Ok, there's lots running through my head, so this may get lengthy, BEWARE!
Despite being lazy and skipping the gym yesterday I got my lazy butt up this afternoon and went. I'm proud to say that I rugged [That's MY new word for run/jogged, lol!!] A WHOLE MILE WITHOUT STOPPING!! It took about 9 minutes, woot! After that I put in 30 more minutes of cardio on the elliptical, bike and the Xtrainer thing. Then I got in about 160 abs, so I had a really good work out. My legs feel heavy as brick and arms are tight. So I'm happy with my workout.
I weigh myself at the gym on the electronic scale and the scale says I'M DOWN 4lbs!!!! I was so shocked, I got on and off 3 times to make sure it wasn't messed up,lol. But it said the same number everytime!! I worked out more determined than ever. I SEE RESULTS! That's all I needed, to see my efforts weren't in vein. 10 more pounds til my first goal is met, which is entering ONEderland.
This morning I had 2 waffles and 2 pieces of sausage, which was only about 400cal. Not too bad for breakfast. Then I had lunch after the gym which was Campbells select soup for about 240 cal and 100% fruit juice...Have to get my Crystal Light when I go grocery shopping tomorrow. I think my roomate is cooking shrimp tonight for dinner. Fried though :( I don't wanna spend any more money eating out so I may just suck it up at eat it..Just watch my portions.
I've been so good with my water intake this week, I'm proud of myself. This past week was my first real week exercising and eating on a routine/plan. I know the 4lb is part water weight but I'll take it. If I can get an even 2lb a week I'm happy.
Funny story- Today I was at the gym on the elliptical and there was a big guy working on the machine next to me that was sweating perfusely and he smelled AWFUL!! I mean his whole body was drenched in sweat and he didn't smell like must, he smelled like shit. *gag* I could only do 10 minutes on the machine and switch because my nose was burning and I was scared my stomach might turn. Ew! Some people do not have gym etiquette.
I started the Victory Calendar idea today, since it's the first. And I'm proud I can put a smiley for the first day! Hopefully the second day too!
I need to buy an armband for my iPOD so I can wear it while I'm doing abs and weight training. The gym's selection of music is kinda blah. My music is better!
Tonight, after I finish working on some of the many projects I have due for finals coming up I'm going to make up my menu and update my shopping list for tomorrow. Monday's dinner I don't have to worry about because I'm going out of town with my job. I am a campus liasion for a major retailer (I'm an on campus assistant to the campus recruiter) so I do a lot traveling. I LOVE MY JOB!! Tuesday we have a WOW event for potential candidates so they're putting me up in a hotel Monday night and we have to take the candidates out to dinner Monday night so that's a free meal..The resturaunt will be really nice, so I'm sure I can find some good healthy food to eat. Tuesday they'll have breakfast and lunch provided at the event, so that's taken care of too. I just hope they have more than donuts for breakfast, ugh! Hopefully some fruit and bagels.
P.S.-Thanks for all the food recommendations!! I think I'll try the eggs for breakfast this week. Oatmeal-I can't do. I have a big thing about weird textures in my mouth and oatmeal is one them..Anything textured like that really-oatmeal, grits, cream of wheat,etc...No can do. Ew.
Ok this is long. Hope you ladies are having a great weekend!
Today's Quote:
By Eleanor Roosevelt You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Sooo yesterday was a bust eating wise. Thursdays are party days on our campus. I don't party EVERY Thursday but when I do-I party hard. Oops. So yesterday started early, ended late and I was busy all in between. I ate "ok." Definately not great but I made do with what I had. But when it was time to party, is probably where I killed myself. I had a redbull and vodka (110 cal JUST for the redbull) then I had another 2 shots of vodka. But that's FAR LESS than my usual or what I've been known to drink. I'm a social drinker, just like my mom...I guess old habits do die hard. I'm not guilty and not even mad at myself, I had fun and I still have to remember I am in college so what fun is to be here and not take advantage?
Today I woke up late, ack! Not because I was drunk either. But because the power went out and my alarm clock didn't go off *sigh* So I missed my spanish class. Oops! I made it to my marketing class though.
