as often.
I barely got in any fruits and veggies, if any. Very little water. I ate whatever I wanted and paid no attention to calorie/points, I overstuffed myself and felt gross more than once. IDK why I can not get back on plan! I feel like I'm sabotaging all my hard work and it's like I'm doing it subconsciencely. Ugh. I'm scared to WI tomorrow because I know I've gained. If I'm out of ONEderland, i'll be crushed but I know it's nobody's doing but my own.
We partied, of course. We went to Bourbon street in New Orleans Saturday night and had fun! We went to this revolving club on like the 31st floor and it was amazing. I had this drink called the Hand Grenade, WOW is all I can say about it,lol.