So I didn't get any exercise in yesterday but this week was my 3 x's a week workout and I'm on track, I worked out Monday and Wednesday and I'll be going later this evening. Maybe when I leave her even. I didn't have breakfast, but had some water and a bite of beef jerky. I have nutrigrain bar in purse to snack on until I get lunch (which will be a grilled chicken salad). I'm still taking my daily vitamins though.
Sunday I am going to write out my eating plan for the next week and then make my grocery list and go shopping accordingly.
Any suggestions on what to buy/eat? I need help here guys! What's GOOD food that is easy to make and low in calories/sodium? I'd love suggestions!
Ok, it's freezing in here and I need to go get my dog, he's probably starving just like me!
Today's Quote:
By: Lee Lacocca You've got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It's called perseverance.
Hello ladies!! Before I start my post I want to thank EACH and EVERYONE OF YOU for you kind, encouraging, thoughtful words on my last post. You will never know how encouraging it was to me! You guys have welcomed me with open arms and I'm thankful for that. I've found me a new home here ;)
There's a lot on my mind today, so bare with me, this may be long. I warned you guys early about my tendency to be lengthy earlier, so don't be shocked!
As my title says, I feel more positive than I did yesterday, even though the scale said otherwise[up 2lbs from Monday :(]! I woke up today feeling defeated but that's just what the devil wants! That's what stops so many of us from progressing and falling back into our old habits. Which I did. I ate McDonalds today! I haven't had that in SOOO LONG! I ate 2 snack wraps...Not bad as a cheeseburger BUT I had to have fries...a small fry but a fry none the less. Argh! I was so mad at myself for that. My stomach was too. I haven't ate fast food or fried foods in so long, I think it was hard for my stomach to digest. I had the worst tummy ache today. It was awful. I definately learned my lesson! So that was 900 calories IN ONE MEAL! Yea, pretty awful. I also skipped breakfast because I woke up late :( So all I had was a water for breakfast, which caused me to feel like I was starving and retreating to McDonalds for lunch. But I've learned not to do that anymore and moving on!
Wins for today
Eating a cup of grapes, so I got in a serving of fruit
Drinking 60z of water
Exercising!!!- I got in an hour of cardio today [up 10 minutes from previous workouts!] I also added my weight training in today. I did arms and abs today. I did 3 machines working on my arms, 3 sets of 12-15 reps. I got in about 160 abs. Burnt about 550 calories during cardio. So I think it was a pretty damn good workout today!
Recognizing I eat horribly when I feel horribly, taking steps to change that
Also with recognizing I eat horribly when I feel horribly I recognized some other things that I need to work on. It's going to take real effort and a lot of work on my end but to be successful, I have to do it.
First off, I think I work out at the wrong time of day. I work out after 8pm every night. Which makes it hard for me to go to bed at a decent time. Today I was going to skip my workout but I made myself go at 10p.m, way too late! So I need to start going either as soon as I get out of class or in the morning when I have my evening classes. Also, my going to the gym so late has me coming home hungry, which makes me eat dinner late. Even if it's healthy, it's still really late to be eating a whole meal. I can't eat before I workout because my stomach will cramp and I'll still be hungry afterwards. Next, I need to prioritize and stop letting others affect my goals. If my "friends" are going out, I feel I always have to go. So I either miss a work out or eat bad because I'm the only one watching what I eat. I need to wake up earlier on days I have my evening classes. I used to work during the morning but I don't have to do that anymore [small blessing from God!] so I took that as in a time to sleep in, nope! I could be studying, doing homework or at the gym. So that's my need to work on list...
Also, I've figured out that I do best with a plan..All aspects of my life. Financially, physically, emotionally, etc...So eating is no different. I will try to start doing weekly meal plans and doing my grocery shopping accordingly. I will also leave room for quick meals/snacks I grab on campus[within reason]. That will start Sunday. I'm also going to snag the Victory Chart idea. I think that will be so good for me. Seeing that and having to look at it daily will help me stay on track! I'll do weekly rewards to myself. I'm a shopaholic so I will reward myself weekly instead of just shopping because. My ultimate reward when I lose my 50lbs will be a pair of Rock & Republic jeans and/or a pair of Ed Hardy Jeans and/or a pair of True Religon jeans. LOL. The reason they are a reward for the end is because they all cost no less than $150 a pair, so I don't want to buy some and keep losing or gain back, so I'll wait til Im at goal to buy them.
So I will finish off this week strong as possible and go after next week with a reinvigorated passion! Thanks to you guys :)
My stomach and legs are feeling might tight...I love this feeling!
Ok, it's 2am, I'm going to bed. I want to get up and work on some homework and study. Finals are coming soon!
Today's Quote:
Self-confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings. -Author unknown
So I just had a woe is me, pity party post written but I've decided to delete it. It's bad energy that I don't want. I complained about how I can't afford healthy food and how I'm losing motivation to work out. Even talked about how I was feeling depressed about seeing no results with my rigorous workout. But I won't it get to me. I know I'm just having a craptacular day and I won't let it get me down. I CAN'T! I KNOW I CAN DO THIS! I have just realized that trying to eat "healthy" on my own at this point in my life is not feasible. I need help or intervention because being in college, it's so easy to eat horribly and not workout. I can not wait until January when I can start WW. I think that will really help me. Because right now, I'm up and down and I just really want a steady decline. Until then I will continue my 50 min-3 to 5 day a week workout and lowering my portions.
Another culprit I've found in my diet is sodium. I didn't realize how much sodium I was taking in daily. That could be the reason that my blood pressure stays high [which is why my doctor is worried and even has me checking 3 times a week] I've read that sodium is a link to high blood pressure among other things. But everything that I eat with low calories has high sodium. I had soup for lunch that was only 214 calories but it had over 1,000mg of sodium. NO BUENO! Could that be a reason I feel bloated all the time? I've noticed my belly is more pudgy than normal and I've actually paid MORE attention to my eating and calories...It's supposed to be the other way around!
This week didn't start out good with how I was eating but I plan to end it on a much better note! I just haven't been able to go grocery shopping this week so I'm out of fruit and all my "healthy" planned meals. So tomorrow I will try to make something out of nothing with what I have to stay within my calorie range. I was so busy with stuff today that I didn't make it to the gym. I could have went this morning but I overslept until 11:30 when bf called and woke me up! Shame, shame. I'm going tomorrow though! The roomate and I put up Christmas decorations last night. My tree is so cute. It's tiny but it's just enough for our apartment. It's decorated in red and gold. If only I could keep the dogs away from it!
So I haven't had a good week as far as eating but yesterday when I weighed in I was up 1.4lbs, atleast I didn't gain the 2lbs over the holiday. So I can fess up and not feel bad :) WTG for me! I just hate how easily my weight will flucuate. It seems as soon as I put food in my mouth the scale goes up. *sigh* such is life...
Win for yesterday: I made it to the gym. Did 50 minutes of cardio, burning around 550 calories, yay dat!
Ok, bf is waiting for a call back so I must go.
Today's quote:
Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections. Saint Francis de Sales
So my trip home was, ok. I was so excited, I know. But sometimes the family you love so much can be the same family that gets on your damn nerves til no end. That's exactly what my family did. I realized how much I love living on my own, in my own apartment! I don't think I ever could move back home unless I had no other choice. Hopefully, it won't come down to that. Highlights of the week/end: church services, spending time with granny, Black Friday shopping & seeing my Godchildren [3yrs old and 4 months old]. That's pretty much it. My bff kinda flaked on me the whole weekend but it's to be expected, although it still pissed me off. *sigh* Gotta let that go.
With the week/end going unplanned added alot of time for me to be home, bored. Which meant snacking on leftovers, Ugh! I knew I shouldn't have but I did anyway. Can we say no willpower. I felt guilty for eating so poorly all weekend. And it was rainy and freezing cold so there was no way to go outside and walk/run the park that I wanted to. Plus my family doesn't understand my weightloss attempts so I always fill like I have to downplay or act like I'm not doing it. I just feel embarassed around them about it. So I just try to act like I'm not. Which in turn means eating bad like them and not sticking to my plan. But I'm home now and I'm back on track so far. I'm going to gym this evening and doing 50 minutes of cardio and weights. I'm gonna incorporate weights in my workout again. I was doing just cardio to burn fat but I need to tone up so I'll do both.
I want to join weight watchers because so many people I know have done it and was successful. I need a lot of structure when it comes to diet, so the points will help me be accountable, have structure and still have control over what I eat and what I WANT to eat. Which helps since I'm on the college student grocery budget. I was going to join in December but I think I'm gonna wait until they do the no sign up fees promotion. If you know when that is, can you let me know?
Today I had a nutrigrain yogurt bar and water for breakfast. And I had a piece of sweet potato pie for snack, YIKES! I know, awful. And it's sad I've been eating it since Thanksgiving. I told yall that was going to be my weakness as far as eating! On Thanksgiving I didn't have 2nds but I did snack and eat it for lunch and dinner all weekend :( I made Patti Labelle's over the rainbow macaroni and it was AWESOME! Not for my diet but it tasted delicious. Everyone loved it! Thank God it's gone and I'm home so I won't be tempted to eat it. I've found that I have the most problem with resiting food. If it's in front of me, I ususally give in and eat it. If it's not around I don't have a craving for it AND I eat much better. I bought cookies for Tday and I put them in the back and fridge and forgot to cook them and didn't any, so that was a GOOD mistake! My grandmother sent a WHOLE sweet potato pie home with me, I knew I'd eat it all if I kept it here so I gave 1/2 of it to my boyfriend..Yay! I couldn't give it all but half is good for me :)
Speaking of my bf, he took me on the most AWESOME date last night. I got back here at about 4:30pm from my drive home. I unpacked and got dressed in record time and headed downtown to meet him. He paid for me to valet park since it was so cold and then walked me into this club. I had no clue what to expect because he wouldn't tell me where we were going. We walked into this really nice lounge type club and it had a nice flow of music playing and bf walked me to our couch in the cut and sat down. He was being real loving and just attentive. I LOVED IT! It turned out to be poetry night. So we sat there listening to poets and music and it was so nice. I loved the atmosphere and bf was being very sweet. And of course I had drinks. My favorite drink, 2 actually, would have been 3 if the bartender didn't take it while I was in the bathroom. I love Armeretto sours, mmm! So the date was just great. The best thing about my bf is that he loves me...He doesn't talk bad about my body and supports me going to the gym and my weightloss but never says I HAVE TO DO IT or that he likes my body better small. He encourages me so I can be healthy. We've had our share of problems, but I love him. Next month will be 2 years for us. *sigh*
Sorry for the sappy stuff guys!
This has gotten really long so I'm gonna go.
Have a good day ladies!
I'm gonna start doing quote of the day on my blogs so here's todays:
By David Viscott You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be.
I made it home safely...It took me about 2 hours and 45 minutes. I made it in one piece. My dog (a little yorkie named Duece) was ALL over the car, he wouldn't sit still for anything. But another than that annoyance, the trip was fine. Good music helps tons.
My mom and I went to the Thanksgiving service at church and it felt so good to be back in my home church! I'm gonna go Sunday before I leave to go back to Houston. My BF has reservations to take me somewhere, he won't tell me where, just that I need to dress up. So it should be nice, I'm really anxious, I hope it's fun *crosses fingers*
Um my eating has gone down the drain already. I know I have control over portions and stuff but when my mom brings home food, I can't just say no I can't eat it. She will say "YOU DONT NEED TO BE ON A DIET..." So I just eat it to satisfy her. I'll make up for it when I get back to school. I had 3 pieces of little ceaser pizza for dinner :X Yikes. Woke up too late for breakfast so I just had a chicken sandwinch and diet coke on the road for lunch. Not to shabby. Oh, I been picking in granny's sweet potatoe mix..Mmm! That's gonna be my diet killer tomorrow.
The temperature has really dropped! And it's super windy. So a walk at the park is out. I'll just walk the mall plenty of times on Friday. Anyone else going black Friday shopping? If so, where? I think I want to just hit up the stores in the mall and Target.
Ok, I told my bff I'd come see her tonight and I'VE MISSED HER TERRIBLY! So, off I go!
Ok, I'm happy for this thakful list idea. I love it and so I'm going to participate! [tidbit] breakfast was good for me! Bagel, turkey sausage and oj [end tidbit]
What I'm Thankful For:
1. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I was always raised in a Christian household and was made to go to church every Sunday, but not until I was 18 did I really establish a relationship with him, enjoy church and understand what being a child of God meant. Now that I know, I couldn't imagine not having him as my savior. I know that there is nothing I can't handle or survive because I have faith. So my relationship with Christ and my church is something I'm very thankful for! I'm very thankful I was able to find a good church while attending college. I was scared I wouldn't find one here because I loved my church back home so much. But thank God I have, right?!
2.My mother. She is my very best friend. She can say things I don't wanna hear or annoy me but I know she always has my best interest in heart. I know that I can confide in her without being judged or ridiculed. I can talk to her like I do my girlfriends and she does as well. We've grown together so much, in highschool we were almost enemies. But looking back I'm so glad she was the mother she was because it's made me the woman I am and I know I'll be great because of her!
3. My job/internship. Not many college students at 20 years old can say they love their job, they are doing something that is going to help their careers after graudation, but I can. I was blessed with this wonderful experience and I get paid [good] for it! I get paid enough to support myself AND shopping habit while in college. What more can I ask for? I get flexibility, hands on experience and a job upon graduation! I also gained one of my very close mentors/friends from it and it's just invaluable! This summer is going to be even greater! I'm so thankful God has blessed me with this so early in life...I feel that I'm well on my way.
4.My best friend. We have been friends since we were 4 & 5 years old. Anytime I have a problem or a joke she's there to laugh or cry with me. She listens and knows me almost better than I know myself. She gives me real advice and sometimes I don't want to hear it but it's because it's the real truth. Noone wants to hear the truth. She's honest and loyal to the core. Life would be so boring without her.
5. College. Without coming here and having this experience I'd be in such a different place right now. I've gained so much knowledge [inside and out] of the classroom. I've gained real life lessons and experiences. I know how to live and survive on my own. I've gained coping skills. I've found, lost and retrieved love. I have gained and lost friendships. I've had heartache and pain but it's taught me so much. I could not have gotten this at home. I'm so thankful that I have my college tuition paid for and I don't have to stress [for the most part] about it. My mom doesn't have to struggle just to make sure I can get an education, so for that I am thankful.
There's many more but I'm limited to 5.
Ok, I'm off to finish some photography work and then off to my last class. If I don't write again before Thanksgiving, HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING LADIES!!!
P.S.- I smell really good today ;) I put on my W perfume from Banana Republic and it's AWESOME, lol. That's all.
So today was a horrible day with eating. Breakfast and morning snack was good. Lunch was the killer. I had the free Thanksgiving lunch a fraternity provided. It was really good but I overdid it..Really bad. I knew I was but couldn't help myself. I went wrong with a 2nd helping of mac and cheese and the deserts. I didn't really eat a whole piece of cake or pie but I had 2 sugar cookies and a brownie :( Not so good. And I had 2 cups of juice. But I had veggies and lean meat so all wasn't lost...right? So for dinner all I had was Special K cereal and a banana. Had to make up for that awful lunch.
I did go to the gym today though! I got in 50 minutes of cardio burning about 550 calories. My legs are definately feeling the burn baby. I ran a mile, did 20 minuts of the eliptical and 10 minutes on the bike. So not too shabby. Hopefully that will take the edge off of today's overkill. I also had 64oz of water, so that's another win.
I weighed myself, even though I KNEW it wouldn't be a good thing to do. It's that TOM so I figured I was bloated and gained...Sure enough, 2lbs up. YIKES! It really bummed me out. But this is just motivating me more! So I'll be in the gym tomorrow morning AND evening. I'm gonna do times tomorrow and hopefully get one workout in before I leave for home on Wednesday. I'm gonna be so busy there I doubt if I'l have time to work out. I'll try to do a cardio tape or something before bed but I highly doubt it.
Tomorrow is the last day of classes for the week!! I'm ecstatic about that. I'm mad that my professors are still having class. Most just give us the day off. They don't wanna be there as much as we don't. But not mine. Well, my photography class is optional but we have to work on our final print. My desktop publishing class will have a lecture...boo! I have afternoon classes so I won't be done until 5p.m, ugh! I also have to pack and get ready to head on the highway Wed. morning. It should take me about 2.5 hours to get home. It's supposed to take 3 but the way I drive, lol, it'll take 2.5.
Anywho, I think I'm gonna watch mindless tv until it knocks me into a coma. Goodnight ladies!!
Good evening ladies. Hope you all had a wonderful weekend. Mine was good, real chill actually. Saturday I got up at an unGodly hour to go do community service for an organization I'm apart of. I volunteered from 7a to 1pm. They had breakfast and lunch provided. Of course it wasn't anything healthy, when they feed mass people it's the most inexpensive food served. So as expected they had donuts and drinks for breakfast. It was way to early so I had a diet Coke to wake me up and a donut. Not a good decision but hunger always takes over. Once I win the battle with hunger, I'll be good. Lunch was better. I had a bbq beef sandwinch, diet coke and handful of chips. Yet again, not good but free. That's the key word in college. So it just meant work out hard in the gym.
Volunteering was fun. We got to help out incoming freshmen that are coming next fall. They are so cute. Their parents are funny. I enjoyed it. Then we went to a community health fair. It wasn't too much going on there, kind of unorganized so we left.
I had dinner and a movie with my roomate last night. She cooked chicken parmesan and noodles. I LOVE LOVE LOOOVE chicken parmesan. One of my favorite dishes. It was chicken breast so it was a good lean meat that was baked. I also added peppers and cooked a side of vegetables for myself. So that wasn't too unhealthy. We watched A Mighty Heart with Angelina Jolie about the reported killed in Pakistan. It was really good!
I had 64oz of water yesterday so that was a win.
Today after a wondeful church service my roomate and I decided to have brunch at iHop. I had scrambled eggs with peppers and salsa, whaffle and sausage. Fresh squeezed oj on the side :)
Dinner shouldn't be too bad. I have to study for 2 quizzes so if I hurry I can still make it to the gym. If not, I'll just go twice on Tuesday before I go home for Thanksgiving! I'm really excited to be going home and seeing my family. I need to be in the comfort of my family right now.
Today in church, our preacher talked about Evidence of his goodness. And it was so good. A point he made was be thankful always and be thankful for what you don't have, IE: cancer, heart disease,etc.. So while I'm so concentrated on losing weight and wondering why I just can't be skinny like my brother or friends I'm thankful I'm not obese to the point I can't move or get out of bed, that I haven't developed any diseases and that I am able to exercise to get the weight off. So it was a really good message for my heart. Gotta love it...
Ok, I can't procrastinate with this studying any longer. So off I go to study. Have a goodnight.
Hello ladies! Today(Tonight rather) has been tiring and tomorrow looks to be the same. I'm glad it's the weekend though.
After yesterday's big wins, I woke up today ready to conquer the world. Maybe a little too eager but it was good energy none the less. I had all of that energy until I rolled over and looked at the alarm clock and realized that class starts in 30 minutes and I'm just waking up. Yea, no bueno. So, for breakfast I only had time to grab a special K bar and oj. But I put rice cakes and water in my bag to hold me over because I knew today was a long day.
Lunch-reheated fajitas and fiesta rice. I love cooking healthy dinners because I can have it for lunch the next day.
Dinner- I soo didn't know what I was gonna do for dinner. I didn't want to cook and I didn't want to get fattening fast food. But then my friend invited me to college ministry at church, so I went. It was good and it was awesome! The message and speaker were great. Then they informed us they were serving dinner. They served turkey, ham, dressing, green beans, etc...I didn't eat all the had. I made sure my plate was nice and colorful with veggies and lean meat. I had 2 slices of ham (ok maybe 2.5) green beans, corn, yams, and a roll(or 2). I'm awful at resisting temptation, I have to work on that. But eating veggies is a big thing for me so I'm happy I had 3 servings of veggies. And they had tons of desert, I calmed my urge by just having a bite of my friends banana pudding that was AWESOME. I think I ate too much but having that many veggies was a win for me.
For a snack I had the other half of my pop tart to please my sugar craving, it was only 50 calories.
I also started taking a woman's daily vitamin today so hopefully that will help me get the nutrients my body's been neglected of.
Didn't make it to the gym today but I will be going tomorrow. Hoping for 500 calories burned tomorrow.
I got all of the kinks worked out for my schedule next semester, so THANK GOD for small miracles.
Ok, it's late, I have 7am community service tomorrow so I'm gonna cut this short.
